#manicthoughts

[why-333]

[fleurdediable]

I pushed myself tonight to create. Not only did I create, but I went outside of my comfort zone.

It definitely felt a little rusty. But it also felt very nice. I guess I have been so numb and afraid to make something I wouldn't be good at. Which is so silly but it's such a mental thing that is so hard for me to fight.

'Ohh boy what if I mess up?'

Silly me.

Working on myself mentally, on my own, without meds. For the first time in over 3 years. It's a process and its strange. But I feel like I'm finally learning who I am as a human.

Who I am as a woman.

[papi-pasify]

1:47 am

I’m a ghost and you know this

[papi-pasify]

6:33 am

Went to bed at 10pm, woke up at 3am, went to gym cus I didnt know what else to do.

Only going to my 9:30 class bc i can’t skip anymore

DEFF NOT going to my 3:30 lol, we’re just going over the exam I got a B in, so that’s when I’ll sleep??

[clairbear92]

Because at the end of the day, no matter how much I really wished you would ask.. I don't know if I'd have the courage to let you in.. How strange to be my own emotional oppresser.. Maybe this time if you ask me.. I could let you take a peek inside.. ❤💭💣 #ManicThoughts #AskMeAboutMyMadness

[manicmiriam-blog]

Manic Thoughts

I want to be elegant and bold

I want to use my electricity as loving power 

I could easily lose my mind

I want to believe I can change 

I want to tame the demon inside of me 

I CAN CHANGE 

I WILL CHANGE

I radiate waves of anxiety, thrill, defeat and hope 

[discouragedandconfused]

if I can't romanticize this shit, i might die.

if i can't believe trauma has some spiritual purpose, i might die.

I know there ain't no fucking silver lining forreal.

 just let me fucking have it.

what is it to you that my god's not real?