#malitalks

[xladymalice]

Thanks for coming up and talking to me when I feel down. This little bit and this asks do help me to feel better. I just miss receiving random asks here and there. I used to get more.. even if I do not reply all the time (since I dislike spamming the dash of the people.) I still love them. I feel like it’s a chore anyways. I love drawing for others. Yet I am in the need of some feedback and acceptence then. I feel a bit pathethic for being like that but that’s just the way I am. I got taught that I gotta try hard and work hard, so I will get love and appreciation. Q3Q

Nothing is invalid you think or say. But I know it’s hard to approach someone you kind of admire? Or look up to? This is one reason I never close my Anon-option. :) Thank you for coming out to me after my little vent... and being with me for so long. Like dayum, that’s a fucking long time you’ve been following me. O,o

Heya. Yeah, I can only agree. I don’t know how many other fandoms suffered through hate and ignorance, but I learned UT is heavily toxic and many dislike OCs in here. There are counter examples too but ... I just saw a lot. Especially the hate towards AUs and creator issues. This is hardcore. I can’t blame you for being a quiet follower, even if it sounds like I blame you in particular. However... sending an ask like this is enough. Once in a while, a small happy Anon tells you what they like and there’s that. I don’t need more, tbh. If I cant expect comments, then the anon messages will do. This is the reason why I didn’t block the Anon option despite the hate-trains I had to go through. This is why I allow this option. So I’m glad you actually used it and came to tell me not to lose my spirit. I am thankful for that. I appreciate your words and will treasure them.

I am still a bit weak to need this form of love for my work. Maybe it’s just darn time I give up to try to please everyone and just do the shit I want to instead of forcing myself to work on stuff that became a burden. *sigh*

[xladymalice]

I liked the fell comic. I would love to see more of your fell bros! I like how you did their relationship, the rough love really suits them.

Right?

It’s rough, it’s unbalanced and it’s mostly disrupted by unspoken words. As you maybe noticed, they don’t really talk properly with each other.

They are unable to be honest to each other.They are unable to tell what they fell.They are unable to show true feelings, hence weaknesses.They are held back by the world that means Kill or be killed.

How can you tell the other what you really think if that one had betrayed you in the past?

How can you trust, if this could mean death?

Their story is complicated and it’s also very rough because of the lack of affection in that world.

Edge tried to protect Red who seemingly gave a shit about the things Edge told him and ordered him to do.He tries to rule with an iron hand while Red is somewhere lost in his self-pity and his feelings of guilt.

So it’s a long way for them to go to -maybe- live a happy life.

[xladymalice]

Some more ideas...

Mhm, the most of you know that I have this huge issue with the general view of Red. I don’t like him and that’s why I don’t draw him all that much...

I probably won’t ever like him really as I like Blue and love Black, but I didn’t give up on him just yet.

Actually I want to make a redesign on him like I did with the Swapfell Bro’s and give him another personality. Or at least: one I can work with. I am still struggeling with it, buuuut it slowly comes together.

I didn’t try much atm, I am just doodling but I did wonder if it would be disturbing if I changed his looks from this? I know, I know there is a general design and people would probably recognize him faster if I stuck to it, but I want to see if I can design something that I am comfortable with?

From what I’ve planned he’ll be just a real douchebag... he is still a subby shit in my eyes, but he would be one asshole of a sub.

What do you think? Shall I work on that some more or just stick to the usual view?

[xladymalice]

How long does it take for you to draw digital/traditional art?

Depends on how complicated the pose is. Do you know this feeling that you suddenly cannot do this easy thing you usually do with no problems?Sometimes it struggles and it never works… no idea why.I am tons faster drawing traditionally… that’s why I scetch my comic pages on paper instead on pc (which I sometimes still do).

I am slower on computer…. this is also influenced by the distractions that came along… hahaha… Youtube, Tumblr and some other shit are srsly bad influence.

Traditional can take from 5 minutes to 1 hour (scetch. Colored shit takes much longer. Again it depends on complexitity.

Digital art is also different… around 15 minutes to hours… my comic pages take a lot of time, considering the traditional art, lining and effects. :s it can take 3- more hours to finish it all.

