#mgkfanfic

[batras707]

Asks? Fanfic ideas?

[lilmisswhiskey]

🎸here’s the list of who i write for.🎸

🎸 machine gun kelly

🎸rook cappellty{mgk’s drummer}

🎸baze{mgk’s bassist}

🎸pete davidson

🎸 yungblud

🎸 nikki sixx

🎸 duff mckagan

🎸slash hudson

🎸 sebastian stan

🎸bucky barnes

🎸lee bodecker

🎸chris evans

🎸steve rogers (of any variety)

[thealternateuniverse]

AT MY BEST

mgkxreader

Word Count: 4413 

WARNINGS: smut, language and drugs 

If you wanted to be tagged please let me know. :))

"Baze pass me the joint!" I admit, I'm pretty drunk and I'll start to lose my shit any minute from now. My cousin Baze tag me along tonight, its suppose to be a boy's night out but nah I don't mind they can have their fun. I'm no stranger to them. We're in Andrei's house. These guys are my childhood friend, wrong they are my brothers and we're reunited after 4 years? I think. I've been in Ireland for too long and now I'm back to my roots. "Yo Y/N! Are Irish girls hot?" Slim asked and everyone starts laughing. I flip him off and chug down the vodka in my cup. I smoked the joint Baze handed me. Ah I miss these. Chill night with the gang. "Yo seriously. You look like them. What made you color your hair red? You look like a fuuucking idiot." Then Slim laughed sounding like a goat in labor. "Shut up fucker." My only response. I know they missed me that's why I'm their target tonight. And Slim is the leader of the pack. "Kells is on his way here." Rook said while looking at his phone. "Who's Kells?" Everyone fell silent as if I said something wrong. "What? Did I say something wrong?" Slim look at me in disbelief and laughed like a goat again. This dude is high I'm sure of that. "Really? You don't know who's Kells? Dang girl it's Colson." The fuck? Colson? Since when did he become Kells? Rook must have read my confusion.  "It' his screen name Machine Gun Kelly. Kells for short." I don't know if it's the alcohol or the shroom but I laugh so hard. "What the---- hahahaha as in Colson Baker is Machine Gun Kelly?" They look at me weirdly, like I'm some kind of alien. "Dude you don't know? He's famous." I shut up. Colson really made it. He is successful now. "What did Ireland do to you?" I just shook my head. I can't think of any comeback cause my head is somewhere in space and everything looks sharp. I guess the shroom is having it's effect on me. "What's up fuckers!" That deep voice vibrated all over the room. Colson. "Ayo man. Finally." The boys did their handshake until his eyes landed on me. "Y/N? What the fuck?! Dude you're here!" I got up from the couch and he embrace me in a tight bear hug. "Dude I fuckin miss you." I felt dizzy when he let go of me so I hold on to his arm. "You okay?" He holds my wrist and look at me. I nodded as a response. "Yeah." I sat down on the couch again, eyes felt heavy and mind flying somewhere. They converse about work, which I could not relate so I just listen and nods whenever they ask me something. "Yeah, why don't we talk about our Irish lady here." All eyes are on me again. "Seriously dude. We missed you. The good shit and such when you are here."

Back when we were bunch of idiots we used to hang at Ashleigh's place. She's the only one who has a decent home to stay and live in, and her mom was kind enough to let us stay especially Colson. "Yeah I missed you too." I drink from my cup and my gaze landed on Colson who is looking at me too. "What?" I asked, my brow raising. "Nothing. I'm just appreciating the changes." I shrug. My hair is red for a year and I'm planning to dye it black. "Whatever Colson."  I rolled my eyes while giggling. It was unintentional though.

We are all catching up. Especially me, since they missed the 4 years of my life and me missing the 4 hollywood glamour of their lives too. It's all sex drugs and rock and roll. I'm just hoping it won't get the best of them. "Daaaamn. We're really getting old. Next thing we knew Casie's walking down the aisle while Colson's crying." Colson almost choke on his drink after Baze said that. "Not happening Baze. No boys for my baby girl until I said so." Oh yeah Casie. Colson's daughter. That girl is turning to a lady and that will make Colson grow 10 years because of headache. The kid is beautiful and for sure boys will be chasing her. I wish she could spend more time with us whenever she's in Ireland. "Of course. Look at Y/N, we're so protective of her that 'til now she's single." I want to kick Dubo's shin for blurting out to everyone that I'm still single. "You're still single?" Colson asks. I can't help but blush, nothing's wrong about being single but talking about my romantic life with these idiots is like telling them that I shit in my pants and the teasing will never stop after that. "Well, it's our fault. We never let a guy come near you before. " Slim confessed. It didn't shock me though cause the guys who wanta to date me before told me that these idiots scared them or bribe them. Atleast I knew that they aren't men enough to be scared by my friends. "I don't mind though. I suck at dates." Through my peripheral, I see Colson smirked. I rolled my eyes at him. "And you have a bad taste when it comes to men." He added. I scoffed. If he only knew. Indeed I have bad taste.

We continue chatting and some of the guys are already drunk or high. I too is drunk. I stood up to went to the bathroom but everything seems spinning. With my high and drunken state I look for the bathroom. I found  it in a hallway to the kitchen but when I opened the door Baze is in there doing some porno. "Fuck. I'm sorry, don't mind me so proceed." I didn't wait for their answer and close the door. Damn I have to see that. I can't help but giggle, ironic I did that before too. I search for another available bathroom upstairs and I trip in every step. My body felt heavy so I crawled until I ended up in a room. Guest room I think? "Damn it." My vision is blurry but I managed to reach the bathroom and puked my brains out. "Fucking vodka." I wipe my mouth before puking again. Oh god, I never puke before. I felt a hand massaging my back and I turn to see who it is. Colson. "Alcohol is a bitch."

