Today was not easy, daylight streaming into my room trying to cheer me up, but it wasn't easy for me to cheer up. I couldn't care less for the birds who were probably in the middle of their happy song. I didn't want it to be morning. I wanted longer nights, everyone's asleep, lower expectations, minimum interaction just what I need. How long can I ignore the light, I am gonna have to wake up, do my job, not making sense of the day, just wake up and mindlessly wander. I did mindlessly wander, ran around not wishing to be awake, cranky, just sad sat in a corner.
What part of me wants to seize the day? NONE. it happens to me when I'm supposed to have an important day. It happens to me before the exam season, or a meeting at work, or an important family occasion. These are the days I lose my opportunities because I can't get out of bed. Then I go through the process of regret and that's a whole other post.