Synopsis: Meizuo isn't ready to tell other about his love life.
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“Meizuo, aren’t you tired?” I asked, my eyes brimming with tears.
“Tired of what…?” His voice was shaking, and that only made it harder for me to hold mine back.
“Tired of hiding yourself. Tired of hiding me. Tired of hiding us.” I took his hands in mine. They were warm - a huge contrast to how cold the atmosphere felt right now.
“I get it. You’ve got high expectations from your family, and you can’t tarnish the F4 reputation. But is this really how you want to live for the rest of your life?” I squeezed his hands gently.
“It’s not like that-”
Before he could say anything else, I cut him off, my voice weary. “If it’s not like that, then what are you afraid of? I get it, coming out is always scary. But you know what? You should be more scared of hiding yourself your whole life and waking up one day, realizing it was all built on a lie. You can’t keep this up forever.”
“You don’t understand. Everything is so codified in my world. I can’t just come out and expect everyone to be okay with it.”
I let out a bitter chuckle. “You know, being homophobic isn’t just for the rich, and being gay isn’t just for the poor. Some people didn’t accept me when I came out, and so what? It’s not like they can change anything about who I am. You always have good excuses. And if you’re not tired, I am.” I looked him straight in the eyes.
“I’m tired of going to your house as your ‘best friend,’ even though best friends don’t kiss. I’m tired of people seeing us as brothers, because brothers don’t sleep together. And I’m tired of lying to my parents when I know they would love you even more if I told them you’re my boyfriend.”
I tilted my head slightly.
“I’m just tired of lying every single day to everyone, all because you’re scared of something that might not even happen.” My tears began sliding down my cheeks, and through my blurring vision, I could see his own starting to fall.
“If you’re so tired, why are you still with me?” he asked softly.
“Because I love you. Because my brain doesn’t seem to understand how bad you are for my heart. Because the thought of you dealing with all this alone is unbearable. So please,” I whispered, “stop hiding behind that ridiculous straight façade. It doesn’t suit you at all.”
He pulled me into a hug, his body warm against mine. I felt his tears soak into my coat, his shoulders trembling in my arms.
“I’ll try,” he murmured, “but you have to promise me you’ll stay by my side the whole way.”
“I will.”
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I've seen no ff abt F4 like wth pls ? Also being able to make anyone I want gay makes me really happy.
