Most days I try to spare you guys with my personal stuff, but today is not one of these days. I've had a shitty day, people I have to do a group project with are lazy as fuck, and I'm the only one actually trying to work (hard flashback to school).
So I decided I need to do what I do best: annoy people with my love for these three men.
Trigger warning: Panic attack following...
The picture is from Friday one week ago. And the show they put on was fantastic. And I was doing shitty as fuck thanks to the girl in front of me refusing to pull her hair into a tail, as i asked her to a couple of times (bc strong perfumed hair of a stranger in my face -> agoraphobia -> panic attack).
I was literally watching one of my favourite drummers, the guitarist an arm's reach away from me, and I just stood there, second row, having a panic attack.
And the drummer was sometimes looking over and I'm certain he picked up on something being wrong.
End of the story is that once more my trust in a friend has been shattered by them not sticking to their word (entirely different story), my faith in humans has once again been dimmed, and I might finally realise that I can't trust anyone to look after me the same way I look after them (only exception might be my pink haired friend, but you live too far away).
At least I got to talk to the boys later on, and the guitarist joked around with me a little. Also neither he nor the bassist got over my shirt (their band name in the Metallica font) which I got about two years back (it was official merch, and they said they really should have made more of these shirts).
Also I was asked to take some pics of them with other fans and Fabi was fooling around so his face was hidden and I, being me, just went like "fabi, behave" (while laughing) and he was super embarrassed, mostly bc everybody else laughed too (imagine this tiny person telling on of their idols to behave, I mean... and his brother probably was just like haha, there you got it) and I only later realised that it might have come across as rude 😭 I'm pretty certain tho he understood that I wasn't intending to be mean.
also I didn't get to talk to him, which is a shame bc he's super sweet, but if he really picked up on me being off during a part of the show, it might have been for the better that we didn't talk, before he thinks about asking what happened.
That was my first concert of their last tour. And it's also the first time I managed to get a a picture taken with them that I actually like.