Synopsis: Gwaine has no shortage of callers. How could you compete?
Today was the day. You were finally going to do it. You were going to tell him. You and Gwaine were already close, but you had been hiding your feelings for so long. It was getting exhausting, and you honestly couldn't take the secrets anymore. You were going to do it, but you still needed a confidence boost.
Which is where your best friend came in. When you arrived at her cottage, she was admiring herself in front of her mirror. You noted she was wearing one of her nicer gowns, and a flower crown was perched on top of her head.
"Wow!" You exclaimed. "What's the occasion?" You asked. She spun around.
"Y/N! You think it looks nice?"
"Of course it does, why are you all dressed up?" You asked again.
"I'm going to make my move today." She proclaimed. "I'm going to tell my crush I like him!" She suddenly looked nervous. "I hope he accepts it."
"Dressed like that? Of course he will!" You assured her. "Who is it? I don't think you've told me about any boys you fancy."
"He's a knight," She said, fiddling with her skirts. You were a handmaid for Queen Guinevere, so you probably knew him. You told your friend as such. "Maybe you do! He's a member of the Round Table. His name is Gwaine.”
"Oh!" You said cheerily, plastering a fake smile on your face. "No, I don't think I recognize that name," You lied. The bell tower chimed.
"Is that the time?! I better get going. Wish me luck!" She breezed by you and out the door.
"Good luck." You whispered to the empty room. You quietly left your friend's house, blowing out the candle and locking the door, knowing she had a habit of being forgetful. As you slowly made your way back to the castle you continued to think about what you had been planning. You scoffed to yourself. You may be a little biased, but your friend was gorgeous. And you were... you. If you had told your friend about what you wanted to do, you know she would've been gracious and stepped aside. Which wasn't fair to her. And after all, she had a better chance than you did. Why would you bother sharing your feelings when you were almost certain the response would be negative?
"Hey Y/N!" You turned around to see Gwaine jogging to catch up to you. Speak of the devil.
"Hey Gwaine," You smiled. "Have you seen F/N yet? She's looking for you."
"That's actually why I'm here." You raised an eyebrow. "I know she's going to ask me to court her, and I was wondering if you could let her down for me?"
"Oh yeah?" You said, trying to keep your tone light and teasing. "Need a break from making constant rejections?"
"Yeah," Gwaine said, missing the sarcasm in your tone. "Yesterday I had to turn someone down and it didn't go well. I just need a break." You schooled your expression into remaining neutral.
"Okay, I'll let her know."
"You're a peach!" He kissed your cheek, causing you to freeze. He ran off, waving to you over his shoulder. While the kiss made you feel all warm and fuzzy, his words quickly pulled you back down to earth. If Gwaine was constantly rejecting people desperate to court him, how could you ever think you would be successful? You noticed your friend in the courtyard, looking around for her would-be beau. As her face fell as you delivered the news, it strengthened your resolve.
You were never going to tell Gwaine your feelings.
A few weeks had passed and the pain in your heart had dulled to nothing more than an ache.
You had told your friend what Gwaine had relayed to you. She had been disappointed, but had bounced back relatively quickly.
You sighed to yourself as you finished setting the head table for the banquet. As you turned, you bumped into a serving boy. You both let out a grunt. He managed to steady the pile of plates, but you landed on your backside.
"Sorry about that!" He apologized, setting the plates on the table and offering you his hand.
"It's okay, I should've been watching where I was going." You looked at the massive pile of plates. "I can help you if you'd like."
"Sure, that would be great." He split the pile of plates ad handed you half. "You start on that side of the table and I'll do this side." He thought for a moment. "My name is Jonathan, by the way."
"Y/N. Nice to meet you," You smiled. You made light conversation as you both worked your ways down the table. He was funnier than you expected, and you found your sides hurting by the time you made it to the other end of the table.
"I can't believe I haven't met you before. Where do you work?"
"I'm a lady in waiting for the Queen." You explained.
"That would make sense. I work in the kitchens." You nodded. A brief moment of silence passed.
"Well, I should probably see if Her Majesty needs me for anything. It was nice to meet you." You turned to leave.