COLSON

"Fuck. Y/N saw me fucking in the bathroom." Baze came from god knows where while zipping his pants a girl clinging on his arm. Mod Sun laughed. "That cousin of yours is hot." Baze threw his cup at Mod. "You're not hitting her." Y/N changed a lot, physically. I mean it's good maybe I'm not just used to since we haven't seen each other for 4 years.

I don't know why she left, everything was okay back then. But I guess it's better that we separate ways, look at us I made it to Hollywood, she's fine and we're all good. "Yo Colson! You're awfully quiet today." Actually I'm high already. Not drunk but high. I smoked two in the studio before getting here. "Nah. I'm good. Where's Y/N?" I search the room if there's any sign of Y/N. "Maybe she went into another bathroom, one with no one fucking." Everyone laughed even Baze at Drei's statement. "Seriously tho, you and Y/N are good?" This is the question I've been dreading. Me and Y/N are good but awkard so I'm avoiding their attention by remaining silent. "You know what. Stop dicking around and tell her what you feel." I was taken aback. How the hell did Slim knew when I didn't tell anyone about it. It's so hard to act cool whenever she's around. So I didn't tell anyone and it's better if it remains tgat way and I won't lose her.  "Tell her what?" Acting as if I don't know something will do me no good. Action speaks louder than words. "Go on Colson. Deny it, next thing you knew she already have someone who's not scared to admit his feelings." I clenched my jaw at the thought that Y/N is with someone who's not me, us. "Hell yeah, we got you bro." Rook taps my shoulder. I stood up from my seat and look for Y/N. I went upstairs and search each room for her and I found her on the left wing puking her guts out in a bathroom. I immediately attended her and rubs her back. When she's done she turns around and look at me with droopy eyes. "Alcohol is a bitch." She wipes her mouth and leans on the wall. "Goddamn I need a bed." Y/N close her eyes. The alcohol and weed must have hit on her. "Hey hey, stay with me, I'll put you to bed." I held her arm but she flinch. "Don't fucking touch me Colson. I wanna fucking beat you right now." Since she's drunk I didn't mind what she said. I grab her arm again but Y/N clung on my neck and buried her face on my chest. "I thought you wanna beat me?" I held her waist to support her weight cause she looks like she's about to melt. "Shut up. I hate you." Maybe it's just her drunk self hating me. Everyone's her enemy whenever she's drunk. "Why do you hate me?" I decided to ride along with her craziness. "Cause you're a fucking asshole?" She mumbled almost hakf asleep. "And you love this asshole?" I couldn't hide my smirk. She probably won't remember this tomorrow. "Of course I love you..........and Rookie, and Slim, and Baze, and Casie.....I love EST fam." She look up to me with a smirk. Damn, she played well. "How about me? I mean only me?" She freed herself and sat on the counter, I moved forward a bit so I can be in between her legs. Y/N leans her head on my chest again. "I hate you. But I hate that I don't hate you at all. I wish you would meet Chase." Who the fuck is Chase? Is he her boyfriend? Am I too late? The fuck the boys were right, I should've told her earlier. "Who's Chase?" I rub Y/N's back, soothing her. "He's.........I love him. But I wish you would love him too." My heart began to race and I am now confuse. I held her face and look at her straight in the eye. "Y/N, tell me who's Chase?" Her eyes are all droopy and red but managed to return the look I gave her. "He's your fucking son. Happy?" Suddenly I am the one whose high. Everything around blurred and Y/N's word echoes. He's your fucking son. I have another kid. I have another kid, with her. I had a fucking kid with her and I didn't knew. I didn't even knew something happened between us. "H-how? We didn't even....." A lot of questions are running in my head but  that's the only thing came out. I am loss for words right now. "Of course you don't remember. You were so doped up with drugs that you almost raped a fan but being the good friend I am I came to the rescue and....." I think I knew what happened next. "I had sex with you instead." I finish her sentence. "I can't fucking blame you because I was the one who's sober. And God..... why did I let it happened." I didn't expect my night to be like this especially she just got back from overseas. And her confession infuriates me. "Why did you not tell me?" I want to punch myself for doing that to her. I blow every fucking chance. I took a good thing and fuck it all up in one fucking night. "I fucking loved you asshole! We were both a fucking mess. I was with you during your worst, sex drugs, rock and roll, fame is getting on you then you got me pregnant, I wasn't ready and......How can we raise a child if we're like that?! One of us has to sober up so that we won't end up hurting ourselves and the child. Funny how one night can change life forever." Y/N broke down into tears. She fucking love me. She said she fucking love me. I wish she's sober right now cause I'm not believing what's happening. She went through all this alone and I hate myself for that. I was dicking around when she was suffering alone in that goddamn country. "I'm sorry Y/N.....I -I didn't knew." I wipe her tears and rubs her back while kissing her head. "It's my fault. I never told you." I hushed her, but tears still streaming down her face. I am so angry right now, to myself, to what happened. I feel like shit for being a dick. Now I have a son whose growing up not knowing his father. It's an awful situation cause I grew up without a mother too. I may be an asshole but I won't let a kid running around not knowing me especially if it's mine. "Let's get you to bed. You're drunk." I carried her out and brought her to my room. I laid Y/N on my bed and undress her after. As if I've never seen her naked before. I dress her with one of my shirts then cover her with a blanket. Kissing her head I left the room and went back downstairs. Everyone seems to chill now. "Yo dude. Is Y/N okay?" Baze asks. He was caught off guard when I lounge him and held the collar of his shirt. "Why the fuck you didn't tell me?!" Slim, Rook and Drei went to the rescue to ease the tension. "Ayo, Kells chill. What the fuck is going on?" Slim held me back while Drei is pulling Baze from my grasp. "Man. It was her decision, and I won't intervene on whatever's going on between you two. I didn't know how did you even got her pregnant when you were busy fucking around." My blood boils and Baze's words fuelled my anger. I was about to attack him again but Slim blocked me. "What the fuck Kells? You had a child? With Y/N?!" Everyone fell silent. "Yeah." Rook was the first one to speak. "No shit. How old is the child?" I don't want my son to estranged me, it was hard before when I had Casie. "Probably 3. Who else fucking knew? Could've told me I had another kid." I glared at Baze. "Ashleigh fucking knew." Baze answered. Damn it Ashleigh. "But she just found out when Y/N called before going back here." Didn't they even thought that it was my child who's growing up not knowing his father?! "Yeah. Whatever. Thanks for the info. Gotta go."

