#m lore

[stevie-petey]

hello m i hope you are well. would you believe this was an excellent time for me to read your fic, truly what i needed tonight!! not to get #intoit #toodeep but a blowout fight with my mother puts me right in the headspace to ruminate on childhood and how to carry it inside of you in a way that doesn't hurt.

One thing before i start crying, i love this line so much, "Passenger seat is reserved for girls I’m dating.” passenger princess bug iktr!!!

Steve and bug finally, FINALLY being in a stable place with each other is so beautiful <3. i love them so much. them actually talking about what is happening between them, finally trusting each other enough to be open and vulnerable is tooooo good, espcially since we've seen what it took for them to get here. i am terrified for how this will break down in s4. Steve offering to come back to weathertop when bug is thinking about how she used to come with jon as she's about to lose jon......i love that he's doing that for her and with her <3333. i love that nancy promises bug to take care and keep jon safe. i love that nancy and steve do that for bug and jon. i love that they reassure to be their new person responsible. i also love that weathertop is a special place for both bug and dustin's first loves <3. i love how they keep making places more comfortable for each other. steve making the beatles a beautiful memory again, bug making the flower field into a nice birthday date with her joy about his best birthday gift in the world is really what love is all about. i also really, really loved their conversation about luck and love, and i have a nagging feeling in my mind it will come back in s4 to confront bug as she finally exhales the mountain of grief she is holding onto. i am trying to find the words, because i don't really believe in luck very much, but i do believe in counting your blessings, and the i find the act of counting the blessing of how many people love you, and you get to love back, no matter how it ends in circumstances out of your control, a very brave thing to do. Joyce asking bug to live the life she decides is so special <3. a mother figure who actually knows bug to her core and knows the totality of bug's circumstances and then tells bug that she deserves a happy life is soooooo special and beautiful <33333. i love that joyce gets to be the person who tells her that, especially since joyce herself is so kind despite everything she's been through. i always thought bug would be like joyce when she grew up.

I also really shortly would like to also talk about bug and her guilt. i'm sure this will come up terribly for her in s4, but it really fascinates how much bug takes everything on herself, and i also don't really understand it either, but it does make her very interesting. even taking on the guilt of billy's death when it truly wasn't her fault at all in any way, jesus christ she's like a catholic saint. guilt isn't very logical and i really, truly get that, but i just idk, feel very sad that she feels that way at all, i wish i could talk to her about it.

i also loved this part, "Nancy screams back at you now, insulted that you truly believe she would ever leave her brother behind willingly. She wouldn’t do that. She knows that you know this." st has always been bad at handling the emotional consequences for their characters, but i really wish we got more nancy and mike. they're a complicated relationship because they weren't close before the upside down but obviously they love each other and are siblings, and like bug said, siblings are too strong of a bond to shake off in the worst cases. i wish they got more time in the show to breathe.

Finally i love the way bug's childhood ends softly and not the violent end she was sure of. "Time stands still. You’re seventeen and your childhood is coming to a close." Bug is so lucky to know she's in the good old days when they're happening to her. I don't like jonathan very much, but i appreciate they were kids together. they were almost girls together. having to figure out how to be adults apart is difficult for friends with less complicated histories.

This was a really beautiful story. I hope you know how much richer you make this story, and how much life you breathe into this world.

hi darling <333

passenger seat line ,,, i was DYING to write it for MONTHS !!!! my god it makes me giggle thinking about it. like yes steve pls dub me ur passenger princess <3

you understood the luck and love monologue perfectly. i also really do believe its brave to continue loving everyone and everything around you even in the most grim circumstances. its brave to keep loving even if the love itself has faded. to try again, to be human in doing so, its my favorite thing ever. its why i adore steve n bug so much. theyre trusting one another to love again, to try once more to accept the love theyre scared of. its raw and its tender and its terrifying. loving someone after your first love is i think, personally, the most authentic type of love. its the most vulnerable you will ever be and lowkey why im scared to love again as well.

the joyce and bug scene <333 theyre so special to me. bug really is the daughter joyce never had. she sees so much of herself in bug (and i also 100% picture an older bug just being joyce) and bug loves her like a mother as well. claudia is wonderful, but as you said: she doesnt know what bug has been through like joyce does. all claudia can do is patch up bugs wounds afterwards. its what made the scene so special to me: joyce reads bug so well, shes watched her take care of her boys the whole time shes known her, so for joyce to tell bug that she doesnt blame her ,,, its huge. to be told to live the life you deserve by the woman who you admire heavily is such an impactful thing.

