Okay wait now alternative au to home videos where it’s angst, reader and Schlatt break up and a LONGG time after he finds the videos
home videos pt.2
a/n: omg. i'm so glad you said this anon. also will be my first time writting angst so lmk if you like it! also, read home videos if you want the full context! also made another part if you're interested -> home videos pt.3
sfw, schlatt x gender neutral reader, angst, broken up, no happy ending
warnings: mentions of alcohol, swearing
word count: 1.1k (wow i didn't expect to write this much lol...)
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you and schlatt have been broken up for at least 2 years. it was mutual, or so you though. you were stressed from everything happening in your life and so being in a relationship with someone who was famous made everything else so much more stressful. schlatt understood. he tried to reason with you at first but ultimately knew you weren't going to change your mind. the best thing for you was to have him.
luckily he kept you a secret from his fanbase, only wanting to reveal you when the two of you were serious about this relationship. he tried to continue his online persona for another two weeks until he took a break from the internet for a second. he couldn't keep up. how could he pretend that everything in his life was going perfectly? he felt like as if the future that he had was completely erased. never to be explored.
during the first two months of your breakup, schlatt would just ignore every single thing that reminded him of you. if he was driving with music playing, he would skip every song that had even the slightest memory of you. if he went out to eat with some friends and saw your favorite food on the menu, he'd get himself in such a grumpy mood. even seeing someone that reminded him of you just made him feel so uncontrollably upset.
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"oh shut up. i'm fine i just woke up weird." schlatt huffed, already annoyed with his twitch chat. he finally returned to the internet after six months. he's been trying to move on. he was at least able to listen to the older songs and not get grumpy when he sees your favorite food. though, his persona was definitely a different one than his chat was used to before. he was more defensive, more irritated but also more quiet.
they questioned him, wondering what even happened, but all the answers they would get is him telling them to just move on and "not be parasocial for once". they then quickly learned that they would never get a true response out of him and gave up.
he ended his stream, most likely peeved from a chat saying something along the lines of a break up.
he got up from his chair, walked to his kitchen and poured a glass of whiskey. he exhaled a deep sigh before he took his first sip. he went back to his streaming room and started looking at his past vlogs. he needed to edit his japan trip he took during his break from the internet and decided now was the perfect time to do so. he put on his headphones and went into his editing software.
while looking through his files he found one that peaked his interest. then he widen his eyes as he remembered what the file contained.while looking through his files he found one that peaked his interest. then he widen his eyes as he remembered what the file contained. he stood still for a moment, his mouse hovering over it. was he ready to look at them? did he even want to? why hasn't he deleted these yet? all these questions circling around in his mind, almost taunting him.
he took one last sip of his drink and double clicked on the file. he couldn't believe how many videos he took of you. as he scrolled, he thought that there had to be at least 50 hours worth of footage. there were clips of trips, dates, and schlatt pestering you about whatever questions he had. he clicked on a video of the two of you at some carnival that you really wanted to go to and schlatt just couldn't say no to you.
"dude look how huge this cotton candy is compared to my face!" you giggled, putting the cotton candy right next to your head. "honey, if you put it too close you'll get that sugary shit on your hair." he chuckles, trying to make a small border between you and the cotton candy. he pauses the video. he stares at your face on the monitor. your wide eyes that seem to have a sparkle in them. your precious wide smile that never fails to give him the same one. he looks down to his keyboard. he has to move on.
he clicks on another video. this time they're in a pier. he sees you swaddled up on a puffer jacket and looking out at the ocean. "god it's so peaceful here." you turn to look over your shoulder and into schlatt's face. "i feel like i can be here forever." schlatt just hums in agreement, shaking his camera yes. he pauses again. he takes in this different side of you. your pink cheeks and nose revealing itself because of the cold. how calm you seem to be. such a difference to the version of you at the carnival.
he clicks on one last video. he has to move on before he spends the next week looking through the rest of them. this time though, the video seemed to be recorded by just you. your face is in the camera but it's too close to be recorded by someone else. he lets the video play.
"hi schlatt! i saw that you left your camera in your room and i wanted to leave you a little message" you grin all triumphantly. then your face changes slightly. it shifts into a very sincere look, almost as if you were about to confess something. "i'm glad i met you. my life feels so crazy but with you it feels like it was meant to be y'know?" you look down, feeling a little bit bashful.
"you're a really sweet guy and i hope you know that i do really love-" schlatt clicks off the video. he can't bring himself to listen to the final sentence. not after all the time he had to try to move on from you. he exits out of the software and just stares at his screen. his eyes start stinging and a lump in his throat started to appear. he loved seeing your face, your personality and your kind words, but he also hated that he still had these videos. they weren't supposed to be for him after all. they were supposed to be for the schlatt that actually got to stay with you. the one that is still making you laugh and still asking you things until you get annoyed but still continue to talk to him.
he felt a tear fall down on his hand.
