Back Again
I deleted my original Tumblr (with the same name) when all the censorship crap hit here but honestly I missed my BDSM community too much and I soon made a new account... I have been lurking in the shadows, just kind of watching and reading. It has been quite awhile, and how I wish I had all my original writing back!!!
Daddy and I celebrated 20 years of marriage in October. We made a major move back to the state we are originally from. After a few months of off grid living and then almost 3 months in a temporary living situation with zero privacy, our D/s has taken a back seat to pure survival for quite awhile. I miss us, how we used to be.
The great thing about D/s relationships is the focus on communication and honesty. We are working through things and we have put a new contract in place, a 30 day trial contract with rules and guidelines, which we will renegotiate as we see how it fits in our life as it is now.
I am so happy to have rules again. Daddy gave me my first maintenance spanking in a very long time this weekend. Man, was that rough after so long of no spanking!!! It was much needed, though.
I am still struggling with finding my former submissive headspace that made me so very calm. I recently confessed to Daddy that I have this unshakeable urge to act out, to push the boundaries, to blatantly break rules because I need the confidence that he is in it just as much as I am, and he will keep me in line when I stray. I have avoided the temptation thus far. His response was that he cannot control my actions, but will be ready with a punishment if I give in to that temptation.
New state, new city, new house, new contract. 2021 is truly a new beginning for us.