bug and her guilt ,,, whew. youre so right that a lot of her guilt is irrational, thats the whole point. she piles so much on herself (we saw this more in season 2) because she physically cannot help it. its in her bones. she has to help, and in her eyes when her help fails, its her fault regardless of the circumstances. its such a #healthy way to live LMAO (season 4 will ruin her)

JUSTICE FOR THE WHEELERS UR SO RIGHT !!! its always bugged me that we never really see mike and nancy being siblings. nancy wasnt really concerned for mike (who had just lost his best friend mind you) in season 1 until WAY after he had gotten into so much shit. i hate the way the siblings are written, we so rarely get to see them be concerned for one another :(

and finally the goodbye scene. sigh. ive had her in my mind since we started season 2. i love her dearly, and the line with bug saying her and jon were more than just kids will stick with me forever. for some gnarly m lore: my first love and i were childhood best friends. when we broke up and severed all contact (because im insane), it truly did feel like my childhood had come to a close. it was terrifying. there i was, 19 and grieving, and i didnt know how to be someone without my ex. i wanted to portray that fear with jon and bug. when you grow up with someone, when this person knows everything about you, and they suddenly leave, its the most painful and confusing thing. i cannot explain it. but knowing that my childhood lives in my ex boyfriend, the same way his lives in me, even though we havent spoken in almost two years ,,, it haunts me, and yet oddly its comforting.

i was a kid with him. somewhere, a piece of me still is. im still that kid he met when we were 14, and hes still that kid to me, and i think its beautiful :)

[enoughslices]

Hey so I read your post about Mulder respecting Scully saying they can never be together and you totally cracked my brain open?? When people say that, they might just mean it in the moment but not forever... and they don't clarify this if they change their mind?? I'm rethinking so many things right now lol

Obviously I know each person is different but it was never phrased this way to me and now I'm just sitting here with galaxy brain

This is something I have come up against the hard way in my real life, where all through my childhood and adolescence people continually told me I was, "taking things too literally," and I was like, "... ... ... How else am I supposed to take them?? Should I not take you at your word?" I had a number of situations (like in relationships or friendships) where someone would declare something and I would just accept it and never revisit it, and then later find they were frustrated with me for assuming a statement they'd made two years ago was still true since they had not modified it. I used to do performance-related work and my one colleague who really got me (we love a work wife) would have to explain to directors that if I was told to do something a certain way I would just keep doing it that way and not try anything new until they revised their instruction. I was baffled to learn that the expectation in rehearsals was that I keep trying new things even when I had been explicitly told to do it one way. Or, worse, intuit when they wanted me to keep trying new things in the face of the instruction and when they didn't. It stressed me out so much. I always felt a little betrayed when someone said one thing very emphatically and firmly ("We can't ever get back together," or "I'm never going to do that again.") and then did indeed do or want to do the thing again days or weeks or months or years later (especially without clarifying or explaining). I've had to work really hard on finding respectful ways to not make assumptions even when I feel like something has been communicated clearly to me and get in the habit of raising things periodically from a place of open curiosity to see if people are still in the same place, because not everyone is as precise or literal when they're speaking about things, especially if they're coming from a place of emotion in the moment. I don't know for sure that I'm autistic, but I do know that I'm neurodivergent. I have cPTSD and was also late-diagnosed with ADHD at 36 and have MCAS, which also can impact how your brain works, so diagnosis is a little complicated. I suspect that I'm AuDHD (autistic and ADHD) and I have an evaluation scheduled for this year. Seeing and hearing about people's neurodivergent experiences on TikTok and other corners of the internet has helped me recontextualize a lot of parts of my experience and has illuminated corners I had not even realized were dark. It's made so many things fall into place that have made me go, "Oh. Wait. Fuck! Really??" But also there's a certain relief in having things make sense that never did before, even though it's been absolutely wild to identify my (many, many 😅) blind spots. In conclusion: Me 🤝 Mulder in this headcanon lol I'm sorry to crack your brain open and I hope the light flooding in is not too overwhelming!! Being a person is a trip sometimes! Feel free to DM me if you want to spiral about this together! PS: Obligatory disclaimer that people have a wide variety of different experiences and feeling this way or relating to this is not necessarily an indicator of autism, which I don't even know for sure that I have! I am just over here projecting onto my blorbos on the hellsite, as glob intended 😂😂

[obesericewrites]

I was wondering, if M is pregnant then can they still shift forms? What happens to the fetus if they can, does it turn into a wolf fetus or does it stay a human fetus only now it’s inside a wolf, cause that can’t be healthy.

To be honest, this question caught me off guard because I didn’t even think of this situation but it definitely expands on some lore so, good job!

