ISFP
For dominant Fi, I love analyzing a situation and thinking about my opinion on the matter. My shower thoughts are on politics 90% of the time. I am not a very stubborn person over most things, but the moment someone tries to convince me to do something that violates one of my morals, I absolutely refuse and I never EVER bend to peer pressure, even though I seem like a pushover on the surface. I am a terrible liar because I feel like I am betraying myself. Unhealthy part of this function: I am absolutely mortified of confrontation of any kind. I do not speak up even if someone is bothering me a lot. This has even prevented me from being romantically involved with anyone because I am terrified of confronting someone and admitting to having any sort of feelings besides simple happiness. When two people are arguing and I'm not even involved, but I am stuck in the same room as them, I hide my face and I am seriously kind of paralyzed until the tension subsides.
For auxiliary Se, I am in tune with the environment around me. I do daydream a lot, but unlike the intuitive functions, I am not thinking about much, just observing the scene around me. Tertiary Ni may sometimes provide me with interesting scenarios and whatnot, but if I try to focus on one particular thing I get distracted and next thing I know I'm just staring at the pretty line of trees outside my window again. Se makes me a big fan of aesthetics as well. As many people claim of ISFPs, I tend to see the world through a filter that makes everything prettier and more pleasing to the eyes than it is seen by myself st everyone else. Unhealthy part of this function: My Se is actually pretty healthy, so I can't say much about this, but I get easily distracted by pretty sights and sounds when I need to be focusing on the task at hand. Also, prone to eating only junk food because I want a good taste experience every time I eat. Also, Se is very in the moment, and that causes me to procrastinate in every situation ever. I just can't see the need to do something if the deadline is not looming directly over me.
For tertiary Ni, I see the symbolic deep-meaning behind things, even if there was no intended deep-meaning there. You could say it's the English-teacher function. (The curtains the author described are blue. Blue represents sadness and depression. The narrator was obviously feeling down) Actually, this function may be tuned in that way because of my mother being and English teacher/librarian! Unhealthy part of this function: It makes me prone to being anxious. Of course, it's not to the point of being a disorder, but I tend to worry about things and it will eat me up inside until I let Te take charge(which rarely happens). If something is worrying me, I will take every little thing as a sign that the worst possible scenario is going to happen. (What if I came home one day and one of my dogs was dead? *looks at leaf on the ground* omg if I twist my head the way and squint it kinda looks like a skull! ITS A SIGN MY DOG IS DEAD AND I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE TO HER BAYLEE IM SORRY) yeah, this is not a fun thing to experience.
Inferior Te: Most of my problems with my other functions can be chalked up to a lack of using Te. I admit it, I rarely use this function even if it is much needed. However, when I finally admit defeat to whatever problems my other functions are causing, Te comes to save the day. When I am so angry but Fi has been keeping me from speaking up because of my fear of conflict, sometimes I just give in and Te comes out to bluntly point out everything that person has done wrong and rant for ten billion years. Fortunately, I'm glad this function is what I use when I am pushed past the breaking point, because I point out facts and I use logic, so I don't often say things that are attacking the other person unnecessarily. When Ni fails me by putting me on edge and making me super worried over the smallest thing, Te will step in and just say "you know, Googling something can sometimes be a good option" or "just go home if this is worrying you so much. You'll walk in the door and both of your dog's will be there, totally not dead and ready for you to give them belly rubs."
Qualities in others that really rub me the wrong way are 90% of the time involved with the Te/Ti functions, which is probably why I hardly use my Te. I really don't like it when people are unnecessarily blunt with others. Sugarcoating small things is just common courtesy. If the situation is severe enough, that's when you use brutal honesty. When people argue just for the sake of arguing, I get extremely annoyed. Those kind of people just always have to have the last word and it drives me crazy. So typically speaking, ENTPs and ENTJs clash with me the most. On the flip side of this, I admire people that can lift everyone's spirits, and are very charismatic. I really wish just could be like you smooth-talkers! In general, I'm drawn to ESFPs and ENFJs.
When becoming friends with someone, I start off pretty reserved and quiet. Once we are officially friends, the quiet part of me is gone and you now see the 100% no-chill screaming and making awful jokes side of me. However, it is very rare that you become close enough to me that I actually open up to you beyond just the happy and funny stuff. If I tell you about what I'm actually feeling right at that moment, and it's not something entirely pleasant, you better feel special because you have achieved maximum friendship points from me. When having romantic feelings for someone, it is very difficult to tell on the outside. You must be extremely perceptive in order to pick up on my tiniest change in behavior around said person. I could have a crush on someone for months and when I finally tell someone about it, they usually tell me that they had no idea that it was happening. Fi makes me terrified of confrontation, as stated earlier, so almost every time I develop feelings for someone, I tell nobody for fear of the truth spreading to the one I have feelings for.
