#many steps

[fieriframes]

[How many steps to the light?]

[petirrojo57]

Heck no, if I had to climb these stairs to go to church I’d look into moving. These are the steps leading to the Basilica of Santa Maria in Ara Coeli in Rome. The faithful and tourists alike can’t skip leg day if they want to visit.

You may ask: did I visit? Nope. Thank you hop-on tourist bus upper deck views for the chance to see it even from this vista!

[perfect-trash]

I've gotten 10,000 steps erryday since getting my watch, and I got 20,000 the other day. 😍🥰 I think I got 15,000 yesterday. Thanks, fair!

[tiny-yet-thoughtful]

Things I do/have done because of my anxiety

Want to leave and end up being at the designated place almost an hour early.

Choose to get to campus hours before my first class starts because I feel like I can't do anything until I'm on campus.

Be on a sort of 'pause mode' whenever I have something to do later in the day (i.e hangouts, classes, appointments).

Mentally go through the driving route to a place before leaving.

Switch to the left/right lane according to which I way I'll have to turn miles before I actually turn in that direction.

Kept asking "here?" whenever someone says to turn left/right.

Went back up to my car on the 4th floor because I was worried I forgot to lock it (I didn't but I had left a light on inside).

Have literally put my head down so I could not see the road while my brother was driving.

Have avoided going places because of the driving route.

Kept checking my bag to see that I had my wallet even though I literally just checked.

Have sat through an uncomfortable lunch with someone because I couldn't say no when they had asked a week earlier.

Decided not to eat because someone was in the kitchen.

Have kept going in the wrong direction instead of just turning around because there were people behind me or sitting around (this was while walking somewhere).

Had an anxiety attack after seeing a post about a friend who had an anxiety attack.

Had an anxiety attack at night and the next morning had another one.

Literally have holded off emailing my advisor for something important until end of semester.

Have waited until last minute to register for classes because I was too worried that there weren't going to be any I'd be able to get into(very counterproductive)

Just straight up laid on the floor for an hour or two. (But I do this when I'm good too soo)

Have missed so many opportunities to just tell someone I REALLY liked their outfit (they were so pretty).

Have avoided driving because I didn't want to be the one to put in gas(thow whole process of it stresses me out).

Calculated the cost of stuff I was buying way before getting to the chasier and transferred $100 to my checking to be sure I could pay for it (it ends up just being like 20 something dollars).

Already have my card out ready to pay and went over the routine of what you need to do in order to order and pay.

Have literally stood in front of a food stall, have the employee ask if they could help me, and then I just turned around and walked away. (I came back with my Dad who helped me order).

Have to mentally repeat my order and how I'll say it so many times while in line.

Just ordered water to drink because the idea of asking what else they had to drink was just no.

Been super tense on numerous occasions where I felt sore later on.

Cracked my fingers when nervous.

Literally practiced the ABC' in sign language when nervous.

Not told waiters if there was something wrong with my food and just accepted it.

Begged my parent not to call the doctors office when they messed something up.

[aewenaiyana]

woke up late again. well woke up before 7 but needed to catch up on sleep from yesterday. i actually went back to sleep this time. til 10! had dreams this time so i know i was sleeping. i think the light may be waking me up...

didn’t get much done before I had to go walk a dog. Surreal how warm it is out. finally spring. finally 70s. went to store to pick up some corn for mom bc she wanted to grill. also ended up getting some more things bc not many good fruits/veg left at home. back, ate lunch.

 went on a walk to get flowers for my resin things and took a minute deciding which path. went up the hill bc hadn’t been there in a while, and it got real hot going up the hill, my head started pounding, and I sometimes get headaches from going up hills in the heat. proliferation of violet-like flowers on the bluff. i almost didn’t go all the way to the top bc lots of sand and loose rock. i was afraid of falling. but there were kids up there, girls unafraid of going up and down those rocks! :(  Also a skinny woman, their mom, in a dress. probably thought why’s this fat girl going up the hill, haha look how she is exhausted from something my little girls can do. She’s an athletic person who takes her girls on adventures and teaches them to take risks, things I never learned to do. I didn’t want to go back the same way so I went back across the top of the hill, hoping the path would take me down but it went along the ridge for a while to another cliff and ... there weren’t many flowers there either. went back down. some violets etc and i was trying to surreptitiously put them in my backpack, bunch of people going up hilltoday, but this woman saw me looking at the hill and asked if i was looking for morels. i said yes, bc I sort of was, i ha realize earlier it was actually about time for morels. 

almost down the hill, I heard the magic bird and i actually caught it on video. (I’d heard it on the way up too)

got a bunch more violets down in the woods near home. 

I went 14,000 steps and over 5 miles, a new record since i’ve started using stepcounter. i was so tired, almost shaky, headachy-ish when i got home--  drank, ate supper. didn’t do exercises. even doing laundry was hard. i had to remind myself to feed Phoenix his pill. I remembered he needed food with it, so I fed him tuna but he didn’t even want that. ate some lunch meat but threw it up. didn’t look like he threw up pill so hopefully he didn’t.... hope he doesn’t keep doing that. 

a person was going to drop off a key and she got there but then went back bc she forgot shoes she wanted. I finally got to german after pressing flowers in books + dishes and read some of my book on my kindle right before person was coming

[condescendingbaglady]

Ah okay. I understand now. I understand.

[strawberrydiscotime-blog]

Not that any of you care but I have been wearing a pedometer to work to see how many steps I take over the course of my work shift. 

Sunday: 12, 961 steps

Monday: 13,403 steps

Tuesday: 15,437 steps

Wednesday: 12, 976 steps