Another reason I relate so much to Ilya is that I went so long cutting myself off from being emotional and affectionate that the second I got into a loving, mutually respectful relationship I became a lovesick fool. an utter court jester. Ilya expressing that affection so openly after admitting his feelings for Shane is so real. Like ‘oh, I’m safe to do this now? Cool, you’re never getting rid of me ever. I am a leech attached to your skin’











