#matraguna

[edaiane]

Delir

Nu mi-e frig şi nu mi-e cald

Nu sunt tristă, dar nici de bucurie nu sar

Foame, sete, nu mai simt deloc

Nici durerea. Deşi-s în foc.

    Tresar când flăcările mă gâdilă la subsuori

Şi de la fum, am uitat să văd în culori.

Pielea începe pe alocuri să mă strângă

Dar focul nu vreau să se stîngă.

    Am hotărât de mult să o sfârşesc

Şi n-am de gând să mă răzgândesc.

Am aşteptat prea mult de mine să-ţi aduci aminte

Mângâierea, glasul, privirea ta din nou să mă alinte

    Şi m-am pierdut pe mine în aşteptare

Fiinţa mea, a fost dată spre uitare

Am prins pânze de păianjen pe la colţuri

Şi praf pe piciorul sugrumat de lanţuri.

    Cu suc de oleandru şi praf de cucută,

O lingură de arsenic şi ceai de mătrăgună,

Aqua Toffana şi-un strop de cianură

Am ţinut dietă timp de-o săptămâna.

    Şi-am căzut în delir...

[damonstan]

:) 'huge huge hug' It's refreshing to find someone who thinks exactly like me at this point:) That's why I kept sending you messages, because you're so realistic and sweet and down to earth regarding the state of TVD. The fandom is boiling, they keep reblogging gifs of DE from the last episode, which are out of context and the reflection of the devastation the relationship between Damon and Elena is at this point. Does a kiss matter if it's a gross sexual manipulation??!?

Firstly, thank you so much for all the compliments. I really don’t think I deserve them but I am flattered. And talking to you is really really refreshing too.  I am glad that not everyone has a skewed version of the show and Delena. I feel like people love the bubble and it’s more about competition between the ships that has led both fandoms to ignore everything bad with the ships they ship. 

I don’t like that kiss or that ass grab at all. I cannot for the love of God understand how anyone is reblogging that. I don’t have a single Delena gifset on my blog today cos everything was fake. The kiss was gross and stealing Damon’s car out of spite was completely wrong too and then the smiles in the end over that just completely threw me off. That kiss was completely meaningless. The thing is Elena just wants to have fun, doesn’t matter if it’s Damon or anyone else. She doesn’t care. She doesn’t care about Damon at all so what are we rejoicing for again?

And the hugest bear hug ever to you babe. 

[damonstan]

And one last thing:) I really don't understand how we suppose to believe that Damon loves her the same way after all these episodes. It stopped being believable. He's heartbroken, and she's NOT getting that. And I'm thinking of the episodes before her humanity being turned off. "We have an understanding", yes. He's understanding her, but she's stepping on his heart. They destroyed the essence of Delena. And I hope they'll re-discovery it somehow, because now it's just sad.

I think Damon’s one of those people who loves too much and he just can’t stop. Even with Katherine his love never once wavered despite knowing she was with Stefan too. I can honestly relate to that. His love is pure, passionate and all consuming and his love causes him to place Elena before everything. 

Yeah, Elena in s4 didn’t understand him at all and she understood him more in s1 and s2. She wasn’t getting that he’s insecure despite him hinting it so many times, she wasn’t getting that she needs to tell him about her choice why he’s suddenly good enough. They definitely lost their understanding. Or Elena did. Damon gets her completely. They really did take away something that Delena always hinged on and I hate it. I honestly want this season to end ASAP. Good riddance. 

[damonstan]

Thank you so much for your answer. It reflects my own opinions. This season was smoking mirrors, full of a lot of shallow love declarations, but not a SINGLE WHY she loves Damon. At some point, I've read that she'll prove her feelings, that's her turn to do it. Was it? Have I missed it???? After a difficult recovery from her ABSOLUTELY unnecessary choice in 322, somewhere after 410 I stopped hoping and started feeling sad for Damon... so sad. and a suffer each episode. TVD lost its magic.

I literally feel like pulling you out off my computer screen and hugging you. I feel the EXACT same way. 

Yup, I agree. We saw NOTHING from Elena. Her love declarations were empty in my opinion and actually some of them managed to piss me off like the one in 4x10 when she’s compelled and Rebekah asks her why she broke up with Stefan, Elena says it because STEFAN sees her as a broken toy NOT because she realized that she was in love with Damon. She would have never broken up with Stefan if he loved her the same way as a vampire.  aAnd repeatedly it’s stressed on the show that ELena’s choice is borne from her vampirism and darkness, it's not out of some consuming love that was eating her up. 

She has done NOTHING to show her feelings. I don’t see them and I don’t feel them. I mean her boyfriend was compelled and locked up in a dungeon but she never got up and looked for him. wtf? How does that make sense at all?

SAME. I am in constant Damon depression. I don’t enjoy anything. That guy is doomed. TVD definitely lost it’s magic. It’s really sad. 

[damonstan]

That's it, this episode was the last straw... I don't even want Elena with Damon anymore. It's sick and twisted and pointless. And Elena's arc? Bullshit. How does it help the plot line? Her evolution? How they're going to decide who's gonna bring her humanity out? And the most important question for us, who love Damon: does it worth... all the pain?...I miss first three seasons. Convince me that they don't rip Delena apart.

I am the absolutely wrong person to convince you, babe. I have a problem with Elena’s character after 3x14 and I am sure she’s never getting an arc. She has NEVER realized that she dragged Damon into her shit or gave him false hope or that he was hurt but she felt bad for Stefan AFTER A MUTUAL BREAK UP!

I honestly have a HUGE problem with Elena’s portrayal of love. I am still waiting to see it but now I am sick of waiting. I don’t understand at all how she chose Stefan out of fear in 3x22. When you love someone the fear of losing that loved one over rides the fear of everything else so for me her love isn’t consuming. I mean I hear it but I don’t see it translate and that’s not enough for me. If Damon was so consuming she should have fucked every single thing in her life at that moment cos NOTHING is more important that being with someone who you love, than saying goodbye to someone you love. 

Also, i HATE this humanity off shit. I see no arc or evolution either. It's just a way to make Elena rude and it doesn't float with me at all especially manipulating using sex. NOTHING about Delena is real right now. Not her smiles, not anything. It's a shit story by shit writers to create shitty angst to hurt the only good thing in the show; Damon. 

I mean it’s obvious Damon would bring her humanity back but it’s Damon each time, Damon proving his love, Damon fighting for the right thing, Damon Damon Damon. I honestly don’t think watching 6 seasons of Damon pain to see him happy for 5 minutes is worth it but I can’t fucking walk away. 

It’s obvious Delena is endgame but their journey is tarnished after s3 for me  and I have seen nothing from Elena apart from heard two words and never really seen them translate. I am NOT saying she doesn’t love Damon but the depth of her feelings certainly come into question. And right now NO ONE loves Damon.