I’ve heard all my life about how this world will drain you and I’ve realized that it’s true. I’ve never had a best friend. All I had was my sister. I never realized how much life was pulling me into thinking i was such a waste of life because I never had anyone to love me. My sister loved me but she didn’t love me enough, I’ve always needed more that one person to love me. That’s who I am, and that’s not her fault. But I know that if I was with you, I would only need you. I wouldn’t need someone else. I can be cold and i can mistreat others but you made me realize how beautiful this world is everyday and I promise everyday that i will try my hardest to put everything I can into making you happy. I was crushed when I was reminded how fake that was when I met my parents again but I tried to put my all into helping you after the fight... into fixing you. I knew you didn’t need much fixing, but I made myself think you needed fixing so that I had a reason to love you without admitting it to myself. When I go outside and get cold I’m trying to keep myself warm. But I don’t want to just warm myself, I want to warm you so that you can experience life the best way possible. The best way possible with me. I want to always be there to warm you, even when life does drain me and i give up and my body gets too cold to produce any heat. When I came back to home, I didn’t care that you hurt me previously. I didn’t care. I didn’t realize how much I had fallen for you. You made me realize that it really doesn’t matter that my coat is not the thickest coat, but that it still gives off warmth and life. I will love life. If you dont feel the same way, I will still love life. Because I have loved you. Even if you don’t love me back, I will run away somewhere knowing that I loved you to the fullest. And I will warm all that I can where I go. When I am put in a bad place, I will love everyone around me no matter what the circumstance is, knowing that I had spread my love to you, knowing that I could do it again. Before I met you I would never of said any of these words, but you made me realize how much I can do. How much I can say. How much I can love. How much I can love you. Loving me could be worth it ..