I grabbed my keys and left. I need to fucking think.

Y/N's FUCKING POV

I woke up with wave of nausea. My head hurt like it was hit by a ton of bricks. I opened my eyes just tk realized I'm not in Baze's house and I'm not wearing my clothes. I couldn't even remember what happened last night. The last thing I remember was Colson helping me threw up. Guess this is his clothes I'm wearing base on it's size.

I look at the clock and it's 2 in the afternoon. Damn I was that passed out? I opened the closet searching for a sweatpants or short. Fuck that 6'4 height of his. I look like a sack. Blame my 5'8 height. I settled on his shorts because it's the only bottom I look human. I don't want parading around the house with only my panties on. I went downstairs to see if someone's here. Slim is in the kitchen looking like a bitch. Looks like he hadn't sleep yet. "Slim where is everyone?" Slim jumped a little, surprised by my presence. I giggled and I sat down to one of the chairs in the counter. He served me a plate of pasta which I heavenly feasted. "Out. With Colson." Had they sleep yet? "Where are they going?" I munch all in the plate while listening to Slim. "Out, having some quality time with his son." I choked on my food. I coughed, It feels like the pasta stucked in my throat and wants to go out in my nose. Slim handed me a water. "T-thanks. What do you mean son?" My heart started to hammer. "Oh? I thought Colson's the one who didn't knew he had a child. Seems like you forgot." I feel like all the Colors in my face drained. Impossible. I have blurted out everything last night! Stupid! Colson already knew. I won't get away this time. Slim taps my shoulder. "You know we're here for you Y/N."  Slim said sincerely. I sighed feeling guilty. I feel like a bitch for not telling Colson, he deserves to know, it's his right. "I was just so scared Slim. I didn't know what to do. I wasn't ready and I don't know how to raise a child." A tear fell. It's all out now. "You two should talk." Just in time the living room is filled with noise. They're here. Anxiety building up inside me, Colson is here and I don't know how to act. I heard the small giggles and that little voice of a child approaching. "Look who's hereeee..." Chase's blue orbs widened when he saw me. But I almost cry at the sight because Colson is carrying him. "Mumm..." Chase wiggled and Colson put him down. He ran towards me. "Baby......mommy missed you." I held Chase, embracing him in a tight hug while I gave him kisses. "Ash! Can you get Chase here first. Y/N and I, need to talk."

A shiver went down to my spine. This is it. And by the looks of it Colson is not happy, he keeps a neutral face except when he holds Chase. Ash went to here in the kitchen and took Chase. I gave her a reassuring smile and went back to the living room.

"In my room now." He didn't let me answer and immediately went to his room upstairs. I followed him. I got into his room and locked the door.

"Colson I'm so sorry I didn't tell you---" Colson turned to face me and his eyes is at it's darkest shade of blue.

