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[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

do you think the emergency responder thought twice about cutting open my sick customised punk tank top to go about medical examination of my overdosed body or do you think it wasnt until they saw the hammer and sickle on the underside, revealed to them when i was moved? maybe i am romanticising being loved by people whos name i never got and who i never gave my name to.

[sunhazeys]

:)

[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

i should have just split the dose in half smh

[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

you really gotta do SOMETHING other than biting your nails, pulling out hair or cutting your arms or taking sleeping pills like, literally do anything else, crying and breathing exercises when the panic catches up with you isnt enough; you gotta do something otherwise you wont feel hunger, like a stalled car in the mud that needs a tow.

[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

lets see what 3*60mg DHC does to me :)

[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

banged a bunch of morphine and then snorted a couple dex+rit last night, struggling to sleep. took sedatives, the place noisey from traffic so may need headphones on and extra sedation

[unshadowbannedbaeddel]

why r most my friends so close to death, most them should be on suicide watch but we cant have that coz the control would make life even less worth living yaknow? theyre out here thugging it out with bipolar schizophrenia and severe trauma disorders. who else is here for us other than us and the tourists who stop by in our lives only to jet when its not novel anymore and then go off and tell everyone that the crazy people they dipped their toes in are evil. fuck this ableist saneist world is rat shit af