Dear Lost Love,
i still miss you
I hope you’re doing good, smiling from ear to ear like you always did with me,I hope you still miss me when you think of going out at beaches, when you think of being lonely, when you think of gin or just whenever or maybe you don’t.
its been a month since we last fought, i kept angry hoping you’d come to make me, but when you didn’t come to make me, a lot of other feelings, emotions and realizations did.
i realized i wasn’t ever important to you. i realized i was trying too hard to hold it together, when you could see me everyday, you missed me, but now that were far may be you ceased to think of me.
i know you cared for me, made me feel at home, kept me in the best possible way anyone ever has, but meeting you everyday was a need new drug i was having hard trouble to let go. you’re my drug now, and you left me at a state i can only grow wanting more.
i missed you day and night, dreamt of you, imagined you pulling me close to yourself, kissing my forehead and sharing all our laughter.
its hard to erase those memories of you, i guess it takes time.
do you miss me the same way as i miss you? do you think of me while going to bed? do you feel we could have done better to each other? do you ever feel guilty for the things you said to me, that hurt me?
do you miss the way we hung around late nights making love? do you miss how i snorted while you made me laugh? do you...
i know you don’t, i know you will not miss me, but i really miss you, i hope to see you once again and make it all right but i am very angry with the way you let me go, so easily, dint even bother to ask me once if i was okkay.
you know i miss you,you surely do, and i do a lot, and i try not to but i fail every single time,
i begin to relate all my romantic imaginations with you, i cherish the moments we spent laughing, giggling, smiling looking at each other. Sometimes when you made fun of things i did, it hurt-ed me, but i was too fond of the way you're eyes clinched while you smiled with you,re heart, to notice it.
dear ex, even if you don’t miss me, even if you’ve found another confidante, please know this, i still miss you, i am still you’re friend, and no matter what please be safe and healthy, and i wish i could hug you one last time again. in a relationship, but i my heart had already surrendered to your inner beauty, you’ve made me realize sometimes two people are too good to be with each other.
I hope you never read this.
Yours,
Rach