#manda muses

[yareadyfreddie]

I  love how fic writers write Wade Winston Wilson. I'm pretty sure all of them are like "ok, so just turn every single filter I have to OFF and let go, except add mexican food refs randomly" and thus we have a plethora of crazy immortal assassin personalities across the board, but I'm pretty sure every one of them is a reflection of the author's deepest internalized insanity. It's beautiful.

[yareadyfreddie]

Need an historically accurate slang generator. Like, I enter "that's fucking awesome" and the year I want to say it in, and it spits out "the bees knees" or "all the ton" or "way groovy".

[yareadyfreddie]

"Drive it like you stole it."

A phrase that means "proceed very carefully my friend" bc what fucking idiot wants to be pulled over for reckless driving in a stolen car?

[rashiira]

As much as I love and adore the relationship built by Toriel and Sans through the Ruins door, lately I have been wondering how things would have gone once they got to the surface if they had never met/interacted at all (not even at the end of the Pacifist route---if Toriel had stayed in the Ruins until someone notified her that the barrier was broken). And I’ve been brainstorming a possible idea for a fic about how they would meet on the surface and how their relationship might start/develop without the canon interactions from the Underground. So it would be AU-ish. And potentially have some canon plotholes that I’m not sure how to deal with just yet.

I’m not sure, though. Does that sound interesting or should I brainstorm something else?

[mandafancypants]

The first chapter of Gajeels spin-off just came out and I've already seen people complaining that its "full of Gajevy" (hint: it's not) just like the Saber tooth spin-off was full of Stingyu. Yeah but guys, unlike Stingyu, Gajevy actually has development and she's a big part of Gajeel's life. They're well on their way to being canon. So yeah, there's probably gonna be a lot of Levy and some Gajevy. Not bashing Stingyu shippers and not saying Yukino isn't necessarily a big part of Sting's life, but there hasn't been a lot of canon development for them to the point of Stingyu being super relevant in the Sabertooth spin-off, which is why I understand a lot of people complained about it because of that. Not that I care, people can like or dislike Stingyu, I just think that it was a tad bit misleading of it being a 'Sabertooth" spin-off lol. What I mean is you can like it or not like it because I can see both. I just don't know what people expected with a Gajeel spin-off not to have Levy and/or shipping moments. I don't want it to be revolved around Gajevy at all, given its HIS spin-off but I expect a big Levy presence and perhaps shipping moments because she's a very large part of his life now.

[rashiira]

Also, why would I be creeped out by a 7 year age gap?

That’s the exact age gap that my parents have.

I wouldn’t even BE here if it wasn’t for them.

[rashiira]

There’s something I just want to say quick.

Whether you follow me or not, whether you like or reblog my work or not, I still appreciate everything. Lately, I’ve been seeing the same two or three posts floating around about how important it is for people to reblog artists’ works, etc, and watching other artists reblog it and be like “YEAH, SUPPORT US MORE THIS WAY. IT MATTERS MORE/MEANS MORE”, and it’s really starting to rub me the wrong way. I was sorta like that once upon a time, too, thinking my own pride in my work had to validated by other people and how much they liked it. And I never, ever want you guys to think that I don’t appreciate you even just LOOKING at my art.

At the end of the day, I do art first and foremost because it’s my passion. And that isn’t to say that I don’t enjoy it when people like my work or spread it around--of course that’s great and I’m honored. But I don’t want to lose sight of what drives and inspires me. Once upon a time, I did art more to please others. And if you give, many people will take---mercilessly. I got slammed on DA by notes and messages when I first opened commissions some years back. People didn’t think I was being “fair” because until that point, I put myself at their disposal and did more requests than I did my own work. But commissions are really the only time we should ever put someone’s wishes or wants about our art before our own.

I feel that a lot of artists often lose sight of this. If you draw just to make other people happy or give other people what they want or just to be popular, you’re going to lead yourself to unhappiness. I’ve been there. Once upon a time, someone’s opinion mattered so much to me that I destroyed my own art to get them to them forgive me for drawing it. And that sounds ludicrous, doesn’t it? But that’s honestly where that way of thinking can lead you. It can make you ashamed of something you love just because someone else doesn’t like it or wants you to feel guilty or bad about it. And I urge everyone not to take that path with any of their passions, be it art, writing, etc.

I do art and writing because I love them and I love to share the love I have for the things that I’m passionate about and inspired by. That won’t change.

I apologize that this got a little serious, but I do want to sincerely thank you all. Whether or not you even glance at something I’ve made, it still means the world to me. But no matter what anyone may think or say, I’ll keep doing it. I can promise you that.

[mandamaysmusings]

Vacation Time!

Not really a super big vacation, just down to SLC. And we were there 2 weeks ago to get our car fixed... But this time it’s just for funsies. 

I’m really looking forward to it. I’ve been really depressed and anxious lately, and I’ve been having weird reactions to food that keeps me bed-ridden and naseous for days at a time. I think it might be peanuts. Which also makes me sad because peanut butter is one of my favorite foods...

We were going to go to Lagoon, but we just found out it’s only open on weekends now, so I was really disappointed... But we got tickets for Oklahoma at Hale Center, and we’re going to go to some fun restaurants and splurge a little bit. 

I really need this. It’s hard being stuck at home all day with no job, no school, and no car. James has had to work so much lately. And I had to babysit my siblings while my parents took my brother to SUU, and that really did an emotional number on me... It brought up a lot of emotional trauma with my mom, and made me second guess myself and my abilities to be a parent... I’m so not ready. And I don’t know if I will be any time soon. I’m really scared about having kids. Or accidentally getting pregnant... I couldn’t do it right now. I can barely take care of myself and all my mental and emotional issues... How am I supposed to take care of a little one too?

Anyway. Point is, I’m excited for a few days to relax. We’re also going to look at a few apartments down there for when we move in October. It’s really exciting to be starting a new chapter in my life. I’m ready to leave this godforsaken town and the awful, ignorant people who live here. I know Salt Lake isn’t a huge step up... But it’s a step. Hopefully it’s a small stepping stone that will someday lead to bigger ones, like New York or California. I’m excited. :)