#love asks

[this-is-indigemisia]

I offer a hug for the mod!

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Thank you! ^_^ I really appreciate it! (っᵔ◡ᵔ)っ

I apologize for not being active on this blog or answering any asks.. I've seen them and I've glanced over them but I haven't found myself to have any energy to respond, and I fear giving poor responses. It's a lot being a marginalized (Indigenous + Jewish) person and reading about racism because I sympathize very deeply. Admittedly, some asks have made me cry, and I wish I knew how to respond to people and help people better.

I've tried running another blog before for a marginalized community unrelated to racism, and I just got overwhelmed and silently abandoned it.

I want people to have a voice but I feel like I'm not emotionally capable enough to provide people with that voice. It's also exhausting when non-indigenous and white people come into my inbox treating me as if I'm the anti-indigeneity encyclopedia.

In reality I'm just a girl who took on a task that was probably too big for me to handle because I don't see anyone else doing it. I understand now why other people aren't doing it.

This isn't me saying that I'm abandoning or deleting this blog. If you want to scream into the void in my askbox, that's fine, but please expect a long wait time and be patient with me. Peace and love to my Indigenous siblings, and I hope you all are well. And I am so sorry that the world is unkind to us just for existing. </3

[whateverthought]

Chicago Med is just a soap opera show. Has been since season 4 started cause that's where the show started to change to be really really intense drama on the characters' personal lives and less on the medical parts. Also changing the way OG characters acted. It felt like most of the OGs were put on steroids for intense negative character development.

I mean its always been kinda Soap Opera-y since episode 1 starts with a new guy getting an action entrance and Maggie going through someone's things and begging a non-english speaking woman to donate her dead fiancée's lungs. But I don't know, when they had Connor go with Lathum?, the autistic Black Jewish doctor and Ava it went WEIRD! And then he fucking left and I was PISSED.

I think having the characters be like the bad guys in situations isn't wrong because some times doctors DO let their lives cloud their actions and yeah some doctors disagree on things, and your view of life and all that its just, repeating the same mistakes, while not impossible, people don't change that easily, felt weird when no one was bringin up how we did this before? Except Will who got his mistakes thrown in his face all the time, and don't get it twisted! He pissed me off a LOT, but everyone else made mistakes they forgave?

And don't get me started on Natalie! I don't bash her cause she's a crazy ex or in the way of Connor/Will, I dislike her cause she's so fucking judgey and the embodiment of Mom Can't Act Normal Around OTHER PEOPLE'S KIDS, and no one ever stopped her till the END. She trapped a child in a room and forced a procedure? GIRL JAIL!

My BIG THING about Chicago Med, past Charles using his power wrong, is that they never focus on bodily anatomy, the patients can say NO! Its not in your power to tell them how to live OR DIE. So many characters just don't listen, good or bad and it pisses me off! Ethan is so judgey, especially of girls! Maggie is nosey as hell and Will/Natalie/Charles think they CAN'T BE WRONG and I'm like, LISTEN! They can make an educated, informed decision you don't agree with at their detriment and you gotta let them! Like they should have all been fired/reprimanded for forcing shit on patients. Its one thing to plead your case, hell you can even dry to them and beg but to stop them from leaving? Hell naaahh.

[loveisloveisacomplicatedgirl]

YOOOOOO!!!!

THE NEXT EPISODE OF THE FANTASY SERIES IN COMING OUT MAY 8TH!!!!!

Let's gooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

the last episode was on the sadder side, so i wonder what's next... we need a win bad rn. everyone is down, and i still really want the alchemist to bring his prince next time he comes through, which probably won't be next, but just putting it out there-!

