#maybe depression

[kimquatz]

jinyan ? miaoshen ?

either way. Look at him.

[the-scarecrowlover]

If anyone has any insight, please let me know:

So when I can, I spend most of my free time in bed. Lately I've had more free time and I've wanted to use it to dedicate myself to some of my old hobbies like drawing and writing and working out, but I can't get myself to get out of bed. So warm and cozy and safe.

Sometimes I can get motivated to get out of bed to hang out with friends, and if I'm already up because I need to go to work I can usually get more done. The busier I am the busier I become. But once in bed and don't HAVE to get up, I stay there.

The more I stay in bed the more tired I get. Sometimes I nap and I get even more tired. Including sleep, on days that I work I spend at least 14 hours in bed. When I'm not working I can spend up to 21 hours in bed, only getting up for basic maintenance.

Even now, I could get up and go on a walk, but I don't feel like it. I rather stay in bed and watch YouTube videos or browse social media or nap or daydream.

Is this depression? Is it chronic fatigue? Why am I like this?

[wrongwiredmind]

Quick, rather urgent question,

How do I stop deadly intrusive thoughts from invading my mind?

I don't usually care about their existence but they're wasting precious time at the moment, so I need them to take a break for, like a week or so?

And while you're at it, does anyone know how could I increase my focus? Cause it's seriously out of whack, I didn't even open tumblr for maybe a month in the useless hope of it being a reason of my "distraction" but I can guarantee it isn't, so...

Anyone got an advice?

[afundieforyourthoughts]

I've recently started suspecting that I may have ADHD, and not only does no one in my immediate circle believe that or me, but the more I read the more I get a vocabulary to describe the things I've felt all my life ... and I feel like a fraud for using them because I don't have a diagnosis. It also makes it painfully clear that people in my life don't understand how things impact me - something I previously just put on the "we're different human beings"-account, but now realize might be the possible ADHD.

I don't know, I've really only told my best friends and my mom about these suspicions and while my mom agreed that "life certainly does seem tougher for you" she did not think it's ADHD and my friends tried supporting the idea of looking it up but its also clear they have no idea of being supportive of me being in this situation.

I'm sorry for the wall of text and whining but sometimes it really helps me to just write it out and I have nowhere else where I'm anonymous.

[sapphireclawe]

Update

So I am at the clinic now (thanks Canada), and I got told yes. I have potential for ADHD. But I also have a chance of depression and anxiety so... That kinda sounds like the dark shit I do in my own time is a bit of a red flag.

In other words, go try to get a diagnosis!

(Getting referred to a psychiatrist in a little bit in order to get the diagnosis.)

[dateademisexualpersonwho]

Date a demisexual person who always tries to get up early but can’t.

[uss-clairvoyant]

Do you ever guilt trip yourself into not talking to your friends about what you’re struggling with for reasons such as “I’ve already complained to them too much recently”, “they don’t want my negative talk in their life”, “they’re too busy for me”, etc?

[suryp]

conciously i understand that my frins dont have any discord notes BUT i still feel bad that in my hour of need i actually go unseen and unnoticed.