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Somtimes I feel I am able to love everyone... but nobody dont want to love me...

(Eirun De Virot - myself)

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Thanksgiving

Well.. I got to meet my boyfriend’s mom for the first time. I have to say it wasn’t as bad as I thought. I was really nervous about nothing at all, she was really nice to me and I helped her make supper as well. But I’ve been thinking, about this whole “Tell him how I really really feel” thing and, I keep feeling like maybe i’ll end up screwing up, or that i’m really not good enough, or that he’ll get bored of me... It feels like that’s already happening honestly. I’m just not sure how to go about all this.. If I try and talk about it I end up crying like a big ass baby because it scares me so badly.. I actually let how I feel slip when he got my broken phone screen to turn back on, but I’m not sure he knows I mean it seriously.. I was just really excited at the fact that he might have fixed my phone and blurted it out. My main fear though is that He’ll get bored and leave like everyone does eventually.. Worst of all he gets bored easily.. So it’s only a matter of time right? I mean.. Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut and see where it goes, but it scares me when he gets randomly distant... People tend to act strangely when they’ve found someone new..... I wish I wasn’t so insecure. I wish that I would stop feeling like a total idiot... I’d really like to stop being afraid of losing the people I care about. I wish that I could just be happy.. That’s all I want, to be happy with the ones I love.

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The time when I was flustered at 2 am

Love. Obviously, why else would anyone be flustered at this time of the night? I’d like to think I’ve experienced my fair share of whats out there, the good, the bad, the pure evil like the devil’s spawn. And anytime I was crushing hard on someone it was love. LOVE LOVE LOVE. But was it always love? Eh maybe. The first guy I thought I ever loved was when I was 16. I was young and naive, and he was a good guy. The one that got away kinda. After that, it was someone I thought my family would accept and I had a future with. HA. If there’s one piece of advice I could give to my younger self, or anyone younger really is that you really dont need to think so far ahead, because whats that really going to do for you when reality hits and BAM your parents are asking you if youre dating anyone and its not the guy you thought you’d spend the rest of your life with when you were 18. Lol. And after him, man oh man the next guy. If someone ever tells you that a break up physically can hurt you, they are 100000% correct. This was the most painful thing I’ve ever been through. It hurt my brain thinking about him, and that gut wrenching feeling, ugh...like you have absolutely no control over anything in your life and you want to stop feeling everything. If anyone is going through that now, let me tell you, it all passes with time. It sucks, but it does go away. Between that, another guy waltzed in and out of my life, and it hurt. But after a while I realized that was just an infatuation. So is it possible to be in love more then once? Was I ever really in love with any of them? I dont know about the first two, but the gut wrenching guy, I think I was. But this time, this time its different. He came into my life out of no where, definitely not my type so I didnt see it at first. He was awkward, and sweet, and the first guy to not make a perverted comment when I mentioned I was home alone. He had me hooked, cause lets be honest, how often to sweet guys come along? I felt like the prettiest girl in the world, and I felt like the luckiest girl to have him. He made it seem like he was lucky to have me, and we were great, amazing, wonderful, so full of love. Like actual love. Unconditional, weirdly emotional,googly oeey gooey love. I knew I was in love when I found myself praying for him along with my family at night. Also when we went to Montreal, I was crying at the club to him because I realized I loved him lol ugh love. So why am I up now writing all this? To vent I guess. My friend says relationships are like roller coasters, they have their ups and downs. But I think in relationships, people go through phases. Someone always like the other person more, and vice versa. But I feel stuck. I thought we were even, but I don’t think so anymore. I love him more and more ever day but I feel like his love has just plateaued. That sucks. Anytime I’m upset over a guy, I always listen to this podcast, Your Brain on a Break up from stuff mom never told you. I don’t know why, it makes me feel good, and I’ve listened to it more times then I’d like to mention. Basically. they say that studies have been conducted on post break up miserable sad people to prove that its all in your head. Long story short, when you’re in love, reward neurons are firing off and when you’re deprived from love, or you feel rejected its those neurons going even more crazy because there’s no reward. Now don’t quote me on this, its just the gist of it. So I am up at 2 am blaming my reward neurons. Damn you! I just want my neurons to calm down, and be cool. Is that too much to ask for brain? WHO’S SIDE ARE YOU ON, MINE OR HIS?! All of this makes you think though, is love all fairytales and butterflies, or just the right neurological pathways being made at the right time. Makes you feel like lame about being in love, if its all just in your head. Now imagine if there was ever a pill to control those neurons, it would sell like hot cakes! I know I’d want to use them. But then again, there’s a lot to learn from break ups. I know I learned a lot from the gut wrench guy. I want to believe love is real, but its soothing knowing it might just be physical and not a magical thing. So I guess I’ll just leave it up in the air, is love real, all in your head, or some where in the middle?

zed

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