#meltytext

[koishikomeijiofficial]

happy birthday superball

[reactorcoreart]

that .flow picture i did a while ago keeps getting reposted

yall please........ please contact me first before you use my art

in the past i was ok with it as long as there was credit but that stopped happening so i don’t want people reposting my art at all without my permission. i’m already having to do takedowns on pinterest because people are pinning it from sources that aren’t me and don’t credit me. someone used my art for their .flow playlist on 8tracks.

please come ask me first before using my art.

i really don’t think i’m asking too much here.

[razrrgames]

hey, really sorry for the silence lately! my computer is actually almost at storage capacity. that’s what happens when ya dont update ur pc for 8 years i guess

im in the process of building a new computer, but until it’s finished i can’t really do too much.

that aside, after the bell is almost a year old! can you believe it? my girls have been Public Gays for almost a year now. im so proud of them

[koishikomeijiofficial]

honestly i have so much hatred for the mental health side of this website, specifically the “constant suicide jokes and how dare you say im soft and valid and therapists are trash bc i didnt get better overnight” part

like ppl are just so determined to shit on everyone else who isn’t fucking miserable every second of the day. calling people who try to post legitimate self care tips “neurotypical karen”. and being angry that you go to a therapist and your problems are still there when you leave

you have to work toward your own recovery, a therapist cant snap their fingers and magically wipe all your problems and illnesses away. its not going to happen overnight. you have to make an effort. if you dont, nothing will get done. other people can’t do everything for you

and it fucking baffles me how ppl are just so determined to stay miserable their entire lives like... someone gives you a tip thats just. get out of bed and wash your hands. and yall throw a goddamn tantrum. like i dont even know how to word this people are just so violently anti-recovery and it pisses me off

if you want to wallow in your own fucking misery and be too lazy and stubborn to even try to help yourself, fine. be my guest. i dont fucking care. but dont try to drag other people down into the hole you dug for yourself. i spent so long hating myself and my appearance and feeling like i didnt deserve to be alive and ive clawed my way to the mental stability i have now and i will be fucking DAMNED if i let a bunch of incompetent assholes try to drag me back down to where i was before. fuck yall

[koishikomeijiofficial]

like. ten years ago i cried myself to sleep and i wanted to die and i didnt think i deserved to be alive or have friends and id smell awful bc i hated myself too much to take a goddamn shower

last night i took a bath w my first bath melt and i drew some stuff and listened to TAZ and i painted my nails last night to help myself feel better and i wouldnt have done that ten years ago. ive come a very long way from how i used to be

and ill be damned if i let the lazy morons on this hellsite try to drag me back down to being suicidal every night. yall can go be miserable if you fucking want. im going to be here, after all the hard work i did, typing away about how yall are assholes with my sparkly-ass nails and ur not gonna reverse all the progress ive made

[koishikomeijiofficial]

no but like do u realize how big it is that an rpg maker game is getting an official anime

ib got official merchandise

the witch’s house got a prequel novel

forest of drizzling rain got a manga

yume nikki got more official merchandise and a manga and a light novel

angels of death got a manga, an official steam translation and now it’s getting its own anime

thats exciting to me

esp since lately rpg maker has been looked down upon as an engine, and a lot of people will simply dismiss good rpg maker games simply because they’re rpg maker

like.......... a game made with an engine that gets dismissed because its rpgmaker getting an official televised anime

thats huge

and really inspiring

[koishikomeijiofficial]

im glad the gays took over food network so its no longer white suburban mom culture. food network is gay culture now

[koishikomeijiofficial]

trying real hard to make my nerd ass sound like a great employee on my resume

at least i can put that i managed money and transactions by myself by vending at conventions, which should give me some much-needed good points about myself