"Take off your shirt now." My jaw dropped. I am confused, we are in a serious situation and he wants my shirt off? I followed his orders and take off my shirt exposing my bust in lacy bra. "I don't know what this is bu---" he didn't let me finish my sentence again. "Strip all your clothes." My eyes widened this time. "Colson what the fuck are you up to?!" Is he insane? "Are you going to do it? Or let me do the honor?" I gulp. He is serious. I strip all the remaining clothes leaving my underwears. Damn good thing I have everything lasered. "Do you know how frustrating all this is?" He moves forward. I move backward. I am so scared of him right now, excited at the same time I don't knkw if he's high or what. "Leaving without saying goodbye, showing up again after years and told me that we had a son." I keep moving backwards until I hit the wall, Colson trapping me with both arms. "You know how frustrating it is you left me hanging?" His fingers ran through my sides giving me shiver. He hooked one of his fingers to the strap of bra. He lowered his head on my ear. "You know how frustrating it is when I am fucking someone but it's your face I see." He whispered. I bit my lip from the sensation. "You are not getting away this time Y/N." He licks my ear and kisses my jaw reaching my lips. I respond to his kisses but Colson suddenly pulled away. What the fuck. "I don't forgive easily babe." He unbuckled his belt with one hand while the other was holding both of my wrist already. I was so drown in his charms that he already held my wrists.  He tied the belt around and held both of my hands up. "My rules." Colson dipped his head on my neck sucking it making sure it will leave marks after. I bit my lip hard, holding myself back not to let out a moan. "I am so angry that I want to fuck you so bad. So dirty." I clung both my arms to his neck initiating the kiss rubbing myself against him, being the fucktard he is he pulled away again. I can feel his boner poking to my stomach, that's it go hard for me asshole. "A-ah, what did I say? My rules. Now behave." Colson slammed me to the wall and kiss me hungrily, it wasn't gentle at all, seems like he's venting out all his anger. My lips will be swollen after this. I kissed him back with the same enthusiasm, it's my inner dominant self taking over. He grabs my ass lifting me and I gladly wrap my legs around his waist. "Bad huh. " He smacks my ass throwing me to his bed. "You're all talk Colson. Just fuck me." I don't know where my confidence came from but that made him smirk, grabbing my legs and pull me to the edge of the bed. I know I hit his ego and now he's more aggressive. I pulled him towards me, clinging on to his neck, kissing him passionately and less angry than earlier. He ripped my panties off and throw it god knows where the same aith my bra. "What the fuck! That was la perla!" He insert 2 of his finger making me gasp. "I can fucking buy you a hundred pair of those. Now moan." Biting my lip didn't help at all, I let out a slutty moan feeling his fingers inside me. "Damn look at that so wet for me." He trailed kisses from my thighs to my belly button adding speed to his pace. I rolled my eyes back from the sensation fuck his fingers feels good, I want them in all day. "God dammit you're mine." He kisses me again and lowering it to the valley of my breasts. "Did you feel like this when we did it Y/N?" He added another finger causing me to moan louder. "I----fuck it." He remove all his fingers. "Fuck give it to me Colson!" The bastard just smirked unbuttoning his pants and taking off his shirt. "Say it, or you won't getting this." He took off his pants leaving his ethika boxers, his XXX tattoo and boner peeking. I have the same tatto on my belly button. "Yes you fuck so good!" His eyes turned darker, taking off his boxers his dick sprang out in it's fullest hard form. My eyes glued to God's gift to women not believing it fit inside me years ago. "Give me a head sweetheart." I don't know but his words are like spells that makes me follow him. Colson moved forward, I grab his dick running my hands up ad down. I lick the tip of his dick which earned him a groan, falling his head back. I started to bob my head up and down, taking him all within my reach.  He grabs my hair guiding my head. "Fuck. You're doing good baby." Colson breaths heavily, he couldn't take it anymore he pulls me up and lay me down to bed placing himself above me. He kissed my head before kissing my lips feeling him entered me. I gasped. It was painful, it feels like giving birth. A tear rolled down my cheek but Colson was quick to kiss it away. "I got you baby." He let me adjust to his size before moving slowly. I moaned, not feeling pain but pleasure instead, making me scratch hard his back while my other hand grips his hair. Colson groaned speeding up his pace and my moans are getting louder. "Colson......oh my god. Don't stop." I arch my back and wrap my thighs around his waist tightly giving him more access. "Fuck Y/N you're so tight." Colson pulled out and I swear I wan't to cut his balls. He flip me off, now my ass is facing him. He entered me again without warning and it feels damn good in this position. I moaned out loud not giving a damn if somebody hears me. Colson gripped my waist tight continue slamming himself. We're both panting as our bodies slapped against each other, sweats dripping, and lust feeding us both. Colson knows what he's hitting and it made me see the heavens and galaxies. "Colson I'm c-cumming." I said through heavy breaths. He lowered himself and bit my earlobe. "Come for me baby." My walls clenched around him, tension building from my stomach until my orgasm hits. Colson didn't stop he speeds up instead and moments later he came, spilling his essence inside me. "Fuck." He lets out a groan while still inside me riding out his orgasm. We stayed in that position for a minute and laid beside me after. I moved and laid on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. "I'm sorry." I pressed a soft kiss of his jaw before kissing him on the lips. "I love you." I jolted up from the bed covering myself with a blanket. He just blurted out those 3 words. "Shit. Don't freak out." He also got up from the bed but only on the edge. "Fuck Y/N! I fucking love you okay? Since the day we stole a weed from your dad." I couldn't help but cry. I straddled Colson's lap and kissed him hard. "You asshole." Colson kissed me again his hands on my waist. "Round 2?" The bastard grins wiggling his eyebrows. "I fucking love you asshole even though you're the worst."

[omgitskeay-blog]

Tabitha's parents always warned her about the drugs in the streets but never the one with blue eyes and a heart beat. H...

[machinegunkellyff-blog]

Chapter 23 : Time Heals .

Brielle's POV

Beep. Beep. Beep.

I could hear the faint beep of the monitor as I tried to open my eyes. As they slowly started to open, the dim light above me hit me like a Mac truck.

" uggggh, turn the lights off. " I groaned, rubbing them to focus. I looked out around the room and was surprised that it was full. My mother was asleep in one chair, Kells, Justice, Harmony,and Casie shared the couch while Slim slept on the floor with Daniel on his chest along with Dre, Slim, Irv, Ash and Xplo. I could feel tears slide down my cheeks as I looked at my family and I wondered what they would be without me. I felt an overwhelming shadow of guilt wash over me as I buried my head into my knees and sobbed.

" Brielle? " I heard Justice whisper. I snapped my head up and in a split second she was in the bed with me hugging my tight.

" I'm sorry Justice! " I cried repeatedly in her arms.

" It's okay. I love you so much, don't you ever do that to me again! " she said shakily, burying her face in my hair. She rocked back and forth, soothing not only me, but herself. I could feel her heartbeat echo throughout her chest as she silently cried. I had finally realized that the choices I had made not only harmed me, but the ones I loved. But no matter what I had done, they still loved me to death...

Slim's POV

" Slim." I heard my name echo in my head. " Slim. " The voice got quieter and choked up, causing me to sit up. Daniel wiggled fussily as I sat him in Brielle's mom's lap and stood up, stretching.

" Brielle? " I froze, staring at the bed. I felt my heart melt as I wrapped my arms around her. Justice kissed her forehead and rubbed my back before getting out of the bed and going back to her place on the couch with Kells and the girls. I climbed in the bed with Brielle, making sure not to mess with her IV. I ran my fingers through her hair as she whimpered on my chest.

