#lousy weekend

[fabulousxstains]

Ask me how my day go go...

[blynxart]

[iamagirlfriend]

(vía https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vSyCofG374)

[mysouldrug-store]

Had my heart set on disappointment

[ashfeelsliketrash]

Last weekend was horrible. I had the most uncomfortable time from Thursday on due to a lot of reasons. For three days in a row I had heated arguments with those I hold closest to my heart and I’m still having a hard time going back to normal. I haven’t felt in the mood to change into clothes I feel comfortable with or go out like I planned to. I just stayed home in my PJs and wrote like a madman. Well, at least my book draft is benefiting from all this angst. 

I’ve been so down I’ve been wearing my girly clothes to punish myself. I hate it that that’s my main reaction to stuff... just doing whatever makes me feel the worse. Also had four panic attacks back to back on Thursday. I hadn’t had such a crappy day in YEARS. Also, I find it IMPOSSIBLE to be myself around my mother and that makes me feel like a fifteen year old. I’m almost thirty, surely I shouldn’t mind what she thinks of my looks or voice or anything at all... well, turns out I do. How stupid can I be? 

This nightmarish year is still not over. I don’t want to deal with any more crap. On the good side, I dreamed of my grandma last night. She smiled to me and asked how everyone was. I still miss her but the pain is less acute now. Well, most of times.

[theoneandonlyplap]

Sos

Spending whole weekend with my little cousins and grandmother. Send help.

[hilomusical-blog]

veintiseis del cuatro del dos mil quince a las deiciseis y cuarenta

[smashing-yng-man]

Daniel Johnston | Lousy Weekend Animation by Morgan Enos Films