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I am slowly accepting that we are not meant for each other

I am slowly accepting that we are not meant for each other.

That we were a mistake right from the start. We were wrong for each other in every way possible. What was supposed to be a chance encounter dragged on until the flames of attraction scorched us both and left us ravaged in the aftermath. Our emotions were inflamed and our senses were heightened until we started something that we weren’t ready for. We kindled a fire that both of us did not know how to extinguish.

I spent so much time and effort trying to fight against fate and made you stay. I tried so hard to be someone I thought you would love. I loved you so much that I was willing to turn a blind eye to how destructive you were to me. I wanted to be with you so badly that I ignored the warning voice in my head telling me it was a bad idea.

And slowly I have come to see that we are just two different individuals who happened to be at the same place at the right time. We were not the right fit from the start and no amount of trying can force things to work. Our goals and dreams had never been aligned and our time together had an expiration date that both of us could not deny.

I am slowly accepting that we are better off apart and living our own separate lives.

Even when we were together, our inevitable end seemed to be dawning near with each passing day. Your unanswered text, your indifferent attitude towards us, and your tendency to hurt me made me felt like death on most of the days.

You were still with me yet I felt the loss of you so keenly as if you already left. Even in your presence, all I could think of was how your absence could kill me. I thought of how I couldn’t do without you and subconsciously, I gripped my hold on you tighter driving you further away from me. I thought any affection you gave me was better than nothing. I settled into an empty shell of a relationship simply because I could not stand the thought of losing you.

And slowly I have come to accept that we are toxic to each other. With you, I became another version of myself that I could not recognize. I was too focused on you to be there for myself. I was too absorbed in the idea of us that I lost touch with what was happening around me. I was too in loved with the idea of you to comprehend that love wasn’t supposed to be this way.

I am slowly accepting that I have to let you go to be happy.

Ironically, you had never been mine to begin with. You made me doubt myself every time when you refused to answer my text and spend time with me. You worsened our situation when you pretended nothing was wrong and swept our problems aside. You broke my heart when you misled me with your confusing actions and couldn’t reciprocate my feeling.

And slowly I have come to accept that I can only truly find my own happiness after I let you go.

I can reclaim my own identity and be the person I’m meant to be without you by my side. I can find the love I always wanted and live my dream life after I make the right decision to remove you from my life.

I know that the path towards healing and redemption isn’t going to be easy but I will take it slowly, one day at a time. I have faith that one day, I will get there.

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Love is bullshit,

Fellow Magnolia Springers, word has it that love has been a twist up in this town…not that I really care or anything. However, it’s the talk of the town. What is better than love, anyway? Ya’ll seem to enjoy getting your noses up in other peoples business.

I am rather late on the news because there has been a change of events but I’m sure ya’ll want to know what I think, right?

Anyway, anonymous has sent in some rather hilarious statement: Guess Cade just hates Dalton. First Lucy, now his best friend Paisley. Poor Dalton. Guess no one wants him to have girls around him unless they're related or taken. That seems to be exactly it, anonymous. He just seems to never be able to snag a woman before another charismatic man comes in and swoops them off of their feet. Poor man. He can’t get laid for the life of him, can he? Come on guys, he’s a sweet gentleman from what I have heard. Then again, nobody in town likes a nice man. Women love the dirty country boys. Dalton, maybe you should step your game up.

However, Lucy is still available, brother. Why not try your game on her again? She seems really easy to woo. Onward to another relationship, Paisley and Cade seem to be locked down. Thank god the player is tied down. Lets see how long they last.

I heard from the grapevine Bailey likes Noah. Hmmm. Romance? Or will he turn the other cheek and ignore her? Who knows.

Do they? I wonder what Rafe will think about this. Word has it that he has a small liking for her; considering they used to be in a relationship, I do not see why not. Does he like her back? I wonder. According to another anonymous post, Noah's attention seems to be on Bailey. Completely….yes he does. Is he just playing her? He seems like to type of man to never focus on one lady. That’s just my opinion though. He can do so much better than focusing on one woman. Come on, Noah. Make this town interesting…for once.

These two new relationships? How long will they last? I hope they fall apart fast. It’ll be hilarious to write about it.

There ya go with your love-life gossip.

Send in something interesting for once.

With Love,

The Overseer

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We received some notice,

Read Dalton's journal with entry of wanting something sharp going across his skin.

Hey, anonymous. Have you ever thought of not prying into someones personal journal? Do you think that maybe Dalton has been going through some emotional time, or possibly, you’re saying this just to make him seem pathetic? We do hope that he is actually not contemplating something so irrational and utmost depressing. I may be a rude person because I have to deal with your petty bullshit of relationship drama and stupid things I do not care about but I do have a sense of pity. I have noticed that Dalton has just been trying to find love and not get shut down for nearly everything that he does. 

Anyway, this brings us to our topic for today!

A little social butterfly has given us word that there was a fight that broke out between Cade Gentry and Dalton Reynolds, himself. Even though this has everything to do with women and love (which I scoff at), it’s something I cannot miss filling you little dirty Magnolians in on!

