#lowkey a vent

[alicornfairy]

(its my safe haven)

[y-yasminn]

omg i have no true friends 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 and the shower curtain fell mid shower 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i’m struggling to find a reason to keep going 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[onesomewhatpeevedwasp]

Write poetry that's cringy. Make crochet projects that are misshapen. Make knitwear with so many holes that it counts as Swiss cheese. Sing terribly in the shower. Draw with bad anatomy. Suck ass at games. Paint your nails and make them smudged. Make cookies that are too flat. Take forever to do a puzzle. Write ooc fanfiction. Fall on your face a dozen times while trying to skate.

Do all of these things, you'll be happier than if you never tried at all

[magicalkiki66]

Hey if for whatever reason you need to craft a personal hell for me all you have to do is tell me to execute my creative purpose but only have it be met with criticism or indifference because not even I can take myself seriously

basically just making me delete my social media accounts. Anyway I feel so bad for Caine because the only people he can share his ideas and creativity with are people who couldn’t care less

[intothelightofadarkblacknight]

i dont think people get how hard it is to watch someone you love slowly die.

when pony hears that johnny’s very well going to die in the hospital after the church fire, it doesn’t really sink in. he’ll just keep going back to the hospital every single day, every time he can, he keeps going back. because johnny’s not going to die. he won’t. there’s no way he can. even when he watches johnny struggle to talk and move, even when johnny’s sleeping and can’t hear him, even when johnny’s not responsive, pony comes back. because he’s not going to die. he just can’t. pony can’t picture life without johnny, and he won’t picture life without johnny. life without johnny doesn’t exist. there’s no way that could be a reality. pony will come back the next day, and the next day, and the next, and johnny won’t be dead. they have too many memories together for god to just take him away.

johnny gets weaker and weaker, but to pony, he doesn’t see that. some days, johnny’s lucid and some days he isn’t. johnny can’t even get up off the bed he’s in—he’s so weak that he physically can’t, and pony watches. pony watches his best friend slowly succumb to his injuries, but to pony, he’s not going to die. there’s no way he can die and leave pony by himself. no matter how many times darry tells him he’s not gonna make it, or how many times soda tries to ask him about it. johnny will be fine. johnny will be just fine and in a few weeks, they’ll be going to the movies together. they’re gonna stay up late in the lot and watch the sunset like pony promised they would…but deep down, ponyboy knows that johnny’s not gonna make it. he knows that the sunset at the church was their first and last. he knows that the force in was their last movie together, and it wasn’t even a good one. he knows that everything they’ve done was and is a last. even after johnny dies, it doesn’t sink in until a few weeks later.

johnny’s dying, and pony can’t even do anything to help.

[deadbeatbf69]

oh white people are pissing me off… during aapi month, no less…

[friends2go]

honestly im a paulgirl because i relate to john so much but. im like if john and paul had a baby and called it attachment issues

[feistyfeles]

I might take a break from posting lady d art here,, at least for the remainder of the month, but could be longer I’m unsure. it sucks as an artist when you notice it’s not as liked as others because the style either isn’t realism or the art isn’t suggestive, for most of the part. It sucks even more because I’m someone who notices everything too, as a rapid overthinker— it’s why I started to stop reblogging other lady d art, it messes with my self esteem a bit when I notice mutuals like and reblog it while completely passing by my artwork if that makes sense? Like I started doubting my skills or if its good enough

This is mostly a me issue, but seeing other posts especially on Twitter talking about how smaller artists are treated or just how it’s valid to be upset for posting and being passed by made me feel less alone about it

But thank you to the people who do like and reblog my art, especially on every piece, know it means a lot to me! despite this venty post i appreciate the support 🫶❤️ if it helps, i might still post them only in the lady d community for the time being