15.10.17
Lonely
Soak myself in it
Deep in this unless blackhole
We are all the same
//I note down things I desire
Though Im too far of being native
Scare
Feeling surrounding me always
Escape
Seems impossible
Am I reaching out for sth non-existing?
Dunk a cookie un glass of milk
Is my life the same?
Where all those beautiful thoughts came from?
How they wrap them in genius words
And sing them easily and gently
“you were shady. Now you are a shadow.
I give you ride or die, you gave me game
He loves his friends like I love my split ends.
Ocean eyes”
I read those inspiring words in Instagram every day. But does not help
I’m still me, swimming in the thought of being untalented, stupid and useless.
I’ve been struggling to start writing this.
I wanna be a songwriter. I cry. Don’t know where to start
Cannot express myself in words.
Guess I just try, by putting down these silly thoughts.
Watching all my friends succeed
I’m here useless and unwanted
Get stuck in dark shadow
Never be a solution
But cant help it.
Munch on my sorrow
Swallow tears
Tastes the bitterness
2 months ago I bought a small note named “Simply Brilliant Stuff”, to remember all god things happened daily to me.
Still untouched.