#lowkey terrified

[mikewheelerisaqueerler]

scoops ahoy madwheeler coming out scene, except mike is the confused one and max helps him get it

[lvmimis]

omg girl are u in med school too? Or a dr?? tumblr is my secret hobby after rotations 😅

yup!! i’m officially living the attending life as of this past year

[honk--mimimimi]

Are u still watching armada after getting spooked by some of comments (totally wasn't me who left one of those comments lol)

I apologize for the late update, but INDEED I AM 🙌 ngl I was terrified but I PRESSED ONNNN Here are some more screenshots of this absolute icon aha ☺️

I'm still on season 2 but I notice Starscream is like 'ahaaa maybe it's time for a new leader' and him and Megatron are giving each other glares. I'm getting an uh-oh feeling y'all. But a good thing is that this diva had the star saber and a squad of minicons for ONE EPISODE just following him around, and I found it hilarious because it lowkey reminded me of a parent and their 3 kids LMAOAOO

I should draw Starscream again... 😔 thank you forgotten-plotline for the ask and just so you know I am now looking for every little detail, if anything happens to him I'll tweak

edit: MEGATRON GASLIT HIM AND DID SOME VOODOO TRICK OF THE FOG AND HE GAVE UP THE SABER IM GONNA HRHSJHS

[tortured-poet-of-thursday]

i hope the spider on the wall above me is enjoying my bass practice

[joyyystick]

so for some reason i’m getting the idea that watching torchwood probably ISN’T the best idea for my mental state but i’ve never been known to do things that are and my love for mr harkness is stronger than anything this show could throw at me i’ll be FINEEE (i am so fucking scared.)

[sobbingscripter]

Watching my beta reader read published yet unproofread is mad anxious.

It feels like being on Hell's Kitchen and Gordon Ramsey has a migraine with no ibuprofen. And is willing to rock your shit at 4:45 in the morning.

[thekinslayed]

disabled my preferred age range on hinge just for funsies and got 40 likes in 2 hours ..

[thebirdsandthedees]

The Label of Motherhood. I don't want it.

Insomnia again which means I get to ramble again. But I was talking to someone about this earlier and finally voicing a few of my thoughts and fears for the first time. I think part of the reason why I'm so hesitant to have a baby or get pregnant in the first place, not even to mention finding a partner at all, is because if I do, I'm automatically going to have 'mother' put upon me as soon as others found out.

It's not a bad thing in itself of course, plenty of people, cis or trans or anywhere in between, describe and identify themselves as that and idk.. it just feels wrong for me? I would love to be a parent, and experience parenthood. But being a mother and experiencing motherhood is the tiny difference that has me running for the hills.

There's just such a huuuge weight behind the word and it's almost like you're described as a mom first and a person second. That identity takes over your life and assigns such a heavy label and role on you. People's attitudes and treatment of you changes as soon as they find out you're a parent. I don't wanna be like we live in a society.. but damn we do kinda live in a society cause mothers and femme parents are some of the most disrespected and downtrodden people even when they're simultaneously pedestalized for having children. It's tiring and I don't even have any little ones yet! I wish I could explain it better.

It's just weird for me to say I want to experience pregnancy and parenthood, not pregnancy and motherhood. I don't want people looking at me and seeing a woman. I don't want the first thing people associate with me when they see me to be 'feminine.' Preferably I'd rather not have to specify my gender at all but I'd imagine if I ever started growing and showing they'd add shit together quick. I guess it's just how I'll defend myself and my identity once it comes to that, and I can almost guarantee it will, since trans and genderqueer voices are still fighting to be heard, even progressive ppl will slip up, I'll just have to handle it with grace I guess.

Even with that, it's so cool seeing people define their own versions of parenthood and going through their own journey that's just right for them. It's a lifechanging experience obviously, it's cool to see something that's so special and now know that it's a possibility for me, and they're still trucking along and making loving families despite the odds and even with the current shitshow in the world. idk. I'm feeling a lot right now, and I'm hoping my words came across coherently, but honestly even trying to explain myself when I haven't even gotten that far into really figuring my shit out. It's exhausting.