#meme filling

[mappapapa]

I forgot to share this one here. Template by smmt_turb.

Two people I care for got cancer on 2025. I joined a drawing club, which kept me somewhat active, but the truth is I didn't really want to draw at all. I'm still struggling with that.

I wanted to quit art. It's ironic I guess, because art can be a form of escapism from the struggles of life, or a way to redirect the things in your head into a creative shape. But all I had was this absolute, irrefutable knowledge floating in my head, that I had nothing worth sharing with the world, including with myself. This health ordeal was too much for me, and once the "worst" had passed, I couldn't keep the facade. November and December I barely lifted a pen.

But I'm still drawing lol. Thanks to the people who connect with me, share their heart with me through conversations and their own art. For now I'll still draw as long as I have someone like that.

I wanted to give the horizontal template a go but I don't think I like the result... It does show off some of these drawings better.

[mappapapa]

Tagged by my @tsukiyamers

Rules: List 5 of your favorite films in a poll and have people vote on which is their favorite.

my current favs question mark?

Char's Counterattack (1988)

Fire Walk With Me (1992)

Chinjeolhan Geumjassi (2005)

The Lighthouse (2019)

GeGeGe no Nazo (2023)

Voting ended onAug 10, 2025

Attempted to show some recency bias but I have not been hitting the movie theaters lately oTL what do you mean genazo is two years old already... what do you mean the lighthouse is SIX years old already...

Tagging uhhh my @tempural and 🫵 the girl (gender neutral) reading this.

[mappapapa]

Back with this meme! (templates here) This time, the user has made all versions of their chart year-less, so that you can add your own date. It's a little sad to me that they won't be making edits for every year any more just because I found that bit of yearly engagement nice, but it's more convenient this way.

Featured more dunmeshi than I expected! (And not enough mobrei... I'm sorry my OTP). A lot of stuff I put here I drew with the intent of making merch, but it feels good, it was all drawn with love and genuine interest. I'm always afraid of falling into the cycle of chasing trends, afraid of only being able to focus on drawing to make stuff to sell. I don't have the physical strength to do that sort of stuff and it stinks of a path straight to depression for me personally. At least with the goods I made this year, it felt more like drawing for a different sort of canvas. Hope that refreshing feeling continues.

[mappapapa]

Meme by Twitter user ssmt_turb (find this and other templates here)

I don't know why but this year feels so much more yaoi than other years, even though 90% of the things I've drawn for the past few years has been m/m art. Is it because I made art and merch for rare ships from an obscure early 00s OVA? Or maybe because I'm smitten with a canon couple for a change and I'm still drawing art of them months after I finished the BL VN they're from?

[mappapapa]

Plucked this meme from Twitter user 0crno (here's the template).

Filling these end-of-the-year memes always sends me on a violent journey through my full emotional spectrum but I think now that the dust has settled I'm happy with the things I made this year.