" Baby, I'm so sorr- "

" Shhh. " I silenced her, and held her until she fell asleep, falling soon after.

The next morning ...

" Dada! " I heard a little voice yell followed by a tug at my shoestrings. I sat up and noticed Daniel trying his hardest to climb into the bed. With one arm, I lifted him into my lap.

" Mommy? " He looked up at me with a frown.

" Mommy's sleeping right now, little man. Let's go get some food. " I whispered, rubbing his back. He smiled and hugged my neck as I stood up and put both of our coats on.

By the time we got back everyone was up and talking.

" Breakfast is here! " I yelled, passing around McDonald bags. Everyone thanked me as they dug into their food. I went to sit next to Brielle, who was getting her feeding tube put in since her throat was still sore from her breathing tube.

" You okay? " I asked, watching Daniel play with his cousins. She nodded and laid back, rubbing my hand.

" You know you going to rehab right? " I asked, not taking my eyes off of her. I could feel Brielle's wide eyes burning a hole in the side of my cheek.

" 14 weeks. " I paused. " You leave on Monday. I'm not gonna have a drugged up heroine fiend as a baby momma so you gone get this shit over with. "  

I turned towards Brielle and met her tear filled gaze. Everyone knew she was sick, but the only one who knew she was using for 2 years was her. She was high as a kite when she had slept with Kells and even higher when Justice smacked her ass down. But 2 years was too fucking long.  This shit ends now...

Justice's POV

I was glad when Slim asked me to help him put Brielle in rehab. Even though she had hurt me, that was my sister, and I was gonna hold her down & do anything for her no matter what.  Just then Kells' phone went off.

" Baby, get that for me, your daughters are attacking me! " He yelled wrestling with Casie and Harmony. I laughed and checked his texts.

Rachel : Had a great time with you last month. Had an even better night ;) Call me xoxoxoxo

I slowly locked the phone back and set in on the table, feeling the anger boil from deep inside of me. I got up and walked out to get some air. I saw red as I walked out of the room, accidentally walking into a tall brunette.

" Oh shit, my bad. " I said.

" No it's okay." She smiled. " Actually I need some help. "

" Okay. " I chuckled.

" I'm looking for MGK. His friend is in the hospital and I heard he was here. I need to talk to him. He hasn't called me in a while." She smiled. 

" About what? If you don't mind me asking. " I asked. folding my arms and plastering a smile on my face. She proceeded to tell me about the lusty nightcap he had and how long they had sex and how good he was.

" Well, that sounds ..... great. " I said, my smile fading. " Follow me, I'll take you to him. " I led her back to the room where everyone was.

" Hey, Kells. " I walked in, Rachel following close behind me. Everyone froze, including Kells, who looked like a deer in headlights as his face turned bright red. " I saw Rachel out in the hall and she was looking for you, so I led her to you. 

" Aww shit. " I heard Dre whisper.

" Harmony, Casie. Come put your coats on! " I yelled, causing the girls to run towards me. I hurried and zipped my coat up, lifted Harmony onto my hip and walked out.

" Justice, wait! " I heard Richard yell, but I had no energy left to fight with him.

" Kells! " Rachel yelled, grabbing his arm, but he slipped on his hoodie and ran after me.

I buckled Harmony and Casie into their carseats then walked around to the driver's side and slammed the door, breaking down into tears. I was tired of the excuses. Tired of the lies. Tired of the hurt and pain. I was done. It was over this time.

" Justice! " I could here Richard yell as he ran up to the car.

" Daddy! " Both girls exclaimed.

" Richard, get away from my car!!!! " I screamed, as he tried to yank the door open.

" Let me the fuck in! " He growled, yanking on the door again. I started the car and put it in reverse, causing Richard to fall. I put the car in drive and sped off, leaving Richard in a cloud of snow and lost love. What we had had died from being stomped on so many times. I had to move on and today was the day...

[lacedup717]

All We Have: Awkward Shower Singing

So turn me up, you set me free, just look inside your speakers and there you’ll see me!!

I almost fell out of bed when the music from my best friend’s alarm woke me up! It blasted through the speakers and rang through my head.

Uhh, there I go, two clicks north of the Bronx, whoever thought she would find love in a stereo, two headphones and a box!!

"Tamara!!!!" I yelled looking up and noticing that she was nowhere to be found in the room that we shared. "Tamaraaaa!!" I called for her again. She came bouncing back into the room, her black hair now pin straight trailing behind her.

"Oh sorry.. I was just so excited, I woke up really early and decided I would just get ready now." She replied

"Dude, we aren’t supposed to be there until like 3:30 this afternoon."

"No, remember 2:00 this afternoon if we want to get some good seats."

I sighed, “Whatever, the point is it’s frikkin’ 8:30 in the morning, we have time.”

Last week, Tamara managed to snag a couple tickets in a bet she won against these guys that go to school with us. They had bought some tickets to the MGK show that was in town tonight, you know Machine Gun Kelly. She has a fond love of him and decided she just had to have these tickets, so they made a bet that if she could beat them, both of them, in a race around the school that she could have the tickets. I of course didn’t participate, I was the timer, along with another one of their friends that was making sure I didn’t shave some time off of hers so we would win. Personally, I wasn’t too worried about the tickets, I like MGK and all but, that’s what YouTube is for, right? Anyway, on the start of the timer they go running through the school and down the stairs, Tamara, who ran track and plays soccer took a few shortcuts and made it back down to us a whole minute and a half before the other two. Since then, she’s been waiting for this night where she can finally see this guy live.

"What should I wear?" she asked me

"What were you planning on wearing?" I asked her sitting up and scratching my messy bed head.