KIRIIIIIIIIII, i love him so much, but he's going through too much. i hope we get something fun to lighten the mood or a realization from one of the trio 👀 or just something soft that isn't too fleeting. oh my god, this story is making me need a hug

[zharkyloves]

Hi are you still bored and not sleeping

Hi yes I ammmm

[babydinosaur930]

for the love asks: 5, 7 and 11 please

Thank you for the asks, friend !! 🥰🥰🥰

5. Would your OC ever take advantage of someone's romantic feelings in order to manipulate them?

Actually yes. Not by the end of the game. But Ashni before the events of the game absolutely would. She's very aware of being a pawn within her family and there comes a point in her life when she starts looking for ways out--which is why in the wake of the mind flayer attack she takes the opportunity to run. She would not be above using someone's feelings for her to get out of her situation with her family if she thought the alternative was better.

7. What is the most romantic gesture your OC has ever performed? Alternatively (or additionally), what romantic gesture would they most like to perform?

So, there comes a point in game when Ashni realizes she actually hasn't said "I love you" back to Gale. Given her history and trauma she is not necessarily the best at expressing her genuine emotions. But I think there is also part of her that is just so mystified by being loved at all that she just kind of forgets to say it. She's so swept up in the fact that Gale loves her and her love for him is so apparent in her own mind that I think she assumes he knows. This was somewhat inspired by the fact that I did let Ashni dance with Wyll with the intention of it being a fun friendly moment between them. But it still triggered Gale's dialogue where he questions your relationship and if you've fallen for someone else.

Ashni is really taken aback when that happens because a) wyll is childhood bestie and b) she's SO in love with Gale. It triggers this whole, "you know how much i love you, right?" conversation between them. All that to say, Ashni sets up a whole thing then to tell Gale how much she loves him. It's a very vulnerable moment for her, she actually writes it down because she wants to get her words right and he keeps it tucked in his pocket for probably the rest of time. After that Ashni starts to learn more how Gale wants/needs to be loved. She gets better at expressing it and doing some romantic gestures of her own.

11. Has your OC ever been the object of someone's affections that they did not (or could not) reciprocate?

Yes, although "affection" might be a bit of a stretch. Before the events of the game her family is in the process of organizing her engagement to another noble who is willing to "look past" her heritage. They never became officially engaged before Ashni was taken by the mind flayers. I'm still kind of fleshing out that part of her story.

I think Ashni also had to deal with some leering noble types who sexualized her for being a tiefling. She got very good at avoiding those interactions but it's also part of the reason she's so wary of ppl at the start of the game.

[heliosophyyy]

[notafraidofredyellowandblue]

do we know if aljoscha rompe and till have ever met or interacted? i know at that time, taking this from it's the world's birthday today, till was more of a mutual friend of theirs through richard if i'm not mistaken, which makes me curious to know if they ever met.

i googled it, and google is not very helpful these days so this is most likely bogus, but in rammstein's little documentary (i think look out we're coming to get you?) aljoscha or just feeling b in general is somewhat mentioned but i'd have to watch it

if they didn't meet, oh well. but its cool to think about what they would've chatted about ;D

Hi! I *think* i once saw a photo that had both Feeling B and Till in it (at a party or something), but i csn't find it right now.

What i do know, is from the book 'Mix mir einen Drink' is that Feeling B met Till in a village called Hohen Viecheln, where Aljoscha had a friend Poppke, and after a show, Poppke took them to the house of a friend of his where they ate, danced, made music, and only a week later found out the friend was Till Lindemann 😊 i haven't done a book quote on that bit yet, maybe i will in a few days, it's actually a fun story 😊

Die Firma also knew Till and spent time at his house to rehearse, also a nice story, basically all those bands knew eachother, and played together in various settings.

I don't think they knew Richard (Sven at the time) before that, i think Richard new Till from when they lived in Schwerin, and Richard also played in some bands, but think only when Paul, Schneider and Richard played at various times in Die Firma, they became better acquainted (not sure if that's mentioned in the book).

Not what you asked, but here a nice pic of Paul and Flake watching a concert in Hohen Viecheln, where we know from the caption that Till's band First Arsch is playing 🌺

edited: i found the old post with the video of a party at Aljoscha's where Till was too, unfortunately the link to the video doesn't seem to work anymore, but maybe we can find it somewhere else 🌺