Jan 3
like i knowww my parents are both human and imperfect but man..... i think im allowed to be a bit selfish and wish they had done more
#idk. the Big Family Drama was a lot#there was a lot going on. for years.#and idk. i think. i maybe let myself slide into the background. bc everything else was more important#i was. functional enough. at the time. i guess#lower priority#actually its been me that's been emotionally supporting my own parent for. uhhh. dont even remember how long#she was venting mmmm pretty personal shit to me when i was like .. 10. or younger#she called me mature for listening and saying vaguely supportive stuff at the time#fuck. thats over a decade#mannn#but like she doesnt have anyone else. and obv i care about her so. i still listen#sometimes i wish shed have close friends to talk to but she doesnt#lol. sometimes when i think about eventually moving out i wonder if she'll be okay#she insists on still living with my mum and my mum is...... an emotional brick wall#dare to cry after literally getting into a minor car accident and my mum will decide this is a flaw that must be yelled out of you#''crying doesnt solve anything'' WOMAN. it is an AUTOMATIC EMOTIONAL RESPONSE. STFU