Well in the situation that they get pregnant, they would not be able to shift during the early months of the pregnancy. For two reasons. One, you’re right, it wouldn’t be healthy for the baby to be in that situation in such a vulnerable stage. Second, their wolf doesn’t want to hold the baby. Because technically it isn’t theirs, it’s Ms and they wouldn’t want to take such a bond away from their other half. It forces M to stay in their half shifted form we see now or their completely un-shifted form when the months progress.

You also have to keep in mind this, what happens to one happens to the other. With Ms body being affected, the more they stay shifted their wolf would look as if they’re carrying when they separate. And in the end, it makes them separate even after the baby is born due to the wolf not wanting all the extra fat. Said animal cares for the child, they just don’t want the extra stuff that involves giving birth to one.

If this doesn’t make sense, ask again and I’ll try to clean things up! :)

[bananahkim]

M was a weird kid even before the incident happened. She never hesitated to point out things people wanted to hide, she was a fast learner and knew how to observe things most people would ignore or wouldn’t even notice, she was intelligent than kids her age, and she didn’t give a shit to gender norms and was eager to defy every single one of them. The villagers didn’t like M and M disliked them back. The only people she tolerated were toddlers and the oldest woman in the village(who died shortly after M turned 8).

[stevie-petey]

going on a hot girl walk at night and forcing my situationship to talk on the phone because it’s nighttime and im a woman <3

[stevie-petey]

ex situationship texted me last night out of the blue saying he was thinking of me and wanted to know how i was so i went to my fwb’s apartment and we hooked up i love being 20 in nyc

[stevie-petey]

Hai!!

I’m a new follower and I completely blew through your ST rewrite for season one all in one night! It was AMAZING! You have seriously combined all of the BEST ideas (in my so very humble opinion lol) to create this fic, and I adore it! The relationship between the reader and Dustin is so touching and perfect, and exactly what I think a lot of people look for when they go looking to read a Henderson!reader fic. Her complicated with Nancy is fascinating to read, her dynamic with the kids is super endearing, and her complicated feelings and big emotions are so real and relatable and really refreshing to read!

Also, her understanding of Steve, even from a distance, is so sweet and just makes SENSE; I love how you’re not rushing it, the way their relationship is budding feels so genuine and natural, especially for a sixteen year old girl in the situation she’s in. I can heavily relate to how you’re writing the reader, right down to the latest fic of distancing herself from Steve because she knows she could fall in love with him. I did that too when I was her age (and surprise surprise, I’m with that guy now!), and it was so heart wrenching and personal to read; tugged on all the right heartstrings!

All of it is such a masterpiece and I am so excited to see what you do next!! Thank you for sharing your work with us all!♥️

hi darling !!

it always makes me feel so :)) when people love dustins relationship with reader !!! i adored writing their relationship because dustin wouldve been the best lil brother and its a shame its not canon 👎 and her n nancy </3 theyre gfs in another life its confirmed i said it so im right

and im so happy you love the steve dynamic !! i know its a bit slow n frustrating, but thats what makes a delicious slowburn tbh. and ive been there too, a lot of the steve dynamic came from my ex bf (come home was a phrase we’d say to each other a lot) and on THAT note a lot of the more hurtful n leading on dynamics with jonathan ALSO came from the same ex lmao. men. he sucks but he gave me a wonderful fic idea !! shoutout to him and im happy it worked out for u :’) especially if the fic touches on somethin dear to you im SO happy 🫶🫶

thank you for such a sweet ask :’)) i adore you and appreciate how much you love the series. especially your commitment to reading all 80k words in one night (u amaze me).

[obesericewrites]

Previously you said that M "challenge the person who also wants the same person as their mate" and that got me thinking, how would that go in the poly? Like, i know everyone loves everyone in the poly but does M ever try to challange one of the ros (or maybe even the mc themself) for one of the others before M realise they wanted them all instead of just one of them? I hope this makes sense!

Thank you for bringing this up! This ask is referencing this one here

When I wrote that answer to that ask, it wasn’t for the poly route. (Though if you guys want some poly pov I can write that along with the single routes as well) M wouldn’t challenge you or the ROs because it would be a completely different situation. The person flirting with you was a stranger, someone who M didn’t know and basically a challenger to your affection. While in the poly route M wouldn’t necessarily challenge you and the ROs.

They would more want to understand your situations. In the wild wolves can have up to several mates! So sharing or caring for multiple people wouldn’t be uncommon in Ms eyes. So they would think that the other ROs are the MCs mate and would most likely try to suck up to them and prove they are worthy of you. While if it was the other way around M would observe the ROs or even you to see if you lot can take of them and their daughter.

I hope I’m not making this sound complicated because I swear it’ll be better explained when you get to know M more in the story.