#martyrdoem

[patchycoat]

       His gaze laid heavy on the cup of tea in front of him. They’d been like this a million times before, chatting with mugs over everything from Lily’s wedding plans to sociological theory on muggle and wizard culture interactions. But Remus could already feel something heavy sitting in the air. Something sitting heavy in his chest. Dumbledore was dead, and it hit him hard, and Dumbledore seemed to be the topic for this conversation.

“ Dumbledore... looked out for people. Even the people nobody wanted him to. ---”

People. Maybe so ambiguous a term that it’s individual personal reference was apparent. Even more, his response felt so lacking Remus was sure Lily could tell he had something burning up his tongue, or maybe she didn’t, maybe he was making that up in his head. Maybe it was guilt manifesting. His hand raised to rub his face, mind running through scenarios of his friend yelling about dishonesty and betrayal, or coiling back in fear, or even just a polite acknowledgement and subtle distancing.

He loved Lily Evans. Not in the way James did, but Remus could see how much she cared, how much she loved, her intelligence and her drive. She was amazing, and Remus would always be grateful to the world for letting him be her friend, but she didn’t deserve him. Maybe if he told her, she’d finally realize that. Maybe that was what scared him, that telling her would break whatever illusion she was under and she’d finally realize he wasn’t worth two cents of her time.

He can’t keep lying to her.

Unsure how long he’d been silent and staring at the mug in front of him, Remus opened his mouth. Every muscle frozen in anxiety. His gaze laid heavy on the cup of tea in front of him.    “ Lily, I have to -----I have to tell you something. ”   /   @martyrdoem

[duelmartyr]

@martyrdoem​ said:  " i'm going to protect you. not because you're blood or i need to, but because you're my family, and i got your back no matter what. "

there’s a moment where he doesn’t say anything, surprised by the passion in her voice and how firmy she seems to believe what she says. he found it easy to feel protective of the other order members, especially the ones younger than him. they spent so much time together and had gone through so much, it was almost impossible not to feel that way. but it wasn’t often that he remembered they could return the same feelings. “i’ve got your back too.”

[duelmartyr]

@martyrdoem​ said: " jesus, don't do that to me ever again! "

he raises a finger to his lips as he smiles at the small child, the sofa they are hidden behind is reasonable in size though gideon suspects that his mop of ginger hair pokes out over the top and even if it didn’t he knows the little boy’s giggles will surely give them away. 

at the sound of footsteps he begins to countdown before jumping across the living room with harry’s hand in his, both shouting like berserkers before bursting into laughter at the look on lily’s face. “ah come on, it’s all in good fun.”

[redmeadowes-blog]

“ couldn’t escape if i wanted to ”

Those words made Dorcas’ heart ache. She knew far too well where Lily was coming from. Deep down, if Dorcas looked, she felt the same. She didn’t like to think about that though.

“Listen to me, Lils,” She took the girls hands in her own, “Even if you feel like this is something you can’t escape... I’m still here and so is James. You don’t have to be alone facing this. While we may not ever be able to run away, we have each other. And... that may not be the most comforting, just know that you always have someone in your corner, okay?”

[redmeadowes-blog]

✘ do you ever find yourself wishing you had not been gifted with magic at all?

“Don’t we all? I could enjoy the simplicity of it. Oh, maybe I could have a little garden in the countryside, living in ignorance. That would be fun! But, the feeling is fleeting. I was gifted with magic for a reason. It almost feels like it’s my duty to do my magic justice. I know people would kill to be able to do what I can. So, I’ll do what I must!”

[caradocdearbcrns]

Peony

favorite hot beverage?

❝ Tea. Strong, black tea. I’ll function without it, but at what cost? ❞ He wrinkles his nose a bit before adding:❝ If I have to, I’ll take it with milk, but sugar is more than I can handle. ❞

[caradocdearbcrns]

Allium

what's the best thing you can cook?

❝ Used to be the best I could come up with was rarebit, ❞ he says, shaking his head at the spoiled boy he used to be. When he wasn’t at Hogwarts he was at home with Dad’s excellent cooking, or at Ted’s with his mum’s, or ‘round someone else’s where food was plentiful and he never had to think about it. It wasn’t until he moved to London that he had to fend for himself, and it had shocked him, how difficult that was. He was phoning Dad three times a day for a bit. ❝ Finally got Dad to give me his cawl recipe, though. I’d say that’s top. ❞ Caradoc goes very quiet, trailing off for a moment before snapping his eyes back up and trying to pretend no one noticed.

[marlsboro]

🌶️ & 🍦

🌶️  = Can your muse handle spicy food? What is the spiciest food that they can handle?

Absolutely, half her amortentia scents are spice oriented. She grew up with older siblings, though quite a bit older perhaps and nothing they did was ever in halfs. She definitely witnessed a pepper eating competition, snuck one off the table in her dress and ate the whole thing in her bedroom closet. The scream that followed probably scarred her mum for life ( again ). But she loves spicy food and will not back down from a spicy challenge.

🍦 = What is your muse’s favorite ice cream flavor? Do they prefer eating it in a cone, cup/bowl, or straight from the carton? Do they use any toppings?

Black Raspberry or chocolate chip, or both. straight from the carton. Is there….another way??? she could take or leave toppings, but if she’s going to take them it’s going to be mini gummy bears and crushed honeycomb but never together.