#medinative

[hopewithoutfairytales]

You are always on my mind

Filling it with sunshine,

And sometimes clouds

But that's okay,

Overall I like cloud watching

[hopewithoutfairytales]

I can't shake the feeling

Of you being close to me again

I know it is nearly impossible

I know I should be delighted with joy

I'm so sorry, that I'm not

I promise

I will love you when you're older.

[hopewithoutfairytales]

I can't seem to find the space to tell you

You make me nervous

And I'd love for you to go away

But you're staying where you are and keep touching my back

I don't want you here

We both know it

I have told you so before

Yet now that I have lost my voice

Unsure wether you stole it or not

You seem to have found the forbidden key to the door you've always wanted - but were not allowed to enter.

And even though your stay was not long, you carved your name into the walls and now there will always be a trace of you.

It honestly was a shit thing to do.

Who the fuck do you think you are?

[hopewithoutfairytales]

lets put a price on my emotion

you will buy me for a dollar and toss me away ,

After just a single use of play

While it’s no secret,

for you have called me your toy, every day

told myself I was more but just didn’t dare to say

used up all my coins and the screen shows me nothing but grey 

you are not, and won’t be there on the other line

you will not remember and I will always seem to yearn

For the traces, left deep beneath my skin

And from your love,  I have learned nothing but to sin. 

[hopewithoutfairytales]

you are the cause of all that I write, of all that I create.

and yet here is another one,

just because my mind swayed your way. 

Hello there,

what a wonderful thing you are.

[hopewithoutfairytales]

Life's a tricky game

I plan to play it well

Finding peace in all this chaos

Is that where most people dwell?

Some might call me lover

Others a sinner

But above all,

I am a winner.

And never will they trick me

With their troubled looking eyes

For all that they sell

Is nothing but a lie

Even when they shout and yell my name

Never will I surrender

As my soul will remain.

Loving and tender.

~

[hopewithoutfairytales]

they told me life is about the simple things

And I knew it was true when you smiled at the flower between the bricks of the sidewalk.

Though no one encouraged nor sponsored it to grow there.

There it was in it's full glory

Smiling back at you.

[hopewithoutfairytales]

I love hot tea in december,

Adore swimming in september,

But I love you so much more. ♥️