💚As many of you know I was going through a lot emotionally and physically before this big trip to India. 🏝I booked it with the intention of treating myself after a challenging Spring, Summer and I didn’t know then that winter would be added to that list. 👛I went because I needed a tremendous shift and a shift is what I got. 🐟I was like a fish out of water. My sensitivity was heightened as if I was brand new to the world. A completely new time zone, people, smells, sights… it was other worldly. 🤷🏽♀️I went through stages: “Wow this is so great!-Why am I so anxious?-What did I get myself into?!!-Why does everything take so long here?-Can I buy all the scarfs?--To finally settling in. 🌴Any time I could get I was grounding. There was so much information at every second. @joanhymanschoolofyoga pushed us and shared valuable information not only about the topics but personal experiences which made her relatable and approachable. Her dedication to this practice is inspiring. On top of that the town gushes with culture in every corner. A lot to take in. 😝I tried so hard to maintain my rituals until I couldn’t keep up. I was running out of time and I finally surrendered. I stopped wearing sports bras a couple of times, wearing lotion or caring about how my hair looked. It felt like I was rebelling against capitalism, the patriarchy and all the unnecessary conditioning. ✈️Oddly enough when arriving I was so scared of the chaos. I felt I needed structure and containment. The Gemini #Vata #pitta #manifestinggenerator nature of me needs it. Or so she thought. 😮💨I saw my wounds and shadows show up often on this trip and I almost couldn’t handle it. However I gave myself compassion and grace. I remembered that I’m different and that’s what makes me, me. 🥰I had to go back to my solitude and connect back to Mother Earth. Bringing it all back to me because at the end of the day, I am all I have. 🍄I miss the chaos, the noise as odd as that sounds coming from me, the colors, smells, community, love, connection, land, laughter, my Indian family…. I am no longer in this vortex and I miss the thin veil India provided. Until we meet again Goa 🙏🏼🇮🇳 (at Nalanda Retreat) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoFBbHQLPxU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