"Well, I got the lace up shirt," she started, heading to the closet we shared, "but I also have the I’m Laced Up shirt, and then there’s the Half Naked and Almost Famous shirt."

"You can only wear one, Tamara." I reminded her

"It’s so hard to choose!!"

I shook my head, “I’ll tell you what, I’m gonna go to the bathroom and brush my teeth and get ready for the day and while I’m gone you make up your mind about which one you want to wear k?”

I threw the covers from over myself and went to the bathroom that was attached to the room. I turned on the water to get in the shower. I plugged in my phone to the dock and shut the door since Tamara was still blaring MGK’s Stereo on her’s. I got in the shower and sang along with the music.

When I go off, like July 4th

Feels like a fire, got to go higher

Your revelation, my sweet celebration

Light me like a rocket, cuz can’t nothing stop it

All I see is fireworks

Every night it’s fireworks

All I see is fireworks

Takin off like fireworks

"You know," Tamara was now yelling through the sound of the shower, "you should really take your voice seriously." She had turned down the music she was playing and listened to me sing in the shower like a creeper, but that’s just Tamara.

"No!" I replied squeezing my shampoo bottle.

"I’m just sayin’!" She continued, "Your voice is amazing!"

"No it’s not, trust me!"

After I got out of the shower we decided that we would spend the day shopping, I had just got my paycheck from my crappy job as a cashier at a grocery store. It was boring and got on my nerves at times but it was a job, and they pay me every week so I’m not really complaining. I had finally gotten my own car now that I had bought with my own money since my parents aren’t paying for anything for me. They loved me but you know we didn’t come from much. I like the fact that they never spoiled me, it taught me the value of a dollar. I bought 3 pairs of skinny jeans, one black, one red, and the other one grey.  I also bought 2 T-shirts to go with them, a white and black one. After, I stopped by famous footwear to pick up a new pair of shoes. I’ve been saving up for a long time for these, the Chuck Taylor Moto Leathers with the cheetah print on the inside and the zipper type lace up’s. I left the store with the box clutched close to my side, I couldn’t wait to put them on tonight. If anything, I was probably more excited to wear those then I was to see the show. Either way we got back home at about noon and started to get ready.

"Come on, come on, come on! We’re gonna be late!" Tamara said still fumbling around with which shirt she wanted to wear. "I still can’t choose!"

"Why didn’t you choose when I was in the shower?" I said pulling up the black skinny jeans and white shirt that I got.

"You pick."

"Depends," I replied, "What shoes are you wearing?"

"My black, cheetah, print Nike Dunk High’s"

"Oh, well then that’s easy, wear the Half Naked and Almost Famous shirt."

"Really?"

"Yea, the black matches, and the cheetah print kinda goes with what the shirt says, I guess."

"This is why I keep you around." She smiled at me

It was 1 when we left. Before making my way out of the door, I grabbed my phone and my headphones to make sure I had something to listen to while we waited outside of the building. We got there earlier than I expected, and 1:30. We were at least the 3rd ones in line, but we still had a very long time to go. Wow, this just might take forever.

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Chapter Twenty-One : Moving On

Justice’s POV

" I’m sorry. " I looked up at Richard before taking JP’s hand and walking back into the house.

" So that’s it? " Richard choked. " You’re just gonna give up on us? "

" Richard, you have serious relationship problems that you need to sort out. " I turned around.

" But you kn- "

" Stop using your mom leaving you as an excuse to be unfaithful! " I screamed, angry tears streaming down my face. " Your mom left before you even met me, and you knew you had problems and you still asked me to be with you! That’s your fault! " 

I watched as pain masked over Richard’s face.

" Well, I hope your happy. " He mumbled, letting his tears fall.

" I am. " 

Richard got up and walked to his truck as I walked with Rookie back in to the house.

* a year later *

I sat on my bed, looking down at this letter from XXL. They personally chose me for the cover of their magazine this month and I’m excited. Ever since the scene back at JP’s house, things have gotten better. I took Harmony back to Toledo and focused on her and my interest in modeling. I’ve gotten a few gigs here and there but this was the big leagues. But I was nervous that I might see Richard their since he got into the Freshman class of this year.

" Mamamama? " I heard Harmony call from the hall before toddling into my room.

" yes baby? " I smiled, cupping her face.

" Ashey! " she smiled, pointing to the door.

" Who’s there honey? " I looked at the door.

" Ashey! "

" Oh your god mother is here! " I jumped up, rushing to the door. I opened it to see Ashley’s bright smile.

" Hey hun! " she walked in, hugging me tight. " Are you ready for XXL? "

" Kinda. I’m a little nervous. " I chuckled.

" It’s okay, as your new agent, I’ll make sure everything goes as smooth as possible! Now let’s go before we miss our flight! "

" Okay, I'm ready! Harmony, come put your coat on! " I yelled.

Harmony cam running at full speed with her dress in her hand.

" No baby, it’s not warm enough. " I said, taking the dress away.

" No coat! " she screamed, crossing her arms on her chest.

" Stubborn, just like her father. " Ashley chuckled. I laughed with her as I coaxed Harmony’s coat on.

" NO! " she screamed, snatching away.

" Harmony Brielle Marie De Leon-Baker, if you don’t come put this coat on! " I screamed, her name reminding me of my once best friend. I grabbed Harmony and slid her coat on as we grabbed our bags and walked out.

Richard’s POV

" Ready, brah? " Slim smiled, punching my arm.

" Yeah. " I smiled back. I can’t believe I’m in the Freshman Class of XXL. I’m excited that I will be gracing the cover of their magazine next month, but first I gotta go in and sign some legal shit. As I walked into the building with Casie holding tight on my hand, I noticed a light pink bubble jacket at the elevator out of the corner of my eye. I turn and see a head full of brown curls and one name shoots from my mouth.