"Wait!" You turned back to Jonathan. "...Are you free tomorrow?" He asked.
"Yeah," You said. He rubbed the back of his neck bashfully.
"Well, chef wants me to go into the woods and gather some berries. And I was wondering if you wanted to come?"
Maybe this was just what you needed to get over Gwaine. Any time you weren't working was spent at home by yourself. And Jonathan seemed like a nice guy. You weren't going to stay young forever either. You made up your mind.
"I'd love to," You smiled.
"Love to what?" A new voice asked. You turned to see Gwaine striding towards the two of you with a peculiar look on his face.
"Oh, hi Gwaine." You greeted him, trying to stay neutral. "I was just telling Jonathan here I would love to go and gather berries with him tomorrow." Gwaine looked between the two of you and nodded.
"Sounds fun." You let out the breath you didn't realize you were holding. "When are we leaving."
"Berry picking. What time are we leaving?"
"Of course, the Queen's lady in waiting needs an escort. One with," He looked Jonathan up and down. "Combat experience."
"What are you talking about, Gwaine?" You asked. "I go into town alone all the time."
"This is different," He insisted.
"Y/N it's fine." Jonathan interrupted you. "We can still have fun, and we'll be able to collect more fruit with three of us."
"If you're okay with it, then fine." You told him.
"We'll leave at nine tomorrow morning," Jonathan told the both of you. "I need to get back to the kitchen. I'll see you later." He grinned, and you found yourself smiling in return. You turned to speak to Gwaine, who was glaring in the direction Jonathan had gone.
"Since when do I need an escort?" You questioned, putting your hands on your hips.
"New policy." He said simply.
"Since you decided to go off into the woods with some guy you just met."
"I'm a big girl Gwaine. I can look after myself. And he's not like that," You added. "You know as well as I do the screening processes for servants. God knows how many close calls we've had before we had them."
"...Well still." Gwaine persisted. "I'd rather come along. Just to be sure."
"Fine." You said. "Just this once."
"Hopefully this only happens once." Gwaine grumbled as you turned to walk away.
"What was that?" You said.
"This is nice," Jonathan said as you walked along the forest. "You, me, and your escort."
"I know, I'm sorry about this. I tried to talk him out of it but he insisted." You said.
"It's fine Y/N, I can understand wanting to look out for your friends. Hopefully this puts his mind at rest." He assured you as you stopped by a bush to gather some berries.
"Hey Y/N!" Gwaine shouted. You and Jonathan shared a look, before you straightened up and turned around.
Gwaine was up in the branches of an apple tree, straining to reach a few fruits. "What the hell are you doing?" You shrieked. "Get down before you hurt yourself!"
"I'm a knight, Y/N! I can take care of myself!" The grin was quickly wiped off this face as the branch below him began to creak. "Oh shi—" The branch broke and he plummeted to the ground. You and Jonathan raced to where Gwaine lay crumpled on the ground. He sat up, brushing twigs and leaves off of him.
"Are you alright?" You asked. He smiled, and held out his hand.
Sitting in the palm of his hand was a shiny red apple. "For you, my lady," He said in a posh accent.
"...Are you serious right now?" You asked, dumbfounded. "You almost broke your neck for an apple?"
"...I'm only taking this so your near death experience wasn't for nothing." You grumbled, swiping the apple and pocketing it. Jonathan offered a hand to help Gwaine up, which he ignored. The three of you walked back to your baskets and picked the back up. The clock tower chimed in the distance.
"That's our cue." Jonathan said. Gwaine snatched your basket out of your hand, ignoring your demands to return it and insisting he would carry it for you. You and Jonathan shared a glance, but said nothing as you made your way back to the castle. After dropping the berries off in the kitchen with Jonathan, you began making your way up to Queen Guinevere's room to help her get ready for the banquet. As you climbed the winding stairs, you heard footsteps rushing up behind you. You turned to see Gwaine jogging towards you.
"Today was fun, wasn't it?" He remarked as he fell into step beside you.
"Yeah," You answered, not trusting yourself to say more than what was strictly necessary.
"Will you be coming to the banquet tonight?"
"No," Gwaine stopped and grasped your arm lightly.
