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[thespiancheshire]

Ah. I’m suffering quite some heartache. Maybe I should reread Dalton. Again, it seems, I am in Julian’s shoes. In love with someone in love with someone else. Sigh. Is there some sort of ETA for the next chapter?

[ccoliver]

sometimes I forget that some of my faves like alexandergold and cpcoulter actually follow me and im like? What are you doing here? Don't you have better people to be following? Whatever man you guys are obviously crazy but I'll take it

[redvanillabee]

Hello Daltonites/Warblerettes :)

I remember seeing, a long time ago, that Mama CP said something about working on an original story that is basically like Dalton but like, without the Glee elements? You guys know what/which one I'm talking about? I want to cite Dalton and that story as reference in my paper, so if you know anything about that (e.g. Mama posting about it, a link on her tumblr or on Warblerland, etc.), can you please pass them to me?

[crazinaway]

literally whenever mama tags something with ':)' i go like okAY JOGAN

[justasmallbloginabigklainefandom]

oh my god

[wefoundwarblerland]

So I made a plurk.... Just to follow Mama CP! But I'm kinda confused....

Here it is, if any of my followers are interested (I'm only there for Mama though)!

[iamthequeenneah]

This Damn Thing

See, I don't know how to start this damn thing. I have read stuff that other people wrote and I doubt a wannabe amateur like myself can top those. But, I just want to be able to express myself. Okay? Please don't judge.

The first time I found out about Dalton, it was on tumblr. I was searching for some fun stuff. And then, I found thedaltonblog and I was hooked. I laughed for days just by reading the stuff on the page. I cried because of some spoilers (Siege). And I downloaded the entire freaking thing.

This all happened just... two weeks ago or so.

Anyway, when I began reading this, I was absolutely madly crying with laughter. I just love how au naturale they all seem to be. They all seem to be their own persons. And as I began reading further, I felt that something burrowed deep withing me resurfaced.

I was a bullied kid in High School. I mean, who wasn't? I'm not hoping for sympathy here. I'm just saying it as it was. Anyway, during my first years of High School, I was bullied. And the worse thing is, I go to a Co-Institutional school. It means that despite the fact that girls and boys go to the same school, we are separated - like, girls on the other side of the school, the boys on the farthest.

I was an awkward kid who fakes sickness to get out of class. And sometimes I don't have to. And I'm also the kid who had some problems. I never talked to anyone about my problems. No one knew about it - until now.

I had a girl-crush on my friend back in High School. I also had a crush on a boy then. I didn't understand it. And it was weird. So, when I read somethings about the same-sex marriage issue and the way it was fought so badly, I was scared. I never told anyone about it. I just suppressed the other part of me that liked girls. I thought, if no one knows, that doesn't mean I'm a freak. I'm just curious.

Truth be told, I'm a romanticist. I love a good romance. I guess that's why I love Dalton. Because, apart from something accepting my other side, it brought me romance.

And then, everything came crashing down. I couldn't understand some things. I only knew romance from the things i saw in movies or read in books. And wow, that makes me sound so ignorant. Anyway, Dalton showed me the different type of Romance.

It showed me the sacrifice- the meaning of Gondola and Jogan turned to pain and angst for me.

It gave my heartstrings a couple of tug - I just smile to myself whenever I remember Rane.

It taught me that sometimes, it just doesn't work out - I cried for days when I read the profile for Dasey.

And it will accept you no matter what - I would go jump in a building knowing that I have experienced so many forms of love just by reading this fic.

But that's just not it. If you look at my Royal Ladies picture, you'll see three of my OCs. Tallulah Kayen, Natasha Olsen and Ermengarde Lancaster. I just wrote them on a whim. I didn't understand why.

Anyway, Tally is a self-proclaimed Psychic. Natasha is a rebellious 'Queen Elizabeth I' (if you get the reference, Kudos to you) and Emmy is a Bisexual Figure Skater who ships Jogan so hard. The three of them are parts of me, I guess.

When I was a kid, I used to think that I was a Psychic. And by that, I meant I could bend spoons with my mind, talk to other people with my mind and... and I'm Jean Grey. (I'm an X-Man fangirl). And then, I read about Dwight and his flight/cause. It reminded me of the days when I used to go to an abandoned lot to look for engkanto. Tally is sort of my representation of that part of me.

Natty is rebellious. But at the same time, she's just a kid. She doesn't understand why she has rules and she hates it. In fact, she hates every damn thing about Royal. That's the part of me that hates to be tied down by rules - the childish part that believes I'm a grown up.

And Emmy. Emmy is the Jogan part of me. She represents my broken dreams of being a Figure Skater - I already lost in that aspect. She represents my Bisexual phase. She represents - with all her dramatic squealing and pushing Jules and Lo together - my Jogan heart.

(Wow. I just introduced my OCs. I'm sorry. Please keep reading! Please.)

But, that's not all. I felt myself likened by Han - Gosh! I love him. I love how he is probably the only one who will understand me if I tell him that we should have TTB or KH:DTB.

I found someone who understand me. I know that I should check myself in a mental facility for saying this - but I felt like I've known them for years. And I have just started reading this damn thing.

Okay, so for my finale, I'd like to add something Emmy says:

"I don't know when I started losing my pacifism and became a sado-maso with more on the masochist side. But I just can't bring myself to not push Julian and Logan together. I know, even if the whole world thinks I'm wrong, that the two of them belong to each other. It's fate. And even if Casey says I'm setting myself for a heartbreak for thinking those two will get together - because I have cried when Lo was with B instead of J - I will still sail with the Gondola."

[justasmallbloginabigklainefandom]

Apparently mama CP reblogged my post and it got notes