#low supply

[machineryuri]

I am upset

[72sinkingships]

Recently been coming to terms with being a narcissist. And I'd like to note I'm very pro symptom management. So in the spirit of accountability, Im sorry for past claims of having other mental disorders and possible misinformation that I may of spread that way.

Now, before ppl grab their pitchforks- no, this was not a malicious lie and I was lying to myself just as much to seem more sympathetic, victimized, and out of control..

Why? (Explanation not justification)

When obsessed with reputation and stuck in a pattern of cognitive dissonance, I associated my scattered symptoms with other somewhat similar disorders to control how I'm seen. This is not manipulating for funsies, its a protection of the ego/sense of self.

Cognitive dissonance is wild, and my NPD came from neglect and autistic trauma (needs unmet and social alienation). When you have significant support needs, your survival depends on others' willingness to help you. I have disorganized attachment and dont believe in unconditional love at all.

Trying to find therapy but its hard when I just keep scripting how to look better to them too..

Anyway comment, send asks, idk

I want the attention ngl

[rotting-thots]

Please validate me please validate me please validate me please validate me please validate me please validate me please validate me please-

[pinkpop1997]

pixels for sale

[goblyn-snot]

is there an app for finding toilet paper yet

[tomboyjessie13]

I only got one more blank piece of paper left because my Twin took all the papers I needed for my requests, which means I can only do one for now until my Dad gets more. I've already chosen a person who I'm doing the request for so don't be expecting anything from me until further notice, except for fanfictions, journals, and RPs because they're digital. 

[x-mamabee]

For mamas

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[babypeapod]

breastfeeding update

man, Sol is such a sweet baby but he is STILL so hard to feed. i put so much energy into it, he still feeds every 2-3 hours. At night he does one 4 hour stretch, but the rest is 2-3 hourly, so a good night I am up 2-3 times with him for feeds. But his tongue tie means he has extra gas, (or at least I think that is the source), so sometimes this wakes him as well (last night he was up 5 times) and the gas means he is squirmy, and often crying between letdowns. We haven’t had a peaceful feed in a long long time. lots of screaming and back arching when the letdown finishes and he has to work harder with his tongue and his tummy is upset.

I have been to every specialist, dr, and LC around. I have taken him to 5 different people, had 2 corrective procedures, and had over 10 consultations. My last visit  was with the ear, nose, and throat surgeon, and I was told that I have done absolutely everything that can be done for his breastfeeding/tongue tie issues. I was told to just try and enjoy him, so I am done with outside interventions/research/new methods.  I feel like a good parent knowing that i’ve tried so hard. 

He is still mainly breastfed but has two small bottles of about 50 ml (2 oz) of formula with his breastfeed at 6 pm and 9 pm, Right now I am trying some gas drops with his feeds to see if that makes any difference.

The other thing is he seems really keen on solids even though he is young. Yesterday he swiped some fish off luke’s plate and ate it before we could stop him. I am thinking oftrying him at 5 months now, instead of 6. I know the checklist of readiness signs, so if he is not ready I won’t push it. I am just going to experiment a bit sooner than planned. He’s just not that good at drinking so I really want to help him, and me.