" Harmony? " I call out, watching as she turned around and smiled.

" Dadadadadada! " she screamed, running into my arms.

My face lit up as I hugged my youngest daughter tight.

" Harmony? Harmony! " I heard Ashley scream before stumbling into me.

" Kells! " she yelled, hugging me. " Did you get all the stuff signed? "

" Nah, I was going to do that now. " I said. " Wait, why are you here? I thought you were in Toledo.

" Well I came back with Justice so she could do her modeling for this month. "

" She’s gonna be on this month’s cover? " I yelled, steam slowly building up in my ears. The thought of another man seeing my baby moms’ half naked made my blood boil.

" Yes, you didn’t know? " Ashley asked.

" Hell no! " I yelled, throwing my hands up. " Fuck that. " I caught the elevator just as it came and pressed the button violently for the 4th floor. As soon as the elevator landed, I stormed out and into the studio when I was stopped dead in my tracks. Justice looked gorgeous as she posed for the camera. As much as I hate to say this, something about Justice just melts a muthafucka.

" Richard? " Justice called out.

" Uh, hey. " I mumbled.

" What are you doing here? " she yelled, storming over to me.

" I jus- "

" I told you to leave me alone! " she screamed.

" I just came to fucking sign papers, for christ fuckin’ sake! " I screamed back, stepping closer to her. " I’m done chasing your stubborn ass! "

I walked away, leaving Justice standing there. As I pressed for the elevator, I heard heels clicking behind me.

" Richard! RICHARD! " she yelled.

" Man, what? " I said, keeping my back to her.

" I-I’m sorry. "

" Yeah, and you were sorry last year too right? " I chuckled sarcastically.

I could feel the hurt tear through her, but I didn’t give a fuck. I tried.

" Yeah, I was. " she whispered, walking away.

" Don’t you fuckin’ get it? " I sneered, turning to her. " I tried to apologize. I loved you. You had my fuckin’ kid and was there for me when I ain’t have shit. Yeah, I fucked up! I cheated! "

I was stepping so close, I had her back up against the wall.

" I tried to make things right. But when you’ve been dealt a fucked up hand when it come to women, that shit’s pretty fuckin’ hard! " I slammed my fist into the wall above her head.

" What else do you want from me, Justice? "

" I wanted you to be faithful. If not for me, then for our child. I wanted you to be around. I wanted to be the only one you were fucking! I wanted to love you but you just couldn’t handle that! " she growled at me, pushing her fingers into my temple.

" I can do that! " I growled back.

" Oh, yeah fuckin’ right! " she laughed, making me angrier. " I’d like to see that happen. "

" Fine! " I grabbed a hold of her neck and squeezed as I pulled lips into mine. Somehow, Justice had lit that dim fire inside of me, like gas to a match.

I now had her feet off the ground and her ass in my hands as I hungrily bit down into her neck, causing her to moan and sigh. I shove her back down onto the ground, quickly gripping her neck.

" I’ll call you. " I whispered hoarsely into her ear before pushing her neck and head into the wall and walking off.

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Chapter Eighteen: Lead You On

Richard's POV

What the fuck happened last night? All I remember is passing out at the bar with my brother. I sat up in my bed and looked around. The room felt like it was spinning and I could feel a migraine crash down on my temples. I got up out of the bed and noticed Spordy sitting at the table with his laptop open.

" What's Up, Spordy? " I nodded to him, noticing his facial expression. " What's with the laptop? "  He lifted a pair of headphones up and handed them to me. I took them, plugged them in and pressed play.

Yeah, Brielle it's me baby.

Kells, you're drunk, you need to leave!

Stop!

Then, I hear moans and I snatch off the headphones and hurl them at the wall, causing Justice to jump.

" What the hell, Richard? " she yelled rubbing her eyes. I get up and storm out of the room, leaving Justice and Spordy in the room.

Justice's POV

" What the hell is his problem? " I asked, getting out of the bed and walking over to Spordy. He quickly closed his laptop and walked towards the door. " Spordy, wait! " I could barely call him again before the door slammed in my face. what the fuck is wrong with those two? I pulled on my yoga pants and was ready to leave when I noticed Slim passed out on the floor.

" Slim. " I said loudly, nudging him with my foot. " SLIM! "

" What? " He jumped up, his eyes bloodshot red.

" Get your drunk ass up off the bathroom floor. " I said, helping him to his feet. I turned on the shower and threw a towel at his face.

" Take a shower, you stink nigga! " I laughed, covering my nose.Just when I was about to walk out, Slim grabbed my arm and pulled me close to him.

" Slim, what the hell? Get off me! " I yelled, trying to pry his fingers apart.

" Sorry, Justice. " He slurred, letting me go. He got naked and got in the shower, and I left to find Brielle.

As soon as I got out of the door, I run smack into Dre.

" Oh shit, sorry Dre. " I said, stumbling back.

" Nah, you good. " he said smiling.

" Have you seen Brielle? " I asked.

" She was outside pacing and shit like a crackhead. " he laughed.

" Shut up, asshole. " I rolled my eyes and walked out to the back of the hotel. Brielle was there and Dre was right, she was pacing back and forth like some lunatic. I slowly walked up to her and rub her shoulder, startling her.

" Justice, what are you doing out here? " she said, trembling.

" I just came to see if you were okay. " I whispered. " Dre said you were out her pacing like a crackhead. " I laughed, scratching my arm for emphasis.

" I fucked up, Justice. " she said with tears in her eyes.

" Brielle, what did you do? " I asked, stepping closer to her.

