been feeling in a particularly Malleus mood as of late, many ideas. bit of crack here, bit of fluff there, all of it angst i feel that he needs to suffer a little bit
anyways since my last song thing for Mal was angst with Bad Bunny, here's a few lyrics from BAILE INoLVIDABLE that I think suit him:
Pensaba que contigo iba a envejecer/En otra vida, en otro mundo podrá ser/En esta solo queda irme un día/Y solamente verte en el atardecer
Translates best to: I thought I'd would grow old with you/In another life, in another world it could be/In this one I can only leave one day/And only see you in the sunset
Fits well because Malleus, no matter how much he desires otherwise, will out live you. He will never even have the pleasure of experience life the same way you will, still considered young an naive by Draconia standards by the time you've grown wrinkled and frail and wise. Perhaps if you were born as a fae like him, he could have convinced you to let him find a way to extent your lifespan. Or perhaps if he'd been born in your world, a soft and frail human like you, he'd be able to truly experience life and all it's twists and turns and aches and pains and joys and loves with you. Instead, he will watch as the light you bring him fade away, lingering as long as possible until it's snuffed out with your last breath. Like a watching the sunset, the brilliant hues shifting and slowly descending into black as the sun is swallowed whole by the earth and only the night sky remains. The only light that would still exist be that of the moon who, like Malleus after your death, only shine from the reflection that the sun gives her.
No, no te puedo olvidar/No, no te puedo borrar/Tú me enseñaste a querer
Translates best to: No, I can't forget you/No, I can't erase you/You taught me how to love
While the last sentence is the correct translation, the last word can have different translations depending on the sentence. Querer is a verb that can mean love, but it can also mean want, wish, cherish, desiderate. Now don't miss understand, Malleus does know love: the love of his parents who created him, the love of Lilia who poured that very love into an egg long thought to never hatch, the love of his two little brothers who vow to never leave his side, the love of his grandmother, the love of his people. Malleus knows love, but the love the two of you have is different.
For all the love he has, Malleus was raised with the expectation that he would become a great king to his people and serve them well, preserve his legacy and future, both his and his people's, and to be someone that preserves Briar Valley. HIs wants, while not necessarily disregarded by those who revere him, are expected to be placed on the backburner for the greater good of his kingdom and people. Malleus, in the end, is not allowed to be selfish, as very few insist he should and even fewer have the power to ensure that he could. But that's where you, the strange human with the even stranger nickname for him, shatter those ideas and practically demand that he allow himself to feel for himself.
And with you? He feels. He loves you. He wants all you would give. He cherishes all that you do give. He desiderates your entire being, body and soul, long after you've passed and the only remnants of your existence are from old tattered photos, your faded handwriting on disintegrating journals, and dozens of paintings that Malleus can't tell anymore are just off or if it's just been so long that your face has faded from his mind.
Oh, now it hurts him to be without you. Oh, how his heart feels like it's missing a piece of itself that died with you. Oh, how part of him curses you for doing this to him. Oh, how part of him loves you for doing this to him. Malleus will forever yearn his one and only Child of Man. Malleus will ensure that part of you will live on forever, that your name will live in history books as the human who ensnared the heart of the fearsome Prince of Briar Valley. You will never be forgotten, never be erased, though your body and soul are long gone, your name and the love you shared with Malleus will forever echo until the world itself ends.
okay anyways thanks for coming to my tedtalk i have another idea now that i will share in a bit