According to this little butterfly, our lovely Lucienne White has shown some interest in the poor construction worker to only shut him down in the end. Our little Lucy seems to be completely smitten by Cade. But why? He’s nothing more than just a normal man who owns a stupid restaurant that doesn’t even serve that good of food. Hey, Cade! Consider not serving salmonella with your chicken?

Even though I completely got off topic, I thought it was humorous. Why should Cade get all the fun and leave Dalton completely in the dark, to deal with his depression? Our construction worker thought him and Lucienne were dating, poor little guy! Didn’t you know that she lives by the notion of romance novels, to play men? Geez! 

To be honest, I think it’s pretty pathetic that the two got into an argument over one lady. There are plenty of bachelorettes who are searching for love. Why not just move on and go after them? Oh, right. Cade suffers from PTSD and hates confrontation so of course, he needed to escalate things and embarrass Dalton.

Oh, Cade and Lucienne, I hope you guys know what ya’ll are doing.

Sincerely,

The Overseer

P.S. Please send in some gossip! I’d love to see your opinions on our Magnolian Springers.

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A Shark and A Man

A Shark and A Man

Pagi ini membaca berita yang membuat saya terharu, sekaligus senang. Bukan berita tentang kemerdekaan, bukan berita tentang kedamaian, atau berita tentang kebebasan. Berita yang datang dari dunia laut.

Majalah Perancis “Le Magazine des Voyages de peche” di edisi ke 56, membawa cerita yang mengagumkan: “An Astonishing Love Story”. Arnold Pointer, seorang nelayan Professional dari Australia…

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Character Study: Layla White

Includes Biography, Stats, and Background Info.

About Layla

NAME: LAYLA KATHERINE WHITE NICKNAMES: N/A DOB: SEPTEMBER 3RD, 1985 SIGN: VIRGO OCCUPATION: STRIPPER & ESCORT POWERS: (if applicable) TELEKINESIS & PYROKINESIS MARITAL STATUS: SINGLE CHILDREN: NONE + TRAITS: EMPATHETIC - SWEET - ACCEPTING - TRAITS: WAYWARD - PASSIVE - VULGAR 

PAST:

Layla had always been more of a lover than a fighter. She had grown up in a small, slightly run down neighborhood on the outskirts of Philadelphia, running around with the boys, getting into trouble. Her father was diagnosed with cancer when she was fourteen and died just before her sixteenth birthday. In that time she grew up quickly and focused more on her mother’s sadness than her own, if only because she found that to be easier than facing her own emotions. People naturally gravitated to and opened up to her, even if she didn’t want them to. She found that she had a gift in providing comfort to people, especially boys. Sympathy, along with the urge to feel needed or wanted, often drove her to comfort the men in her life as they came and went, usually with her own body. Though many people judged her for it, she saw nothing wrong with using her body to make someone happy. As she grew older and moved away from home, she realized this was something she could actually do for a living.

She began stripping at eighteen as a way to pay for college, though she also began to see men outside of the club for extra cash. Though she graduated with a Bachelor’s in Psychology, Layla enjoyed the money and the lifestyle she found herself in. After a small scandal with a local representative, Layla sold her house in Pennsylvania and moved, eager to get a fresh start, though she quickly fell back into her old ways. She gave up on getting her Masters degree and went back to club work, working mainly as an escort, though she'll do a night at a strip club or two of it's a slow month.

PERSONALITY:

A hooker with a heart of gold would probably be the most accurate description of Layla White. She found an unconventional way of helping others, and it suits her fine. She doesn’t feel guilty or dirty and she doesn’t make others feel that way either. Though she’s known for her soft voice and calm demeanor, Layla is hardly a pushover though she tends to wait until the last possible moment to defend herself. She was not built for combat, but she was built for survival. Whatever unpleasant feelings she has, she keeps to herself, preferring to be silent rather than becoming a burden to others. Her point of view may be hypocritical but she prefers to think of it as selfless. She’s much better at dealing with other people’s emotions than her own. 

Most of the warmth she gives is genuine and comes from a place that understands human emotion, however she only pretend to accept the same treatment. On the rare occasion she let’s someone be kind to her in return, it’s a false relief she gives so they can believe they’ve repaid her. Truthfully, she doesn’t allow people to get close enough to impact her emotions, simply because she thinks it would upset the balance she’s found herself to be comfortable with. 

LIKES:

home improvement, DIY, make-up, pigtails, money, making people smile, decorating, dancing, holidays, snickers, trains

DISLIKES:

police, raised voices, liars, being alone, tomato soup, throwing up, driving

DETAILS:

At 22, Layla had an ectopic pregnancy. Her fallopian tube burst and she was rushed to the hospital. The entire ordeal left her with a small scar from the emergency surgery and the inability to have children.

Scar along her hair line when the brother-in-law of a client broke into her home and beat her.

Burn from a cigar on the inside of her left elbow from a disgruntled client. 

FAMILY:

Nicholas White -father (deceased)

Annabelle White (neé Dahlin) - mother (deceased)