#lumensdiary

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I no longer care who I lose as long as it's not myself again. I no longer care who I lose as long as it's not myself again. I no longer care who I lose as long as it's not myself again.

[sk-lumen]

Since decentering men / the idea of romantic love, I've been infinitely happier. Pouring into other people endlessly has never brought me happiness, it's only ever ended with heartbreak or feeling used, no matter how pure my intentions were. And I decided I'm done. It's only when I chose to stop obsessing over some ideal soulmate kind of love and instead obsess over my own potential, my own dreams and goals, that I finally found that peace, fulfillment and joy I'd been searching for everywhere.

[sk-lumen]

One thing I changed in my life in the past 1-2 years is unapologetically working on my dream goals. On living and experiencing the things I've always wanted: creating art, writing and working on my fantasy books, poetry, and making life a whimsical, fairytale-esque experience.

[sk-lumen]

Hi darlings, sorry I disappeared for a while. The year of the snake was quite ruthless with me, and I did what I needed to do - focus on myself, heal, rebuild myself anew. So many things have changed in the past 12 months that I feel like a different person. In a way, I am. I've let go of so many things that no longer serve me, whether it's places, people, habits, circumstances. But I'm all the stronger for it. The old skin has ben shed, and I'm proud of the version of me that exists today. Because she's the reason I survived it all.