#me moping

[batsyforyou]

You know the thing that kills me the most inside is when you ask someone close to you, to do the one thing you asked of them and they can’t even do that one tiny thing. Dissipate the fact you upheld your end of the bargain. At this point it’s better to except disappointment so I ain’t hurt when it happens. Again.

[cherrylomain]

I think one that makes Boruto painful to watch is seeing everyone act so formal all the time, I know theyre professional adults but it suuucks 

[justonebigloser]

im fucking desperate to go see king princess in dublin but i have no idea who would actually go with me :’(

[sandrinachi]

In a little less than two weeks I’ll take the train towards my parents’ place! I’m so excited. But before that I have to do lots of things. Like go to uni, work and do household things. 

I feel very stressed by this actually. It feels like I have to hold my breath for 5 days until the weekend and then repeat the process. I stress-eat a lot. No need to comment. I’m weak and I know it. Apparently I like to waste things, be it food or money. Yes, I bought loads of christmas presents. Also a lot of manga. And food which costs money who would’ve guessed, right? 

I still have to apply for internships in April. I need to write those goddamn e-mails! 

This post doesn’t make sense... oh well

BUT: Even though this sounds all bad, I feel mostly ok. I try to squeeze some spare time into the daily grind but it’s not as easy as I want it to be.  

[weshouldfondue]

I don't really have a best friend anymore and it makes me kinda sad ;w;

like everyone who I considered my best friend moved on, and everyone else already has their own best friend and im just kinda sitting here like

'hi guys *heavy breathing*'

[castielcampbell]

i am so ticked off at myself right now.

I have like 5 bucks left on my debit card, which is fine, except for halfway home i remembered I need at least 20 dollars to pay for my FF14 each month.

And this makes me so mad. 

Yeah, it's not the end of the world, but dagumit, I like playing it. It's where my friends from Australia and England and Germany play together, y'know.

FRACK! Why can't I be one of those lucky sumbitches that finds money just laying around on the sidewalk or something?? 

UGH!!

AND I FORGOT THE CONSTRUCTION PAPER!! dammit!!!

just ignore me. i'ma go mope now... and think of anything I could possibly return. I mean, I have my imagine dragons cd adn receipt, and a couple of those clear ornaments... ugh.... but that's lile 14 bucks... and I REALLY WANTED THAT CD... IT WAS SO HARD TO FIND!!! 

and then theres FOOD ... gah

just ignore me, i'm moping again :/

[chaosnil]

In retrospect, I feel a bit used.

I'd like to start this by saying that I'm not mad, or that I don't understand, I just feel hurt by it all.

I realize that I've lost quite a few friends in the past year, and mostly because of things that were, from my perspective, not even an issue. I was sad to lose one friend, but when I saw that losing one friends meant losing most, if not all of them, it was agonizing. I had a hard enough time making friends in the first place, seeing as this group of 5 people were the first "real friends" I had ever felt I had made. (Not to say I hadn't made individual friends, just that making any more than one friend at a time is quite an achievement for me) 

Now I find myself sitting at home on a Friday night wanting to just get out, and go do something. Go on an adventure. Just have someone here to talk to. 

And I can't.

[siriuscybernetics]

I just had to deal with basically my entire family (parents, sister, grandparents, uncles, aunts, five cousins all under ten, most under five) for an entire day on literally no sleep and I just can't any more. I kept hiding away and just crying for five-ten minutes throughout the day and I've been getting closer and closer to a full-blown panic attack, like I can kind of feel it and I'm on the edge of it and I'm scared. I don't want to think about school and responsibilities and have to socialise and look happy and listen to the absolute shit that was basically the childish conversation I had to put up with most of the day because for some reason being 17 doesn't stop me from being one of the kids. 

I know I sound fucking whiny but sdgkhdsfgkjsdfghdslgkjsf