#malicemismanager

[littlesmartart]

Just dropping by to say I really look forward to your drawtobers. I've read so many great fics because of it! Thank you so so much for doing this 💖

ahh I'm so glad! not gonna lie, it was pretty hard work this year and I was really struggling with motivation, which means it's been so lovely to hear all these positive reactions to it 🥰

[veliseraptor]

I would love just more Xue Yang & Wei Wuxian Shenanigans, honestly. I really need more of putting those two into situations for fun and profit. XD

i do not know why i struggle to write these two across each other so much (though it perhaps has something to do at this point with my complicated wei wuxian feelings), but they are fun to write across each other and when i've done it i have really enjoyed it.

what i'd really like to figure out how to write, though, is a fic where they're sniping at each other less than in that linked one and more on the same page/working together, because that would be fun for me personally. i'm not totally sure how to make it happen, though.

if you could make me write anything, what would it be?

[guqin-and-flute]

Replies to Kazoo Man Crimes post:

malicemismanager: Oh NOO 😱

@malicemismanager​ YEAH LIKE UHHHH???

madtomedgar: When I worked at a museum is was doing a program where we passed around a ships biscuit and this guy ATE IT! The 5 year old didn’t even do that but this middle aged guy just. Popped my educational tool in his mouth!

I......did he think that everyone else was just touching it......for fun? What did you do?? What did you say???

greenwitching: JAIL

@greenwitching​ I FUCKING WISH, I WOULD PUT HIM THERE

[veliseraptor]

xuexiao hanahaki au for the ask meme cuz I feel like if anyone's gonna get me interested in a hanahaki au, it'd be you XD

high praise! I mean, this is me writing a trope I generally don't like (though I've now read...I think two takes on it that I actually did) by means of going "taken seriously, there's something here about the grotesque, painful, and distorting power of love, and that's neat" especially when it's applied to xue yang. because xue yang in this is the one getting hanahaki'd. basically I was going "I can make this absolutely horrific/focused more on the body horror of it all, and that sounds like fun" and that's what initially kicked off me thinking about this as something I could actually write.

(I think somebody asked me about it, at one point, but of course now i can't find the post.)

I also can't find the other post that was the second phase of me going "oooh I think I can make this work for me", which was about hanahaki not being about unrequited love but about repressed love, or unexpressed love, and playing with that, where it's not about how someone else feels but (in this case) about how xue yang does, and how that interacts with the way xue yang does (or doesn't) recognize or understand his own feelings, and...yeah. basically (1) make it horrific and (2) make it not about unrequitedness but something else that I personally find more compelling

the short version of all of this is "making xue yang cough up flowers for fun and profit is a new way of making him suffer I haven't tried yet", so there's that too.

EDIT: found the post I was talking about!!! the "originally created" thing sort of [citation needed] for me, but the concept itself I like

There were the things about Jinlintai that Xue Yang expected to appreciate (good food, warm bed, consistent supply of sweets), and the annoying things that he might’ve predicted if he’d thought about them (the people, mostly).  Then there was the shit that came as a surprise, like the performances that got put on sometimes. Plays of stories he sometimes knew and sometimes didn’t, some better and some worse and some just stupid as all fuck.  “Was that supposed to be Liu Qiuyue?” Xue Yang asked Jin Guangyao, who paused, pulling his brush away from the letter he was writing, and looked at him. Xue Yang waved a hand. “Last night. The story. That’s what it was, right?”  “I believe so,” Jin Guangyao said after another moment, setting the brush down. Xue Yang smothered a smile of triumph at the indication that he had his attention. “Why do you ask?”  “Cause it was different than the version I’d heard,” Xue Yang said. “The story I knew she wasted away cause she wouldn’t eat after Prince what’s-his-name turned her down. But this one had her…” He wrinkled his nose. “Puking petals, or something. Unless that was supposed to be symbolic.”  Jin Guangyao gave him one of those looks that he got sometimes, like Xue Yang had surprised him by not knowing something. Xue Yang could never decide if it annoyed him or was a good thing. It was the reverse of what most people were surprised by, anyway.

[veliseraptor]

I started rereading With Absolute Splendor (because I make excellent life choices after 10pm) and then I got to this

and proceeded to lose my shit for about 20 minutes. Just. Such a mental picture. 10/10 would lose sleep over again. XD

oh man I am still very proud of this bit. writing Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji's back and forth in that fic was truly one of my favorite parts of the whole experience, and the bitchy letter-writing was particularly fun.

sometimes Jiang Cheng would just, I think, really like to cuss Lan Wangji all the way out. he can't because it would just make him look bad and "lacking dignity" or whatever but. it would be nice, he thinks, sometimes.

[veliseraptor]

Oh? Birf? Happ Birf, frend! 😃🎉🎉

it is indeed birf today and thank you!

[veliseraptor]

I am PRETTY SURE that I found you from something Lena reblogged from you, was delighted to discover that you were in fact the same Lise who wrote LiR and stayed for the fantastic Loki takes, and then you dragged me into the Untamed/MDZS pit and welp this is my life now XD

that's just how it goes! you yourself were definitely one of those people I kept seeing around and eventually was like "you know what, it's time," got over my weird paranoia about following new people, and went for it

going to call that one a good choice, happy having you on my dash

[veliseraptor]

12 for the fic asks?

if you had to pick a fic to make twice as long, which one would you choose? what would you add to make it longer? why that one?

oh god, do any of my fics need to be twice as long? are they not already long enough? possibly too long?

one that does come to mind is the blood in your mouth, which definitely could've kept going. I didn't have to stop it where I did, and in a world where I hadn't been on a deadline it's entirely possible I wouldn't have, and would've pushed forward further into the future of how that, uh, particular dynamic develops. the ending of that one in retrospect feels a little rushed.

there is also the not-an-AU-AU that consists of two separate fics of the "a-Qing and Xue Yang team up after Xiao Xingchen's death for a very miserable and contentious collaboration over the goal of bringing him back" concept that could, in theory, be a unified story, but isn't. that would be pretty much taking those two fics and tying them together with more narrative connection between the two and also a complete arc as opposed to "here's two snapshots from this hypothetical reality."

there's some old fics of mine that I'm like...if I revisited this I would expand it, particularly because I just used to write shorter pieces in a slightly different texture, but some of that is also not about length and more about...depth and quality, so that feels a little different. but maybe Darkness, Darkness, which I kind of ended up throwing my hands up on and going GOOD ENOUGH after years of staring at it, and now I'm like. I could make a better and longer story out of this.

overall though I feel like the fact that in general particularly in recent years I tend to just...write long, means that if something isn't long then it wasn't meant to be, because otherwise I will just end up writing the 100k version if nobody stops me.