And sometimes… it takes TOO MUCH FUCKING TIME

[xladymalice]

Reminder - Translations/Reuploads

If you want to translate my stuff and upload it somewhere you must write me first or else I will report you with no mercy.

No one is allowed to translate my Swapfell Dawn - Comic nor upload/use/edit it.

I have my reasons for that decision and I don’t want to see it anywhere except here in my tumblr. I might rethink this when the comic is done. If I see it multiple times on some other account, I might just end publishing it.

No one of the translators who wrote me is allowed to translate it either. This also involves sidestories of Swapfell Dawn.

Thank you for your attention

[xladymalice]

Do you ever get people saying your art sucks? If so how do you deal with it? Sorry if you've been asked this before

Surprisingly here in tumblr no one came at me telling me that my art sucks.

I don’t remember if I was ever told that... but some artists were always very toxic if I critized something and tried to talk it back... not giftig me any respect since I wasn’t “better” than them.

I think it’s not easy to deal with at first. After all it does hurt your feelings and all... I didn’t know many people and those who saw my stuff were just asking stupid questions “Why are they naked? Why can I see their eyes through their hair?” and that shit. It was more than annoying to me.

I think you should try to ignore them. Focus on whatever you enjoy drawing. Lots of practise and patience will lead to great results. Your art won’t stay the same forever. It will develope like you develope in life.

As long as you enjoy what you do, everything else doesn’t matter. Don’t let others influence you. Critisim is good, but trashtalk is not. Many people are even jealous and try to shittalk you... but how many of those idiots actually draw themselves?

If an artist tells you, your art sucks, then that artist is 1) a shit person, 2) doesn’t deserve any respect and 3) probably produces emotionless shit too. Because I believe that a true artist wouldn’t ever talk someones art bad and tell them this into their face. There are many ppl who can tell you “give up”, but don’t listen to them!

I do admit that there are styles I hate or that I can’t stand. It’s my personal preference, I cannot change it. I badmouth that art sometimes, if I don’t get why it doesn’t improve in my eyes and like to ask others for their opinions to get another light into the dark and such. But in the end.. if I don’t like it, then it’s that. But that’s no reason for me to go to that artist and tell him “You know what? Your art sucks”

I hate bullies and I have people who cannot respect others.

So stay determined, practise and have fun. You will get better... and if you still feel down, draw a random anon and let them burn in that picture >:D

[xladymalice]

In your swapfell dawn comic I was able to see how Papyrus and Sans draw, and they draw just right TuT👌 Oh my! What I need to do to draw like you?! I will keep saying this, I really love your art have a nice day/night (?)

Practising and being stubborn. I am still not good enough, I have many flaws and I am constantly changing little details in my style that disturb me.

You have to be brave, try out things you cannot draw yet and repeat it as much as needed to make it look like you want it to look like.

The most important thing is that you must have fun with it. It’s pointless if you try to force yourself to draw something amazing if you don’t feel like it.

Sure, it’s sound tiring to hear: “you have to practise, practise, practise!” But it’s the only way to imprive. I was doodling a lot in school, at home and at random places... even doodling on tissues, if I had no paper. I was the most motivated after some roleplay with my best friend, so I always drew little short comics for us. It was a great practise for me and a bless for her xD

So yeah, just try to draw whatever you want. You will notice that you improve bit by bit with each drawing!

I’m happy you like my story for Swapfell Dawn so much <3

[xladymalice]

Sorry if I am a bother, but when you were describing Red (a.k.a. UF!Sans) you said he started drinking, smoking and so on, after he lost his brother. So do you mean to tell us that they also have some type of back story that made Edge(a.k.a. UF!Papyrus), well Edge. Or is it just that Edge is dead?

Edge is not dead. But he had been gone for Royal Guard Training for several years. As I said, I was highly inspired by Angelia-Dark’s fanfiction about their beginning.

I probably will work on some things on my version, it’s not all planned through. I need to adjust the “new Red” too. I am still having troubles with him, but I can assure you that he’s a douchebag. I wouldn’t trust him... (Edge doesn’t trust him either).

So yeah... I do have some kind of backstory, but it’s not complete yet.