"Hey." He began. "Did I do something?" He asked you.
"Of course not, I just won't have time to attend tonight." A total lie, Gwen had encouraged you to attend, but you didn't want to spend the night watching Gwaine work the room.
"What do you need to get done? I can help you." He offered.
"Oh no, that's not necessary." You waved him off. "You have a much harder job than mine, you should take this time to relax." Realizing he wasn't going to budge, you sighed. "I'll try and get things done quickly so I can at least make it for part of it." You conceded. Gwaine visibly brightened.
"Deal. He squeezed your arm before releasing you and heading back in the direction you both came from.
Well shit. Now you had to find things to do so you weren't a total liar. You thought for a moment, but then you remembered.
Jonathan probably needed help cleaning the berries you gathered. You changed course and headed to the kitchen.
You ducked under the arm of one of the chefs a he carried a large tray of buns and found Jonathan at a table near the back of the room. He was surrounded by bowls of fruit, and was painstakingly washing them. "Need some help?" He looked up and smiled.
"Y/N!" He scooted over on the bench. "Sure, that'd be great." You sat down next to him and began washing the fruits.
"So has Gwaine asked you out yet?" Jonathan suddenly asked. You nearly dropped the fruit.
"What?!" You all but shrieked.
"Well, after today's display, I thought he was, I dunno, staking a claim?" Jonathan continued.
"Gwaine? And me?" You said. "Absolutely not." You laughed it off, ignoring the pang of sadness.
"Well, then would it be to forward of me if I asked you out?" Jonathan asked hopefully. "I was thinking when I'm done my chores we could go to the banquet."
In all honesty, you weren't sure if you were emotionally ready, but perhaps you needed to force yourself to take that next step. After all, you couldn't spend your entire life pining after someone who didn't feel the same. You deserved someone who truly wanted you.
"I'd love to," You said with a soft smile, wondering if you made the right choice.
You were standing in front of your mirror a couple hours later, adjusting the floral crown perched on top of your head. Just as you decided you were satisfied with your appearance, you heard a knock. You opened the door, expecting to see Jonathan on the other side.
"Oh. Hi, Gwaine." You said awkwardly. "Wow," Gwaine answered with a grin. "You look amazing. I was coming to ask if you'd be able to make it tonight." He offered his arm. "Shall we?"
"Um, yeah, Jonathan and I decided to go after we finished our chores." You explained, trying to be subtle. With the mention of Jonathan, Gwaine's face visibly darkened.
"Listen, Y/N. I know he's your friend, but I am too. I don't think he's good for you." You stared at him incredulously.
"He won't be the person you deserve!"
"How do you know what I deserve, Gwaine?" You said, wanting to be over with the conversation. When he didn't answer right away, you shouldered past him. A hand on your wrist stopped you.
"Because I want to be the one you turn to!" He suddenly shouted. "I want to be the one you track down when you get good news, and the one you run to when you just need a break. I want to be the person you can trust, and I want to be the one to protect you. I want you to be on my arm at every ball, and I want to be babied by you when I do something stupid. Don't you see? He's not the man for you, because I want it to be me!" He was out of breath after his outburst.
The only response you could come up with was, "Why?"
"Why me?" You repeated. Gwaine just stared at you. "Come on Gwaine, it's no secret that you're popular. And your callers are stunning. How can I compete with that?" You looked down at your slippers. A hand cupped your cheek and tilted your face up. A pair of lips delicately covered yours. You found yourself melting into it, fingers coming to rest on Gwaine's chest. When you pulled apart, Gwaine's lips ghosted over your cheek and made their way to your ear.
"Because you see me for me. Because all I could think of when you were with him is how much I wanted to be the one you smiled at. Because this is all I've wanted to do since we got back from the forest." He pressed a kiss to your earlobe. "I've felt this way for so long, but when I saw the two of you getting close I couldn't take it anymore. Please, tell me you feel the same." He all but begged.
"Of course I do," Gwaine's face lit up and he tugged you even closer. "I've felt this way for a long time too. I just never thought I was worthy."
"Oh, Y/N." Gwaine chuckled as he kissed the side of your head. "I'm the one who needs to be worthy of you.