forever sleepy

hii call me aaphant or moz!! she/her, 20s art blog is @aphannnt psst i have an artfight and i follow back everyone :>

[aphantimes]

part of following my blog is dealing with my knucklesposting every couple months lol

[aphantimes]

and recently. my laceposting too LOL

[quillspinestuffs]

Lace says that two moments later

[sesamee-vee]

HAPPY PRIDE! Long bacon and assorted Lace sketches below

[pixiecaps]

aromanticism

[0vergrowngraveyard]

team sonic

[crazycatsiren]

This Mother's Day, as usual, I'm having a moment of silence for those of us whose mothers should never have been mothers in the first place, because it's us, their children, who are paying the price for our entire lives.

[thewolfatno9]

Got to remember to focus on kindness. Seek it out. Notice it when it happens. Spent too long attaching ourselves to the cruelty of the world, so much so that we couldn't appreciate the rest of it, but there is so much more to the world than cruelty. There's love, kindness, good food, good music, creativity and beautiful animals. That will never go away. The indomitable human spirit and all that.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[only-knives]

it's amazing how abusive people will cause you to develop protective coping mechanisms and then when that mechanism isn't to their convenience they'll get mad at you for having it. if you wanted me to be well-adjusted with you then maybe you should have treated me better idk.

[ur-older-brother-official]

I wish all those who were not protected as children a very peaceful sleep to night.

Someone should have done something, should have held you tighter, should have seen the warning signs, and but they never did and I'm sorry.

You deserve all of the sunrises and all of the sunsets, every flower on earth and every star in the sky. I hope you see the beauty hidden inside everything, including yourself.

[furiousgoldfish]

abused kids reaching late teenage years: it seems I have trauma symptoms, which is odd because nothing traumatic had ever happened to me... sure I don't have many memories of my childhood but I am sure that everything that happened was 100% my fault and also normal and I am supposed to be strong enough to be over that and it was a long time ago so. That's all good. Now. I need to hide these trauma symptoms or my parents will kill me.

[aphantimes]

me alone in my room in the middle of the night crying uncontrollably and thinking "oh no im being manipulative again"

[aphantimes]

sorry bleh. in a Mood tonight. bye

[shamebats]

[furiousgoldfish]

me as a child seeing other kids be loved and cared for: well I would just get spoiled if this was done for me so it's better this way

me as a kid seeing other kids get brand new stuff: those kids probably earned it somehow, I haven't done enough to earn fancy stuff. It would be wasted on me anyway. I'm not worth it.

me as a kid seeing other kids consoled when crying: *blank, dissociating, can't form thoughts*

me as a kid seeing other kids be attached to their parents and willingly hanging out with them: what is this. that has to be a disorder. poor kid with no independence skills.

me as a kid seeing other kids be taken care of when sick: I guess their parents can tell they're not 'pretending to be sick', too bad nobody can tell in my case

me as an adult: .... hey wait a second

[hello-friends9500]

When it feels like literally everything makes you a 'horrible person', you begin to stop caring overtime. (I don't know if that's a bad thing, just something my brain has been doing lately)

[shamebats]

I recently discovered r/CPTSDmemes.