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Now are we ready to hear the next story? Because with me, it's always an adventure.

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Amen ! #marilyngogo #g

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A year ago today

Reintroduction of Mr. Young Gun and Max

Continuing on with the story,

I believe I left off when Mr.Young Guy and Max both wanted me to come to Oklahoma, and the both asked me within a week time span and it was the most mind baffling thing that I had, had to go threw. So I just waited a week or two , and then another week , and when I finally got the guts up to buy that ticket, take the plunge and just trust the winds more. I bought the ticket not even thinking twice about the exact day .

But when I got that confirmation email , it dawned on me . That exactly one year ago on that date I was boarding a plane to Oklahoma.

A flight that was the gunshot at the beginning of a race , it was the start of this journey as a traveler, as a vagabond, as a terrified young woman thinking she knew it all and then some, that threw her trials and tribulations blossomed into this go getter that saw this world in such clarity that she knew what she needed to do to fix , and adjust certain aspect of this industry ,that she had the ability to change it for the better . And nothing was going to stop her, because I fucking said so.

A few days later ,when she got off that plane in Oklahoma ,and walked down those long hallways that were entirely too long , but they sang a tune of happiness from the years and years of it being that hallways where the soldier ran to his wife and children , Where the child came home war or a religious mission back into the safety and arms of their mother and father , where the man came to meet a stranger that he was in love with and the awkward first nerve wracking handshake that turned to a half hug . I wondered what this hallway would have in store for me today? Because I really didnt know who was going to be picking me up from the airport . I told them I would figure it out, and call them if I needed a ride, and when I would be arriving in OK.

So you can imagine how I felt , or maybe you cant but here Ill tell you the shock and goose bumps that went down my spine whenever I heard music playing that wasnt the elevator background music ,and the tune being so familiar too familiar infact, that it really bothered me that I couldnt hear it clearly .Getting closer and closer I finally turn the corner to hear it , it was a song that we both loved at that time in our lives, and just as quickly as my brain was able to recognize the song , my eyes also recognized the man in front of me . With that devilishly handsome smile greeting me , and a white rose in his hand, he gracefully stands up as i  walked towards him , And with my final step towards him he wrapped a muscular arm all the way around my pencil skirted waist and pulled me in tight for a intense , almost painful to my heart, kind of kiss .

And then Max says “ Hello , little Girl “

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How my World went Topsy Turvy for a Moment - The reintroduction of Max and Mr. Young Gun

What…..The ….. Fuck

I was speechless , no I was flabergasted , no I was so utterly besides myself that I has no other explanation except he and I were what others called twin flames .

What is a Twin Flame?

Twin flames, also called twin souls, are literally the other half of our soul. We each have only one twin, and generally after being split the two went their separate ways, incarnating over and over to gather human experience before coming back together. Ideally, this happens in both of their last lifetimes on the planet so they can ascend together. So you probably haven't had many lifetimes with your twin.

http://www.soulevolution.org/twinflames/twinflames.htm

Each twin is a complete soul, not half a soul. It is their task to become more whole, balancing their female and male sides, and ideally become enlightened, before reuniting with their twin. This reunion is of two complete and whole beings. All other relationships through all our lives could be said to be "practice" for the twin, the ultimate relationship.

We still were so connected that he was probably subconciously felt the need to leave and start heading to  the same fucking state that I was in the process of  buying a plane ticket for that very second.

Me”- “ Thats awesome , ummmm have a safe trip”

Max- “ I wanna see you baby girl , to try this again , REALLY try , forgive and forget everything in the past and start over”

Me” Um.. What ?? I mean of course I miss you and I would give anything to start over again with you but do you really think we could be together again without practically killing each other….. AGAIN ?”

Max- “ I fucking hope so , Because I need my baby back”

Me- “ I need you to daddy , I miss you so much “

And I meant every single little bit of it too. My heart ached with the words resonating in my head over and over.

So there I was with this decision . Between a man that I would always love and be connected to … But when we were together it was like nuclear warfare… very unhealthy.

                                                      OR

This man that was such a pure , innocent love between us . But he put up a curse on me after I left him , a fucing curse ! To never love again …… Is NEVER the end of my heart opening up again ,... I had to find out .

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OMG OMG OMG . Got my Laptop back! And its time to start writing ! I hope you all are ready for some stories! Because They are coming ! 

In the mean time go check out my website ! Because soon the sto9ries will only be posted on there 

www.marilyngogo.com 

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Hey There

Hey, Marilyn. This is Daniel. We met at Hanover’s last night (you sweetly called me out for putting your guy friend on the spot).

So I read through some of your blog and find there to be a genuine sweetness about you and your astute observations as you write about the way people have touched your life. In fact, the funny part is that I had read one of your stories somewhere else in recent months (maybe FB?). The story about the cherub faced guy that dropped you at the airport to go to Houston and figure shit out. “Nobody likes an unfinished story.” I had also seen your “Listen up guys” video about asking a girl out and not being an assuming prick. So it’s funny we crossed paths.

You wanna grab a drink sometime? Maybe do some tailgate philosophizing? Let me know, sexy girl.

