asked myself what I want in my life.... first of all, I want to master the musical instruments I'm interested in. Then, read a lot of good books, have fun, be stable, and surprise surprise, a family. Kahit 2 lang kami. Siya at ako.. then eventually... bahala na. That's what I want. Happy with myself, stable life, with someone to love. Make her happy. The works. But this someone is not just someone you pick up on a cheery day or a lonely night and say "baby, lets hang, for the rest of our lives." the someone is, should be very special, treasured, taken care of, the ideal thing. And when you finally thought you've found the one they go...so so cliche...I KNOW its gonna be hard to replace that special dear..I KNOW EXACTLY how it feels. I hope I can deal with my feelings better this time. LOVE hasn't changed. I know SHE KNOWS how much I LOVE HER. And I guess what's really inside my heart is HER. MY LITTLE PUMPKIN DEAR..That's real happiness for me. Such a shmuck for not showing it to her when she needed it.
But sometimes its not up to us... We can't control everything in our lives talaga..Because its not just about what we want, its about what they want too, and what their lives are leading them to be....So... *sigh* I so miss you. I hope I can talk to you soon. GODBLESS sa life..sa board exam.. Take care of yourself, the way I did to you (when I'm not in my bipolar mode)
