#manami rants

[cyno-sexual]

bruh I came and changed like 2 things on my bio to update it and wrote a message to someone and I get 2 porn bot messages right after wtf

[cyno-sexual]

okay, sick burns maybe?

idk, a venting anyway, spoilers this is a criticising post towards Christine and I do this because I’m fucking tired of all this crap

like, you gotta be some entitled stanning motherfucker idiot to passive aggressively bend rules for your own special snowflake comfort nonstop so that you can indirectly go and tell me and (now thanks to you) a friend to leave your server. I’ve seen my fair share of useless server owners in the past but you top them all. Clearly you are missing the point of liking something, and being down-to-earth with that liking. You’re not some fucking disciple following a cult, grow the fuck up. No, Rika is not a good person. Yes, I will keep saying that because people like you go and cry about her being something else. She isn’t. Saeran wasn’t a good guy either, that’s partly why Saeyoung wanted to hide him from public when he was out of the shit cult. Not just cuz of their heritage. The game literally fails to make you understand this though.  No one else gets hate? Have you even fucking looked around? I have seen countless hate posts on V, Saeran, Saeyoung, Yoosung, Zen..... hell a lot of times Jaehee and Jumin too. Literally everyone gets hate in the fandom from some sides. And you know what’s the funnier thing? Strip down the hateful spitting, and they are actually fucking right. Saeyoung irresponsible and stupid with the whole plan for Saeran? Fuck yes he is. The whole plan was bound to fail easily. V running away from responsibilities and letting an insane woman roam around freely? Guilty as charged. Also for not letting anyone know about it, instead playing some crappy martyr. Yoosung being immature as fuck? Yes, he is also a damn kid who has grown up sheltered. Yet he becomes actually someone who is the most aware of what bs Rika did.  Zen acting like some simple pretty-face most of his story. That’s his story, a pretty face. Like seriously, as much as I like him, he really doesn’t have anything worthwhile for his story and character. The haters are right that he is a waste of space, especially after the huge personality change they did on him for -who else- Rika’s defense squad sake. Jumin is materialistic af and I hate him for that, but his logical side is sort of what makes him at the same time likeable. He at least fucking thinks and calls everyone out on their idiotic behaviour. You go, Jumin. And blaming Jaehee for not standing up for herself... they are all correct. Jaehee has little to no story to her either and let’s face it, your character does absolutely nothing to help her situation and yet in 10 days you get her to suddenly chase dreams? Haha, that’s not how a workaholic is. Strip down all their looks, take a glance at what remains, their personality and backstory, and suddenly they aren’t as attractive or even consistent. Just because someone calls these mistakes out doesn’t make them blatantly hateful, as you have described. But I guess to people like you, it’s hard to comprehend that you don’t have to agree on everything to still hold a conversation, a debate, etc. and be friends. Not that I ever wanted to be your friend, you were always pushing into my life and I just pitied you. Don’t know why you were trying so much to befriend me... was it my former position in the fandom that made you want this? So that when things are basically dead in the whole fandom, you can sort of climb over my shoulders and beat your chest like a gorilla that woooo, you’re the big one. Not that I care. You were damn annoying anyway because no matter how many times I told you I can’t go sugarcoat crap about your precious Rika, you still could only talk about that. So I guess my hunch was right that you never really wanted to befriend me for who I am, but what I was in the fandom more so. Your constant asking for validation about headcanons and fanfics also proves this.  Hope you’re fine with your inner cult cycle or whatever, and perhaps next time you can straight-up tell someone in the face you have a problem with them not liking a fucking fictional character instead of doing the passive aggressive shit for a whole month (congratz on that too, holding onto something so trivial for so long.) Am I mad? Nah, I’m too busy drinking tea (no roast intended... or am I lying?) and listening to music about sex, murder and drugs. 

Peace.

Ps.: Your memes in the server are absolute crap, you can barely even see the meme pictures, and also you clearly have no idea how to properly use them cause everytime I saw you post any, you were blatantly offending others (or me). There’s a place and time for memes, but you’re obviously unaware of that. Even when I straight-up told you. So here, some indirect passive-aggressive crap, just the way you like it.

[cyno-sexual]

“you’re being stupid holding onto your dogma of not bearing children ever” “nothing is certain you will change your mind soon enough” how about you shut the fuck up and not try to tell me how to live my life jesus fucking christ

like fucking get the fuck out of here

i am fucking aware that things are in motion and nothing is certain not even time but there is this one fucKING THING THAT I KNOW FOR SURE, WHICH IS THAT I AM NEVER EVER GOING TO BE SUITABLE TO BE A MOTHER. with the 245356546 mental issues i have and my impatient behaviour, my selfishness and not being able to pay attention to anyone for a long period of time cuz i need my “me time” very frequently, makes me 100% certain that raising a child would make not just me wounded up worse than i am now, but even the child would just suffer through “life”. so yeah fuck off, seriously fuck off, you have no right to bitch at me for this and your smiley emojis won’t make me feel better either.

[cyno-sexual]

funny thing

p0rn bots can’t fool me at all because

1. they usually have some of the nasty stuff on their blog

2. they have weird ass names

3. they have no info whatsoever anywhere

4. they are obviously not into fandoms

and if you’re on tumblr without memes, fandoms, shitposting, you don’t belong :’D 

[cyno-sexual]

finally watched Shazam!!!

and I gotta say

I have a new favourite movie yoooooo???????

like this is genuinely amazing and I loved it so much????????

[cyno-sexual]

le me having a bill to pay with the usual amount like every month.

le me reading in paper with said bill that i have 1 left to pay (for my phone) and it will be slightly more. 

le me happy because mom has been annoying me with when it will end.

le me fast forward a month, didn’t have money for a while and delayed payment. 29th it was paid. next week got mail I didn’t pay it according to 30th day states. Knowing the post office is dying in Hungary I said, alright, it just didn’t arrive in, like the mail stated in such case I ripped the paper apart, ignored it. 

in those couple days, I got a ban on phone stuff like 4G and calls until I had this bill paid. I messaged them with my receipt to show I paid it just the day before they did the system check about unpaid things and I’m sorry it was late blahblah either way I threw out their new check of the same amount cause it was invalid, can I have my rights back on the phone? they agreed I’m right, I got my rights back on.

fast forward to today, I get the system message my last check is still due and hasn’t been paid........

now I’ll have a long talk with them at their office for sure. with my damn fucking bill paid receipts I have, I will have to prove them what asshats they are or idk.......

but this all pisses me off so much.

stupid bills, stupid loan, I just want to be free but I can’t and I want to cry.

[cyno-sexual]

next level bots:

now they offered me weed and xanax

seriously.........?

[cyno-sexual]

welcome back internet, it’s been 7 hours