I’m struggling to decide if I should pick this battle or not
I am out as radqueer adjacent to one friend and one friend only. My friend of a decade who I trusted more than anyone on this earth. I confided this in him because being transharm is a part of my identity that has grown to being really important to me. When I told him I was very clear in what I support and don’t support, and I thought it was okay, he seemed fine at least
Now, I sent him a tumblr post made by a radqueer acc the other day because it looked like something he’d like. He apparently browsed through the tags and just sent me a voice message saying he’s grossed out by it. That I was coddling predators, the whole mapmisic speech, that he’s concerned about how safe I actually am to be around. It was a pretty long voice message too
Now. I love my friend. He’s very dear to me and that’s the only reason I didn’t went straight to blocking him. That being said, I have never been so inclined to bitch slapping him. I’m so confused and I’m pissed and I’m hurt
My friend is para. He’s BEEN para for a really long time. My friend also knows I was raped as a kid and how much I stand against any kind of child abuse. I don’t get where all of that came from and I just want to cry because I don’t think my friendship with him will stay the same, I don’t think I have enough trust in him anymore
Any advice at all is welcome, I’m not thinking straight