#manyquestions

[uayachtsrib]

Business _InRome#fullday #makeappointment #manyquestions #golfcars #funmoving 🧶 (presso Rome, Italy) https://www.instagram.com/p/COh8jdhr48g/?igshid=mpcq5dcpxcr4

[thecpdiary]

My Book of many questions

It became clear the more I struggled the more I couldn’t live without knowing what my disability was. I say it again that I thought I would have to go to the grave without knowing. Mentally what does that do to a child?

Dealing with a disability is physically and mentally draining. Add not knowing what you deal with into the equation and it goes against the very core of what the universe expects; it was my right to know.

I lived with anger around too many uncertainties, irritations, and confusion. I spent a lifetime with mental and emotional turmoil. Blame was continually at my door because I was angry, and all I wanted was to talk about things.

I wanted to talk about things like why my muscle tone was different on my left side. I wanted to talk about why my left hand and arm felt weaker to my right, why my left foot looked different to my right, why I couldn’t pick my foot up properly when I walked, or why I would continually drag my leg, why I wasn’t able to walk heel toe, or why I needed to have a heel raise.

I also wanted to know why each day was a chore in school, why I just wasn’t getting school, why in class I was fixated on certain words, why I was constantly lagging behind, why my handwriting was so small and why when I was asked to make my outlines bigger, I couldn’t.

I know that if my questions and disabilities had been addressed, I wouldn’t have had the same needs as an adult, and I wouldn’t be doing what I’m doing now. It turns out being ignored was a good thing, because together with mum’s words, it prompted me to find out, to write and express my feelings, because I am now a blogger and published author.

My Book, is available to buy on Amazon http://amzn.to/2qrpiy8 /UK or Amazon http://amzn.to/2WPE2Vy US. As @HeatherBoisseau of Red Door Press says, “it is perfect for Covid times.”

For more inspirational, life-changing blogs, please check out my site https://www.thecpdiary.com

[poetponyofmidgard]

So Alfred designed a sexy goth costume for his niece?!! To be fair, he also may be the one actually responsible for the bat-nips on Bruce & Dick’s suits! 🦇✨ #manyquestions #batmanandrobin #batsuit #joelschumacher #batgirl #alicasilverstone #batman #alfredpennyworth #rifftrax @rifftrax @dccomics @_hdtgm_ @hdtgm @intermission_podcast @tiffahorror https://www.instagram.com/p/CBzcFzCpibf/?igshid=lm1rn5yp6dmb

[simplyborealis]

Interesting find at my local coop. #winejelly #yummy #jelly #dessertorbreakfast #manyquestions

[hemanchong]

#Enigma #ManyQuestions #BetterThanArt (at Parkview Square)

[chaoticadollcosplay]

I never thought I'd wake up and have to ask myself, "Is this real shit, or just refried beans?" Caught in a landside man, and there's no escape fromreality. It is in fact just refried beans. I think. I'm not sure how it made it this far to the back of the house, but... Here we are. #almosthadaheartattack #why #how #damnnearsteppedinit #manyquestions #nope

[nicolecocaine]

My view.

Have you ever wondered what it feels like to skinny or even have the perfect summer body you've been waiting your whole life for? Being the way I am now it seems just fine because its just a little body weight on you that you can easily lose. But if you look at it on my point of view , nothing is changing , my body is giving up , I always break down , and everything that I thought would happen doesn't happen . For example I thought me drinking a lot of water , eating a lot of healthy food , and getting a good workout everyday would make a difference . I always think something is gonna change. It just never happens. For me to walk around with a lot of body weight on my body is making me very uncomfortable. I see a whole bunch of girls at my school or even outside of school that are skinny and have that "perfect" body shape. They don't have to worry about who's talking about them or having their fat hanging out of their shirts or whatever. They are perfectly fine. I'm not. I have to worry about who's talking about me behind my back or if any of my extra skin is showing throughout my shirts or pants. I even have to worry about who's gonna be my friend and who's gonna actually gonna be there for me when I need them the most. My question is that who's gonna actually be friends with a fat girl when all the rest of there friends are skinny. Wouldn't they wanna be friends with someone who is much more like them? That doesn't have all that extra weight on them? Whenever I'm with my friends they all seem comfortable in there own body expect me. I always think negative about things like what if they don't like me for me or what if they don't like me because I'm different from them and so much more. I dont think there can never be a day where I'm comfortable in my own body. Now that summer is coming I don't think I will get over my "fear" of someone seeing my stomach. I always walk around with a coverup or something because I never want anyone to see my stomach until I am comfortable with the person I am showing or that I am comfortable in my own skin. I try my hardest to do everything that I can to have the body I want but nothing is changing nor working .. :(