i. i met you when we were both young
my parents drove all the way to iowa for you;
for someone i’d call my friend for the rest of my life-
or at least that’s what i thought.
i was naive but it was blissful,
i thought you were the greatest thing in the world
ii. before the bad, there was the good-
one halloween, you ate an entire bag of chocolate.
you were so lucky you didn’t die on the spot.
over the years you’d steal all kinds of human food from us.
you’d steal from the counter when we weren’t looking
you’d eat the cat food despite having your own bowl of your own dog food
you would beg with those sad brown eyes for our pizza crust,
you’d wait at our feet for one of us to “accidentally” drop food we didn’t like.
when you got impatient, you’d dance-
we’d never known a dog to dance when they begged,
but we’d never had a dog as silly as you.
iii. i wasn’t always the best friend to you.
there were days where i barely said hi to you when i got home
days where i should’ve played with you and instead i played on the tv
[those days will always be my biggest regret in life]
you were always my best friend;
you were loud and playful
and liked to bark at everyone you saw.
those nights in my backyard
chasing fireflies and kissing frogs
and the summer days where you got out
or ate bees even though you knew as well as i did that it never ended well
[i miss those days more than i miss anything else i’ve ever lost]
iv. the day after my birthday we said goodbye.
[i guess you’d really been saying goodbye for a while.]
in your own way, you’d already known.
[animals are like that; they know when their time is up.]
you’d been sleeping upstairs for a change
you didn’t bark at strangers
you couldn’t jump anymore.
that last one is when we really started understanding,
but it wasn’t until that day in july when i had to face it.
after my birthday, we said goodbye.
they said you’d been sick for a while
that there was nothing they could do
and leaving us little choice
but to end it before it ended you.
your last moments weren’t with your people like they should’ve been
instead you were in a cold white room
with a woman you didn’t know.
and i’ll never forget how small you looked
lying on a towel on the white floor.
[how sad it is to leave a friend behind.]