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till tonight, do us part

#me #enchantinghoneypie #wedding lingerie vibes #i have at least 1 more photo set i’m gonna post #maybe 2 #i dunno #depends on y’all now #🤭🤭🤭

I keep saying I'll finish my Hellsing WIPs after finishing This Or That first, but it keeps dragging out & im tired of not drawing Hellsing

since Ive gotten my other art in sketch form I can sketch Hellsing too 🫶🩸

#as if he ever really goes anywhere lol hes always standing there #hellsing #alucard #sketch #traditional art #alucard hellsing #head shot #this isn't any of the WIPs #but i missed him all year #gdi i cant believe all these months have gone by #the Hellsing break was literally only supposed to be a WEEK #maybe 2 #my art schedule has done nothing i wanted it to #but my skill is a bit better than it used to be #working on D2 art really paid off #still #missing hellsing home

I think this was supposed to be a regret oc but they look like they belong In Alan Becker

#atlaz art #Regretevator oc #maybe #regretevator #alan becker #alan Becker oc #Maybe 2

finding summer clothes is so hard cause #gender dysphoria

#i have like one (1) pair of shorts that i actually like rn #maybe 2 #ndhfhdhchdhc #my post #misc #gender stuff #queer stuff

TY 4 100 FOLLOWERS

(LOWKEY IM AT SCHOOL RN SO ILL MAKE A BETTER POST WHEN I HAVE FREE TIME)

U ever just . Miss someone so bad that u are in physical pain

#i miss my frend sm i cried so hard i choked #i was really not social in high school and only have like. a small small group of friends #like count on one hand #maybe 2 #and fuck man this friend just like. busted into my life and refused to leave my awkward ass #we shared a seat on the bus and there was a bumble bee on the seat and i froze and they just started gushing abt bees and somehow someway #we became friends #but shes 4 hours away in college and we both have family plans for thanksgiving and wont see each other #its been months i miss her sm #i miss listening to them go on and on about any little thing that crossed her mind #and she Got me like i could just not talk and shed be like 'oh not much of a talking day?' and then when i shrugged she would just talk abt #fish or her dogs or the movie she saw or something one of her other friends did or her most recent crush and i could just Exist and Listen #personal

Thinking real hard today about how almost a year ago I went to Virginia to help my parents. I dropped off 3 perfectly healthy dogs for a week to watch over my parents house while they went on a cruise, and my grandfather had been sick so I was there for him as well.

Two days into that trip I found out he had cancer and his hospital stay was extended.

Two more days later, we find out its stage four and there's no good options to get rid of it, so we have to arrange hospice. My parents are at sea, thankfully my mom has service so I can keep her updated. I was just there to watch the house and care for my sick grandpa and now I'm dealing with hospital doctors and insurance and setting up hospice and in home care.

A day later I'm picking him up from the hospital to come home. He cant get out of bed so I'm doing everything for him while still working my full time job (thankfully from home, but still).

Two more days later, my friends who run the kennel call me and tell me I need to make an emergency appointment for Luna ASAP because she's not walking.

I get the appointment for the next morning, they're going to take her to it. My parents are getting home today and can help me. Ive been wiping my grandfather and putting diapers on him and feeding him. Spending time with him. We watched his last F1 race ever together.

My parents get home and I extend my trip another week bc my mom cant physically do what im doing with my grandpa (picking him up, rolling him over, wiping him, ect). The next day rolls around and my friends call me from the vet. The vet tells me luna has bone cancer, kidney failure, and some sort of hip/bone disease that would need a 7k surgery to MAYBE have her walk again but she'd probably not be able to potty.

I'm ready to go ahead with the surgery but the vet says honestly she's not sure its best. They probably won't do surgery in kidney failure, and treating kidney failure makes the other two issues worse. Treating the cancer makes the kidney failure worse.

She was circling the drain of telling me I had to make the kind but hard choice for Luna. So I did. From 500 miles away, unable to be with her, while my grandfather was laying dying in a bed next to me. What was i supposed to do?

My grandfather died the next morning. I extended my trip another week because we had the funeral in Virginia and I wanted to help my parents. My mom is guilty because she was on a cruise while he was dying (but she had no idea), im guilty because I couldn't be with my baby when she was put down (I did get to FaceTime her thanks to my friends and they handled everything for me, bless them).

And its been nearly a year and that guilt still crushes me. There was nothing I could do. She wasn't walking or eating suddenly. She hurt. It would've been cruel to make her wait until I was back home.

About a week later I returned to South Carolina and picked Luna's box up from the vet. Then I returned to the kennel and picked up two dogs instead of three, and sat in my house alone grieving my poor pup, my grandfather, and my grandmother who was my best friend and had died only a year prior to him passing.

I look back and i have no idea how I made it through all that. Stu wasn't living in America yet. We didn't get married until December 6th. I still had months of being alone to deal with.

I dunno just thinking about it hard today. It hurts.

#if u read all that im giving you one of my cookies #maybe 2 #just needed to vent a little

sometimes I have to remember that my ex cheated on me with bots and go about my day

#not the ai chatbots either #like an actual bot on a website #this was before like character ai came about #like a year before I think?#maybe 2 #but anyways yeah that’s a wild story time