So, I was checking my word storage and I found an story I wrote about a film I didn't even like that much. But it's nice and old and have representation and I do think Gin have feeling for Hana but struggle with the trans fact. So, I would have let it rotten among my heavy stuff so I am posting here now, hope you like it.
TOKYO GODFATHERS FANFICTION
Sinopse: After the end Gin and Hana go home feeling empty inside.
Oneshot
After meeting Kiyoko parent's at the hospital and giving Miyuki our goodbyes, the feeling of misery came right through my body. Hana had cried enough for both of us and I may say this time wasn't even a bother. He make it up for me, at least in my head this old poor man can be relived by the drama queen he is.
Now, as we go home surrendered by silence it is almost like we're abandoned. Our little messed place seems so… empty, her magazines and cats droped everywhere. Deprived of those two lives that had just left.
Hana is quiet as I get the lights on. He didn't fix his make up yet, well generally the make up makes him a littler bit less ugly but now its worse all over his face. I'm sorry for him. So I sit in the ground, over tired.
"Are you hangry?"
"No. No a bit…"
He sits far from me for getting space, and it's okay. He had always want to have babies and sons and daughters. Now, our two were taken away within the same time.
"Do you think they're going to visit us?"
"Well, They have to. Owning us that much..."
"But... but peaple can forget anything!"
He cries more quietly than before making me want to cry too. I never thought I'd be that broken even after have just rejoined with my daughter, but I do. I do. In other time I'd be the gone one so it does feel kinda fair to care it on me, to feel that broken, but no for Hana I think, that faggot drama.
Before letting a tear go down my face I get up and search something for him.
"I'm not okay letting them go as well but... the doctor said you should eat properly and rest and not fuck slide through building."
He sniffs his noise into something and as I grab the food we colected earlier I can smile because at least... he is with me and this is enough for now.
"When have you got this kind, sweetie?"
Pissing me off as always!
" I am kind, you faggot! I know to take care of the person I like now!"
And before noticing what I have just said his face is full bright ansurprisedse. He lets a smile open up his face showing that broken teeth and that his red lipstick still on, I turn into what I was making trying to hide my burned cheeks from him.
Then, as I listen to his babbles of feeling etc he eats and I do our beds.
"We've got so much space now... I will miss her so much I don't know if i can handle it."
"You must, life can be even worse if you don’t make it. Thus they're visiting anytime soon."
"What happened to you? You changed."
"Problems with that?"
"No, I just wished that’d come sooner than this, you were such a ogre."
"Hey, I can still be one if you don't stop talking! What the hell? It's impossible to get even tender with you!"
"Oh."
Words is becoming a trap, earlier I finish talk more sane I'll become.
With anger and hiden cheeks I get up and rush for some sleep, but then looks like he had already finished himself as well so he lays besides me. I turn to the other way. His breath tickling against my neck.
"Why don't you sleep in your bed?"
"I am cold. And lonely..."
"Yeah, so am I but don't you dare to climb on me."
I couldn't just pull him away as quickly as I could, or push him at all. Yesterday he/she was almost close to die so many times... the pain of loose could be so much worse if this person were not here. I don't know if I’d be able to handle it too. I have saw him fall dawn the sky, tear blood through the mouth, and get away from me long enough. That's why I let him/her get this close, not that far from my own skin.
"Will we feel this loneliness for the rest of our lives if withou them?"
And starts to cry... again.
"Don't know. Sleep to rest, Hana."
"Brute."
Then, the silence stick between us for sometime. Within this I truly understand her... I don't know exactly. The warming heats up, blowing. I can sense the distance between us and the miss we have for them.
So, I realize I do get emotional.
"Gin, you awake?"
Why would I lie?
"Yes. I am. What do you want?"
"Do you really like me? You said back then you do."
Why would I lie? Now, after everything?
I turn turn in. Cannot see the face before me, its all blank but the breath is now too close to my face and hot, having smell of food and blood.
"Why do you want to know? You never said you liked me."
Wild come strong on my face, I breath in.
"Ohhh! Gin, It's true I have never said it! I do, of couse I do. We're family after all."
Like an alcoholic I let myself win over me.
"So do I."
She laughs...
"Sometimes I can say you are true woman."
Then, I kiss her.
And she lets.
I touch her, and she lets.
She is all woman and her body have just only one thing wrong, and I can deal with it. As long as we are alive.