" J-Justice, I-I'm so sorry. " She studdering, tears falling from her light brown eyes.

" Brielle, why are you apologizing to me? " I asked, anger slowly building inside me.

" Bec-cause, I had sex with Richard last night. " She mumbled, breaking down. 

I just stared at her, my eyes growing wider and wider. I couldn't even process the next series of events that happened.

SMACK! 

I hauled off and back-handed Brielle, sending her to the floor, she looked up at me, shocked. I grabbed her by her shirt and lifted her back onto her feet, smacking her several times.

" Justice, STOP! I'm sor- "

SMACK!

I shoved into the wall by the door and stared her in the eyes.

" How the fuck could you do that shit to me? "

" I..I- "

"  Bitch, shut the fuck up! " I said smacking her again. " We're supposed to be sisters! Fucking sisters. Any other mufucka I was dating you could've fucked and I wouldn't have given two flying fucks. But I have to be involved with that mufucka for the next 18 YEARS! Fuckin' YEARS, Brielle! All the mufuckas in fuckin' Cleveland and you choose my fuckin' baby daddy to fuck???? "

" Justice, it wasn't even like that! He came into my room, I tried to stop him! "

SMACK! 

I had to back-hand her one more time. " Bitch, you know my fucking number, you could've called me or screamed for help! I was ONE fuckin' door down! You let him fuck you! And if Dre wouldn't have said you were here tripping out, you would've kept that shit a secret! You're foul, Brielle. But you know what, I forgive you! But our friendship is fuckin' done. Fuck you! " I screamed, fighting back tears.

" Justice, wait. " She cried, reaching for my arm. " Please don't go! "

" BItch, if you want to leave here without a broken nose, you better not fucking touch me. " I sneered, opening the back door. I fixed my hair into a bun and walked down the hallway running into Slim and Richard and walking directly past them.

" Hey, baby. Where you going? " Richard said, clutching my wrist.

" You fucked Brielle, that's what Spordy showed you this morning, huh? I said, turning towards him. His face flushed, and he became pure white.

" Baby, I- "

" Shut the fuck up. I'm sick of Sorry. " I said holding up my manicured hand to his face. " Mufucka, the child support papers will be in your mailbox in two weeks.  I'm done. " I turned and walked back to the room, packed my shit and left in his car. I decided I'd take a trip down to Toledo.

JP's POV

Damn, It's been a while since I've heard from Kells and the gang. I was rolling up with my cousin, Johnnie, thinking about everyone back in Cleveland when the doorbell rang.

" Go get that shit nigga. " Johnnie said, nodding towards the door.

" You go get it! You see I'm doing something! And plus your ass be here all the time like you live here, go answer your door! " I laughed as Johnnie got up and headed to the door. I leaned to the side to see who it was.

" Damn, girl. You fine as fuck! " Johnnie exclaimed, looking up and down at the figure in the door.

" Johnnie, get your jail bait ass away from me! " the person said, hugging Johnnie and stepping in the house. It was Justice. She was dressed in a tee shirt and yoga pants and her hair was pulled into a ponytail. I always thought Justice was fine ever since I started drumming for Kells, but I never said anything because that was his down bitch. 

" Hey, Justice! " I yelled, finished the joint I was rolling. She walked into the room and sat on the couch next to me. Even though she was 3 years my senior, I would still fuck her lights out.

" Hey, JP. How you been? " she smiled, punching my arm.

" Good, I had to come back to Toledo because my grandma wasn't feeling well. " I lifted the joint and lit it, taking a long hit before passing it to Justice.

" How is she? " She asked, taking a hit and blowing the smoke into the air.

" She's okay. " I shrugged. " she just had some chest pains from her cold. "

" Well, you need to watch her, people her age get sick easily. " Justice warned me, taking one more hit before passing it back.

" I know but shit, what's going on back in Cleveland? " I asked.

" Kells fucked Brielle. " she sighed.

" WHAT? " I said, sitting up and staring at her. " Are you serious? "

" Yup, fucked her, and Spordy caught that shit all on camera. But Brielle ended up cracking and told me. You know she can't keep shit in when you're right in front of her.  " She took another hit and passed the blunt again. 

" You didn't killed her, did you? " I asked, blowing smoke.

" Hell no, I just smacked her ass around. I wouldn't literally beat her ass. " she said. " But, I'm putting Kells' ass on Child Support and moving the fuck on. I'm sick of being cheated on. "

" I hate to say that that's good, but it is. " I said, rubbing her soft ass skin. We kept smoking until we went through 3 joints and we were floating. Then came the munchies and 20 minutes later, we were laughing in IHOP.

" This is the most fun, I've had in a while! " she laughed.

" Glad I could cheer you up. " I smiled, enjoying being in her presence.

" Thank you JP. " she leaned across the table, kissing my cheek.

14 stacks of pancakes with strawberry syrup and 2 hours later, we were sitting in my truck in a field.

" JP, have you ever had your heart broken? Justice asked, looking up at me from her pulled down seat.

" Uhh, yeah in third grade. " I chuckled, causing her to laugh.

" I'm forreal! " she yelled.

" Yeah, but I try not to think about it. " I said.

" Why not? " she sat up, staring into my eyes.

" Because whoever broke my heart simply didn't deserve me. So I give them the middle finger and find someone who does. " I stared back, my eyes slowly moving to her lips. She must've known where I was looking because slowly licked them, sending bolts of electricity down my body. I leaned in closer to her.

" And sometimes, we find that person in someone we wouldn't expect. But fuck it, if they're right for the moment. Take that chance. " We were now so close, I could smell the strawberries on her breath.She lifted her left arm and ran her fingers through my hair, pulling my lips to hers.....