about this all.
SPOILER: This post ends with me not being a Houis, but believing Harry and Louis are together, never having broken up, Louis not being neither a dad nor keen on building himself a closet (aside from maybe when he feels like trying to show Harry he can be Bob the Builder and fully revamp their fantastic closet in one of their homes of love).
I just need to rant/vent a bit, because my mind is a mess and I need to again reaffirm things to myself and also know that I have thought about all potential reasons and outcomes.
Firstly, one of - if not the most important - things I’ve learned in my over 1.5 years in this fandom is to stop being naive. We see what we are meant to see, when we are meant to see things. Louis himself said last week that fans see everything and make connections before anything is confirmed. Thus it didn’t come as a surprise one bit to see that today, he’s linked to Eleanor after that frankly fucking obvious follow farce last night. This all after a few weeks of Louis seemingly found the dad in him, after almost two years of not giving a fuck. I’m not going to really go into how hurtful and horrible his public image is, everything is clearly set out to either 1) Reinforce the horrendous character assassination campaign that’s been on/off for almost two years now or 2) Hype up everything for Babygate to end.
Now optimisim is another thing I decided to get rid off rather soon after tapping into this fandom. I do feel, and especially hope, that all this in-your-face dad! show we have seen is setting up the public sympathy for Louis when Babygate soon ends with him not being a dad.
I personally believe in karma and would thus really bloody hate for any beard to get the honour of suggesting a pat test to Louis, or however they’re planning on setting the final wheels rolling. I would especially hate for that someone to be E. I do absolutely want BG to end a year ago; ideally, E’s new dragging in would result in only this and not continue as a tool for ‘not-Larry’ after BG ends. I don’t know about that though. What I’m sure of is that, as 1D’s team has been very concerned and careful in making sure none of the beards get a scratch to their image when their contracts end, is that a lot of stuff was promised to E. She wouldn’t voluntarily come back from the goodness of her heart to help out a friend, when 1) she has very little goodness and 2) they are not friends.
From what was visible last year, with the Tomlinson-Deakin family’s continuous social media engagement with E, I’m sort of thinking this would’ve been on the making for a while now. It’s not an impromptu Sunday Shenanigan. If, as I still believe, things changed in March - how and why, will never know probably - and D’s contract was until December, I would sway towards believing (as several vague anons seemed to suggest for months) that E would have a role on this after D.
So, hopefully she is brought to give the final push to end BG and nothing more. But I do have to, and have had to throughout being here, also consider that this is all a lot uglier than I’d ever wish.
I wouldn’t be comfortable in rallying about everything I do had I not thought about maybe Larry broke up. Maybe they were never real after all. Maybe Louis does want to closet himself. I don’t think it’s being a weak Larry, I think reassuring yourself and your stance with considering everything possible is smart.
So I did. I thought about Larry never being a thing, and decided that’s bull. I know what I’ve seen. I thought about them having broken up and deemed that as bull as well. I know what I still see. In a way, after the horrendous 2016, I am more sure than ever that these two are probably the most real, beautiful real love I have ever seen.
Then, would Louis closet himself? Not going to lie, there have been moment that I’ve been exhausted and thought that maybe he did. Those moments were very fleeting. If he did, the whole babygate would’ve looked incredibly different. True, I don’t know him but I’m fairly sure in my trust that Louis is an excellently good, if not a perfect, person. He could’ve easily stuck with El or someone else, there is no need to bring in a child. Especially when you go to lengths over again to show how fake it all is. If this were to be believable, it would have been from the start. I don’t know why it started and why it’s been going on so long, but I know it’s not because Louis would want to closet himself in the Love Rat and Douchebag Dad -closet.
I also don’t think any of this can be plainly labeled under ‘Louis’ team is idiots and don’t know how to promo anything without private life matters’. Evidently they are dumb with various things, especially how unorganic they are and how blatantly fake everything is. But this isn’t to promo JHO, the articles aren’t for that. It feels like a build-up for something bigger. They don’t need to bring back a beard to promo one single, especially as they’ve been lagging on that front throughout JHO promo season and also, there’d be a dozen of articles of Louis’ private life to write before even thinking about E. I really don’t think the reason Louis has JGG and the Syco-related goons still as ‘his team’ because they are so excellent at promoting his professional career.
So, as you can see, my head’s a mess and I have no answers. None of this has made me change my opinion about anything, but I am very exhausted with having to constantly see how people I care about are being messed with - and well, that includes me. There’s such a difference between ‘turning’ and taking a break because this has all been very fucking tiring.