I fucking lost my cat recently named Star who I got her when she was only two years old. Recently she fucking passed away this month only being 15 years old being euthanized. Star is my fucking first cat I ever own that I fucking gave the last "I love you" through facetime with my sister. Star was very moody cat giving me that "Really?" expression and fucking yet she can be sweet and fucking kind especially she would fucking slept in my bed or fucking near at the top edge of the ceiling near me in bunk bed. I fucking remember she would fucking go damn crazy with catnip that I fucking jokingly called the catnip "drugs for cats" that she fucking look like shitler crack addict. There was also the fucking time she would sometimes climb up onto neightbors' roofs that my siblings and I fucking have to use cat treats to get her down because she love those milk flavored treats a lot and the noise when you fucking shake the treat bag and Star will be fucking zoom by to get the cat treats. I fucking also like talking to Star even I would assumed she is being moody and sarcastic. Here are the fucking photos what that cutey pie shiny fur cat looks like.
Because of what fucking happened I fucking think lot of things that I have fucking done in the past and fucking learned that this bullshit fandom community is not fucking real community at all! Look I am not fucking great person because I am giant prick asshole in fucking both IRL and fucking Internet such as punching my roommate's face and calling my roommate ignorant retard. I also fucking being asshole years ago by fucking ruining deaf artist's friendship fucking because I was very damn jealous over fictional character's relationship over my petty feeling over some boy in high school. I did even fucking a lot more such as arguing at the deaf artist over myself being bullshit petty and giant spoiled brat. I fucking mean the deaf artist is really cool person such as not being judgmental or fucking being understanding even though I was being very goddamn mean to the deaf artist. That deaf artist is very fascinated with art and just want anyone to fucking talk about art, anime, games, or anything weird. I tried to fucking made up to the deaf artist by giving the Amazon gift card that is about $200 to say sorry even if the deaf artist don't take it or ignore least that is fucking goddamn better.
What is surprising despite what I fucking seen in all the posts and what I read in my orange friend's server that the deaf artist was having medical problems about having the stomach being twisted and being upset that deaf artist's cat is being sick. As why in the fuck ignore the deaf artist's plea as deaf artist want someone to comfort to fucking feel like being welcomed. I fucking didn't because I created those shitty memories of fighting, broken friendship, the stuff that cannot fucking be fix nor redeemed. I am not great but at least I am fucking trying while nobody does in the fandom. It is total bullshit the fandom claimed to welcome everyone and being chill when it is doing opposite towards the deaf artist by listening to bullshit rumors and ignoring the deaf artist. Sure the deaf artist is not popular and barely got any likes, followers, reblogs not even comments but the deaf artist is not asking much just least little interaction fucking means a lot. I also want to fucking point out that deaf artist was not really involved in social media judging by deaf artist's public posts. Deaf artist while joined into DeviantArt years ago but made first post in fucking 2019 but only started active around 2022 the same year when using tumblr. Even so that doesn't mean the deaf artist fucking gain lot of interaction for some years being casted out by the fandom community.
I don't fucking care if anyone calls me bullshit, pity seeking, or just not important but that is fucking proving my goddamn point that people are ignoring about the deaf artist even that deaf artist tries to reach out to anyone even with lack of social skills at least that deaf artist is trying. If one day if I ever found out that deaf artist committed suicide, I am blaming the entire fandom because when person is gone they are fucking gone! I cannot bring my cat Star back that means nobody can bring back the deaf artist back! Fuck you all if you all want to continue to doing nothing not even make simple welcome gesture to the deaf artist. There is good reason why deaf artist doesn't share much art because of shitty friend stole deaf artist's idea and spreading false information on deaf artist to make deaf artist want to give up and not bother making art. Deaf artist fucking love art being passionate artist and gets excited when talking about art. What I have fucking done cannot being erased even over that very cool person who will never judge anyone and willing to fucking listen and will share insight and fucking being supportive for any kind of creativity and fucking get excited doing anything creative and fucking talk and on about movies and anime and games. For that fuck you everyone! If anyone tries to give me shitty sympathy for losing my cat, then this fucking proving my damn point that everyone ignores the deaf artist! I am not seeking out shitard pity attention I don’t care, but this bullshit of fucking ignoring the deaf artist feeling upset and fucking tries to lend a voice that nobody is hearing! If anyone has problem with this post, don't fucking bother I am just venting. I don't want drama but this is total cuntler bullshit. Also if anyone has problem with this post still, just come straight to me not at deaf artist as deaf artist is not aware what I am doing.
If anyone wondering why I keep saying deaf artist, it is fucking because deaf artist has deafness. Deaf artist cannot hear anything and give deaf artist an instrumental music that do not have any lyrics, the deaf artist wouldn't understand the tone and melody from instrumental music or genre like EDM, electro, or even lofi-beats.
