free - s.m
Summary- You and Shawn had been friends since you were both very little, and you both started developing feelings for each other but never told the other. You were going off to college and didn’t want to leave Shawn behind.
Word Count- 1353
A/N- This is my very first imagine/story. So please, bare with me. I promise I’ll keep trying to improve and work on my skills, and I also hope you enjoy!!
You had woken up at 6am, the usual. You practically rolled out of bed and crawled to your bathroom. Today was your last day of high school. There was the sinking feeling again. You’d felt it all week, and especially last night.
School didn’t particularly bother you. Yeah, it was stressful, but not torture. You’d gotten ready for the day, at least trying to look decent.
You arrived at school, seeing all of the “Farewell Seniors” posters up on the walls. You felt your stomach turn. There were so many feelings and thought running through your mind that you almost felt sick to your stomach.
About halfway into the school day, everything seemed normal and like any other day, but your stomach still felt queasy.
Before you knew it, your were done with highschool forever. You knew you only had a couple months until you’d leave for college, and you wanted to make the best of them. But there was one thing you couldn’t get over. Leaving Shawn.
Shawn had been in your life for the past 18 years, and you’ve never actually experienced anything remotely close to this before. You’ve never had a serious enough relationship/friendship with someone to feel this way about leaving.
About a month later, Shawn arrives home from his tour. Shawn had already been so successful and caught up in his music career that you doubted he remembered about you no longer being in high school.
“Hey Shawn.” You greet him at the door, hugging him like you always do when greeting.
“Hey y/n.” Shawn responds, hugging you back, his scent washing over you.
“How’s it feel to be out of highschool?” Shawn smirked slightly.
“It hasn’t actually hit me yet, believe it or not.” You smirk back, looking up at the towering giant that was your best friend.
“I missed you so much.” Shawn says, hugging you again.
“I missed you too.” You say, breathing in Shawn's scent once again.
The night before you had to leave for college, you were still packing some small things, like underwear and toiletries. You had looked over to your desk, seeing the one special framed photo of you and Shawn. You had to see Shawn before tomorrow. You had to see him now.
You ring Shawn, knowing he’ll still be up.
“Hello?” Shawn answers, sounding tired.
“Did I wake you?” You ask, sounding concerned.
“I’ve been asleep for 5 minutes. I’m fine. What can I do for you?” Shawn asks, probably smirking.
“I need you to come over.” You say.
“Okay. I’ll be there in 5.” Shawn says.
“Okay, thank you so much Shawn.” You say.
“No problem. Bye.” He hangs up.
You continue to gather all of your pictures from your bedroom walls, and some special ones that you had kept in the drawers.
You hear talking downstairs.
“Yeah, she asked me to come over. Probably is just worried for tomorrow.” Shawn says to your parents.
You look at your clock. 2am.
‘How are they still up?’ You think to yourself.
You had gathered most of your things until a suitcase and carry-on bag. You put the bag in the corner of your bedroom ,only to hear your door open.
“Hey Shawn.” You said, walking over to where we stood, wrapping your arms around his middle, holding on for dear life.
“Hey.” He responds, rubbing your back.
“Are you nervous?” He asks, looking down at you.
You just nod, unable to speak, afraid you might burst into tears. A single tear rolls down your cheek. You quickly wipe it away before Shawn could notice, or so you thought.
Shawn picks you up, which he’s never done before, but you don’t protest. This was really what you needed.
Shawn slides down the wall, sitting with you in his lap. Shawn rubs your back, hugging you every once in a while. You had started crying, thinking of everything that has happened between you and Shawn.
The memories. Every possible thing that has happened with you and Shawn, everything you can remember is going through your head.
You think of many reasons why you shouldn’t go, but you know Shawn wouldn’t want to get in the way of you going to college and fulfilling your dreams.
“Shawn?” You sniffle.
“Hmm?” He says.
“I’m gonna miss you so much.” You says, another stream of tears rolling down your face.
“I’m gonna miss you too hun. But, get this. In a few months, when you get back for Christmas, I’ll be right here waiting for you. No ifs, and, or buts about it.” Shawn says, looking at you smiling.
You look at him, smiling.
You put your hand on Shawn's cheek, wondering if he felt the same. He puts his hand on your waist. You leaned in to kiss him.
Everything seemed to slow down, feeling like it was just you and Shawn. Your lips move together in sync.
The next morning, you find yourself in bed, your eyes puffy from last night.
You were curious to where Shawn had gone, hoping he didn’t leave.
You were still kind of tired, seeing as you only got about 2 hours of sleep. You roll over, seeing that the other pillow on your bed was gone. You then notice that the blanket that was always on the end of your bed was also gone.
You look on the floor, seeing Shawn sleeping.
He looks so precious that you didn’t want to wake up.
“Shawn!” You whisper-shout. Nothing.
“Shawn!” You gently throw your pillow at him.
He jolts awake, smiling up at you.
“Today's the day.” You say, sighing.
“Yup.” He says, his voice a few octaves deeper.
“Could you sing for me, just one last time before I leave?” You asks.
“Of course hun.” Shawn says, getting up.
Shawn sang you your favorite song of his ‘Life Of The Party’ his first ever released song.
The second Shawn finished singing, your mom had popped her head in the door.
You smile at her,
“Hey mom.” You says, smiling.
“Hey hunny.” Your mom says.
“We ready to go?” Your dad asks, popping his head in the door. Everyone nods.
You grab your suitcase, Shawn grabbing your carry on. You get a few last minute things, like toothbrush, phone, phone charger and earbuds.
On the way to the airport, which was 2 hours that you fully enjoyed, sitting next to Shawn,and napping on his shoulder.
You arrive about an hour earlier than expected. You all sit together, waiting until 8:30.
You keep checking your phone, wondering how time can go so fast. You had been holding Shawn's hand since you left your house, and you didn’t want to let go.
It was 8:15, and you were getting jittery. You didn’t want to leave your family, hometown, Shawn or your world back home. You had such a good life, and you weren’t ready to leave home.
Shawn checks his watch, 8:29 it read.
“Hey.” Shawn speaks softly, looking at you. You weren’t ready to leave, but you had to.
“Come here.” Shawn says, standing up, hugging him tighter than ever before. You hug your dad, then mom. Hugging Shawn one more time, walking away, fighting the urge to look back. You couldn’t help it. You turned, running back to Shawn, kissing him one more time before leaving.
“I love you so much.” You said, hugging him one more time, walking off before he said anything.
And with that, you were free of the battle that was highschool, and also free of a very special person in your life. One you were happy about, the other tore you apart.