Daniel

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The Universe Has a Sick Sense of Humor

April 2016                                         Corpus Christi ,TX - Tulsa, Oklahoma

So Mr. Young Gun … if you don't know the story. I’m going to suggest you go catch up really quick. Here are the links for you

https://www.marilyngogo.com/single-post/2016/01/23/No-filter-%E2%80%A6-Beware-don%E2%80%99t-look-too-closely

Ok so now that you're all caught up and you know the story of the pendant , and the gravity of it all. Lets now go back to my birthday morning on April 8th 2016 , on the beach , sitting right next to Whit in a peaceful silence. No need to talk , for there was no awkwardness , no need to fill the void with nonsense babble , the ocean breeze was strong enough to do that for us. But then I suddenly heard a muffled ring form the phone , I snatch up my phone really quick and looked down at the screen to see the name of who else, Mr. Young Gun .  A tight lump that I tend to get when I'm about to cry wells up in my throat so quickly I couldn't catch it in time and calm myself down . I hadn't talked with this man for almost a full year at the time, why was her calling me now ? There is no way in hell that he would have possibly remember this day.  

As hundreds of questions and flash back of our times together flash to and from inside my mind . The quick conclusion I came to was that that I had to know if he was ok. Had to hear his voice to reassure he was still himself . So I answered it .

Me- “Hello ?”

YG - “ Why hello there missy, Happy Birthday”........... ( he remembered)

YG- “ Now how could I forget a woman that I still love, mind you birthday ??Why do you think I hate you ?

me-“ Well for starters you threw my pendant into the fucking lake! Oh ya know the pendant to my heart. Remember “

Him - In his mid west country accent that was just so fucking cute to me, like it made me want to give him a hug around his waste , or pinch his cheeks kind of cute , says to me “ Alina , babe, … Now I kept that thing for over a year do you truly believe that I would just throw it away , like that?”

My jaw drops . Oh my goodness , he didn't really do it , that means I’ll be able to get it and get my ability to truly love another man again.

Him” I want you to come see me in Oklahoma , please. I need you here with me ?

Me “ Of course , let me get enough money for a flight and I'll be there ok. As soon as I can!”

And I meant it. I really missed that man , there was something about how he held me in his arms, wrapped all the way around me and then some and then he would pick me up like I weighed nothing and i would wrap my legs around him, and he would hold me like without even batting an eye , for as long as I wanted , kissing me slowly and lovingly. It was so comfortable and safe and it just felt right, from the very first time we kissed . I was also truly intrigued to see if we could make it work this time,  without any of the other negative influences from people and energy. .

We chatted a bit more and then said our goodbyes . With a new goal and direction to excite us and give us hope for what's to come. And with that realization and a deep breath , I stood up and went to go dance with My whitney around the fire , and enjoy the rest of my 30th birthday. But of course I couldn't get him off my mind , like his every move , his shy smile his shy country boy accent and then Mr. Young Gun started to get a bit agitated, but the man child was obviously already set in place. He did want me. He wanted this idealistic relationship and perfect woman  to be his and only his , he wanted the fairytale , the thing that sadly just that . A fairytale that I felt I couldn't live up to almost . I knew that I was going to completely shatter his whole world . Because I wasn't ready and I knew it.

Now besides all of that ,I truly did miss him and want to see him again , without the outside influences affecting  the very new budding feelings that we had together. And to get my pendant back, and finally break that fucking curse he had put on me. And as me and Mr. Young Gun chatted a bit more , I could feel myself just melting into his arms once again just as easy as I did the first time . It was so comforting , a fond memory, home.  We said goodbye and hung up the phones on that note. With a deep breath and a new fire lit within me, I stood up and ran over to where My Whit was dancing around the fire like a little tiger lily floating in the wind .

-2 or 3 Days Later-

I'm in the place I called home for the time being , myself and Lil Fox sitting or standing around the kitchen isle as we always did, myself about to book my flight out to see Mr. Young Gun while lil Fox just keeps chatting along , about every subject under the sun, and her intelligent yet so scatterbrained mind truly amazed me at times, almost baffling me by how sporadic it truly was .

As I'm just and I literally mean JUST about to book the flight , my phone beeps and flashes , I pick the phone up, look at the screen to see who this could be, don't people know i'm busy . .. :)

MAX- “How are you little girl?”

I almost drop the phone into my cocktail I was so shocked. After what had happened in Oklahoma . I never in a million years thought I’d hear from him again . Yet his memory ,good and bad are forever etched into my soul, his scent , his laugh , and then the bad as well .Of course I just try to let go of that fear , that hatred and betrayal that I experience from him .

That's all I could do , let it go

“ I'm doing well , how are you?” short and sweet I told myself ,keep it short and sweet. Don't let him know that you're practically dying on the inside for him to wrap his muscular arms around me and hold on a little bit longer that he should .

Max -“ I'm good , just about to hit the road actually”

Me- “ Really ?Where are you now?

Max- “I don't even know”

Max - I'm in arizona ,  but not for long I'm getting back on the road today”

Me- “Nice … nice … and where are ya going mister ?”

Max- “I’m going up to Oklahoma”

I froze and almost gasped out loud, wide eyed not believing what I had just heard come thru that tiny speaker from that tiny smartphone , a phone that should be a lot smarter than to let that statement from Max, ever touch my ears ever again.

You must be fucking kidding me . ,

Max was going to Oklahoma

I was going to Oklahoma

All at the same time, 

How could you do this to me universe, god ,whomever is responsible for this absolutely deadly combination of coincidences.